aye aye

2008-07-25T23:48:00.001+08:00

just watched red cliff, quuuuite nice. haha i dont really quite get it bout the characters, but the filming is woonderful:D haha but like dark knight, its equally tiring to watch. but still, :D

elmo is getting into me these dayys>< lonely elmo, lonely:( today i talked with jenzi. then i thought of dark knight, "silent guardian, protector". doesnt seem possible to happen in reality, but there are really pple like that. those people who keep doing things for people, thinking for people, looking out for people. those worthy to be called friends! but sadly, how many of such can we find! yeah, close to none around us. at least, close to none around me! friends, plentiful. true friends, nil. its quite sad, but what can we do! some random pple just came to my mind, those you call friends. how many of them are going to be there when you need them! and now you think. at least you are thinking. better than those going about putting on masks. joker masks. scary when you think bout it. think of what's underneath the mask. these pple you cant trust, cos one day they will just stab you, wont they? with the "why so serious" and bam! friendships are far more tiring that watching dark knight arent they, having to think bout their next move. freaky. i have a reeeally big fear. the fear of being the same level as you. i dont want to be like you! sigh, close friends are hard to find, eh?

其实别人的招数我们都懂
没有什么不同
故作软弱撒娇害羞
只是有一点别扭

傻瓜也许单纯地懂
爱得没那么做作
爱上了我不保留

and you say trust, but i've lost my faith in you.

2008-07-24T21:30:00.002+08:00

AHHHHH I WANNA DIG A HOLE AND PUT MY HEAD INSIDE!!! :((( i just saw what bel sent me and jinyao. EEEEEYERRR i think its so disgustinggg!! EHHH YALL DELETE OKAAAY! wah piang, how come i never knew i said things like that! *FAAAAINT* its damn lame can! now i can imagine the whole class receiving it and reading and IM GOING TO zzzzzzz!! bu yao spreeeeeaaad! ahhh wo yao zhuang qiang le-.- OMOOOOO i cant stand it anymore!! DD:

DDDDDD: after reading that i felt so depressed! when did i say things like that! FORGET FORGET FORGET! damn hypocritical i didnt even mean it in the first place! what the hell is wrong with me! AHHHHHHHHHHHHH! what if jinyao and bel send to other pple! then pple will know, spread, know spread! *FAINTFAINTFAINT*

you dont remember, you dont remember, you dont remember... forgetttttt... sigh, calmer. i shall take it all as childish folly and WANG JI! grah:( anywayyyy, im supposed to feel happy cos black tests are over! siaaaan. block test was quite stressing this round, probably cos i didnt start early. well, especiall bio. i wont be surprised if i fail cos i only studied the day before. but if i fail math im going eat my books man! math i pia hardest already luh! i was so stressed to the extent that when i wanted to keep the fruits in fridge and wash my hands, i ended up putting the fruits at the sink and going to the fridge to wash my hands. zzzzz.. then i also kena ulcer:(

anyway, although the convo reeally spoils my image, recently i kept catching pple at their embarrassing moments. like, georgi attempting to sit down but falling on her chair-.- and rachel at kap! hahaha rachel doesnt want me to say leh! i shall zip first! next time then say! haha then ytd jinyao was about to get off, she turned around and smile then i thought she banged into the pole hahaha! but she said she just wanted to hold the pole but missed it-.-

anywayyy. today was very brain-juice-draining! we had math test, then chem test, then phy test. then after that we went to cine to watch moovie. waaaah dark knight damn mind-draining! have to think alot cos too many things happening at the same time! not advised to watch after block tests! but it was really quite nice! except for the suddeness which totally stopped my heart for two seconds. like, silence... then BOOOM! i like batman's sexy voice:DD oh ya, the joker really acted quite well! but sad thing is he passed away in real life:( the moovie was quite long, after that went home!

ahhhh the convo howhowhow! honestly, i was really shocked while reading just now! i totally dont remember saying things like that. it felt so centuries ago. damn alien man! sigh. but that time just know each other, then like new friends ya ya i will be there for you yadada. then as time passes the relationship sours and rottens. always like that one la. that's why i dont like to be toooo close to people. like sometimes i think, then i felt quite bad cos i treat some pple really badly. but then, i dont want to be reeeeally good with pple. cos there will be this day where you get sick of each other then everything sours. its not nice, but that's the truth, we all have more interest in new things, unfamiliar pple. think of it lor, you treat your close friends better or new friends better? its damn obvious, examples can be found like everywhere. does anyone "socialize" with close friends. i dont think so man! haiya, didnt mean to blog bout this kinda stuffs. its supposed to be a happy post! see la, stuupid convo!

oh ya, you know what i like bout dark knight? i like the part where this two ferries, one with commoners and one with prisoners. then the joker planted boombs in the ferries and gave them the remote. if you kill the other ferry and your ferry will be saved. but in the end, one prisoner threw the remote out of the ferry. then the other also xia bu liao shou. its really comforting to think of them not killing others just to save your own asses. but in reality, i doubt this kinda things will happen! mutual trust between each other? HA dont make me laugh. fine fine, maybe not:D okaaaay i shall leave now! moomy allowed me to slack for tonight! i shall watch loaaads of stuffs:DD

2008-07-15T18:08:00.003+08:00

ahhh im not supposed to blog cos i wanna study:( but i have to print bio stuffs so i decided to slack for fifteen minutes:D anywayyy, recently nothing much to brag about la. just plain old boring stuffs. sigh, siaaan. haha ytd i was flipping through my file, then i saw this A4 yunho picture which jinyao gave me. she damn nice, i just sui bian kid kid then she really give meee:DD

DANGER ALERT! this post mayyyyy not be that pleasant for some(:
anyway, i feel like blogging on a topic, LAMENESS. talking bout this, you'd probably think im the most unsuitable person to blog bout this since you can hardly find anyone lamer than me. in a positive way, i guess. if negative refers to losing a leg la. thats not the point, recently im very disturbed cos... i also dont know how to phrase it. like, if someone is laaame, you can just roll your eyes and laugh it off. but imagine if someone is being lame like twenty times in five minutes. wah piang, you can never understand my sorrow man. if its like wah damn funny then definitely i will be so into it la, like laugh until your abs are formed. but sometimes when someone is lame and she thought it was funny and expecting you to laugh but its daaamn not funny at all, what to do man! i think this whole thing itself is lame. when you think its funny but its just really lame. but its rude to ignore that person right? so im forced to hypocritically laugh or smile, which is extremely tiring. so the 'jokes' turn out to be a chore. but, not like i didnt try to make my thoughts known. you cant expect me to tell her straight to her face, if you are still this lame im going to ignore you for the rest of my life right. i think if you wanna make a joke, make sure its funny la. dont expect pple to laugh over some really lame stuffs. i think its reeeally childish. sigh, and this caused me extreme disturbance and annoyance. i know i know. im being suuper mean, but i've tried to be nice what. i just think its very selfish to expect pple to entertain you by smiling hypocritically when you are not funny, AT ALL-.- if this person isnt abit nice i would have just pretended im in a vacuum.

okaaay i finished venting my anger. i feel aloooot better saying it out. i was telling my mum also la. then she was laughing her head off. HA, HA, HA. fine, its really childish to get fed up over issues like that. i think we alllll have to learn how to get along with pple. not necessary jokes or lameness break the ice. sometimes when what you said have no substance, it pisses pple off too. im not being mean here okay, im trying to give you a free lesson. learn(:

anddddd. nothing much to rant about la. haiya, i wonder if anyone really hate me to the core cos i spoke my mind. i dont dare say its not a personal attack, cos when i was blogging bout it someone came to my mind. in the first place, its cos of this person i decided to blog ma. but, dont take it personally la. well, unless you intend to reflect and change this bit. if not, i really have nothing to say.

thennn, can i say one last thing(: i reeeeally cant stand 心计重 de pple. WARNINGGG, this type of pple are extremely dangerous. okay, im satisfied with my ranting. sorry if i upset anyone in anyway, i shall put a danger alert sign on top:D

jiayou for blocks yeaaa(:

2008-07-11T22:00:00.003+08:00

zzz.
today has been a bad day. probably cos of last night and i was damn buay song and it felt like everything was opposing me today. urgh. i cant wait to let you know that i despise you, alot! i dont wanna talk bout you anymoreD:

anywayy. today was supposed to be good cos its friday and we ended school early. but she totally spoilt my mood so i really didnt feel like doing much. so things i normally dont get pissed off at just made me suuper annoyed today. anyway, its bothers me quite alot that when kayu came to return me the thermometer today, kuo made a big fuss over it cos kayu left before entering the classroom. she just didnt wanna disturb him talk what, anyone would have done that luh, its common respect whaat. is there a need to make such a big fuss to an extent that !#$%^&* comes out. whatever man.

sometimes i really dont know what teachers are doing. its funny that k talked to us bout lc-issue. its funny that k even know bout it, well not like anyone blames the teachers for talking. as k had said. but its really funny that some of them think that we go to the sch admin to complain. righhhht. i thought that we didnt go all the way to complain but we just happen to have a teacher who's part of the sch admin, and he just happen to ask bout how we are getting along and we just happen to talk bout this, but now it seems like we are a bunch of monsters trying to drive our teacher crazy. but anyway, its not like im very concerned bout this issue anymore, wah damn tiring man, no point in exhausting yourself in arguing over an issue which wont have any conclusion right. like, even if the teachers really sympathize, or erm, empathize with what some are feeling they can change anything right. anyway, when she was close to tears talking to us bout this i kinda feel sorry for her. anddd, it doesnt really matter what some teachers think of us. wont make a difference anyway.

whatever la. today's recess was meaningful cos i didnt spend a single cent. erm, except for the photocopying part la. lol, charis so blur, we photocopied the wrong page. anyway bio ass wasnt used cos extended to monday=.= then math and ih. lol, ih funny. cx's grp presented. then chenyi and i were sitting with alina, heh so sorry i fell asleep. it wasnt intentional, but they talk talk talk and i fell asleep. i tried to keep awake but still-.- haha then mrs n said to me,"she (jinyao) was looking so intently at something and i wondered what she was looking at. so she was looking at you!" lol, and jinyao said i was paying attention, hahaha righhht, in actual fact she was watching zhou gong taking me away. zzz. but then, i listened to a few slides okay:D nicole was nice she gave me her piece so that i can write my ih essay:D cos seminar pres and ih essay same question. okaaay i planned to finish ih essay by today-.- anyway i dont feel like blogging anymore. oh ya, on the bus i thought of fir, got reminded of the qian piao hui, got reminded of lunch, got reminded of the burger, got reminded that alina bought the burger, and realised that i forgot to pay her back-.- i must remember to pay on monday! anywayy today my mum found a new bag at home. it looked damn familiar, then i remembered! its for bel's birthday present! i bought looooong before her birthday at KL, but i forgot to give her! and i was still fretting bout what to buy. yaaa remember to pass her on monday! i know today really sucked, but i slacked a bit at home so it was alooot better. anyway she really doesnt make a diff what, why should i get buay song cos of her. HMPF. alamak, who's going tmr-.-

2008-07-07T17:06:00.003+08:00

i have no idea why is it that when i look at the time its nomally 4.44=.= anywayyy this shall be a quick post cos we are going to celebrate papamama's wedding anniversary:D

you know what i wanna blog bout:DDDDD fir's qian piao hui! HEE. met with alina and chenyi at jurong east mrt. then we took shuttle bus to imm. at first we saw the bus we were like eh, got bus! then sudden someone shouted, arent we supposed to run for the bus then we chiong-ed up. we reached imm like around 2. but the thing starts at 4! lol, after that chengxin came, then we chatted and played bridge. haha police-friendly, lol! anyway most of the waiting time we were talkinggggg. queued until 5 plus cos fir were late! anyway jinyao damn shuang luh, da yao da bai de cut allllll the way to the front, cos we were queueing and happened to be first, lol!

then we were like five metres away from faye and laoshi! oh, ah qin wasnt there! cos he was still stuck at taiwan cos of military stuffs. sighhh. i wanna see him:/ but anywayyy, faye was suuuper cute! she said something bout sparks then she made this diuuu sound. lol, damn cute la! then she sang and we followed. hahaha there were loaaads of cameras trying to take pic of us and film us luh! and we were suuuper obvious cos we were in front! but anywayyy we hid our faces most of the time, cos three of us told.. HEH! hahaha chenyi had her hot pink sasa umbrella, which would have acted as a very good tool for hiding! :DD dingzhiyong auctioned the tickets and some goodies, then this guy kelvin auctioned for seven hundred and twenty i think. haha powderful can! mainly it was this two guys fighting for the price, lol. anyway this can be heard on 933, they bo-ed it every now and then. then.. time for autograph session! jinyao was asking me what i wanna say to them, then in the end i didnt say anything! well not really la, laoshi said hello, then i said hello back:D ohhh we were the first hundred so we got free poster:DDDD jinyao nv bring to school today! oh ya, anyway its tuesday today! then this girl at the back was also giving away free posters:D

thennn, after that i went to cityhall to meet my parents. wah piang, they should build a mrt station at suntec cos its a loooooong way from mrt to suntec:S i forgot why i went there. ohhh, cos my sis had some nightshot project then my family free free go pei her and i want a ride home so i went there. oh, on the mrt there were koreans sitting next to me speaking koreannnn:D then we had dinner and tadada:D

that was sunday. on monday, jinyao asked if wanna go watch moovie. but i had to go out! then at night chiong back and off again for parents' anniversary. we went to eat at the crystal jade at holland v. waaah i love the neighbourhood maan! anyway my sis was damn crap, she was telling us very seriously bout her ambition. which was to donate tables to crystal jade, cos we waited for quite a long time cos it was crowded! anyway i couldnt bear the siannedness so i went to explore the huuuge variety of magazines opposite the place. so dinner was good. i realised we had three diff kinds of soup. then we walked back to the carpark and hooome:D tada, that's all for todayyy! looking forward to this friday! cos its half dayyy:DDD

2008-07-05T18:18:00.002+08:00

hellohello:D
recently we had a talk bout internet stuffs. okay, actually its not just once, its quite common cos now we have INTERNET DANGERS. hahaha im not a very cyberspace-friendly person. but oh well, that's not the reason why i havent been blogging. i've been reeeeally busy recently. haha probably cos my dad went to get report book from kuo. okay, at least its over. i guess i shall start mugging soon. anyway, it doesnt feel like block test-period. i guess its just for our class, cos most of the other classes feel exam-tensed. but anyway.

no alarming updates for the week. oh ya, i have been reminding myself to thank geeeeorgi! cos on monday seven or eight of us went to macs then when i went back to class it was locked and i had to rush for third lang:/ then i called gi for help and she helped me break into the class. yayyy i loved her alot for that moment:DD then.. oh ya on wed, we were just slacking in class. then jinyao wanted to go home but i wanted to go for third lang. then i was persuaded for a moment cos they said it was for good reason since i needed to study for chem quiz. but when we were at the bus stop, when everyone left i suddenly decided it was not right to do that! so i went back for third lang(: and jinyao was nice she pei-ed me back and waited until my third lang ended. yayy:D

as for funfair, it wasnt surprisingly fun or what, but still okay. i was quite surprised i was quite busy for my shift. cos normally funfair im like, slaaaack. at first we went around looking for fun games. then when we were looking at four one's stall then zongbin and joanne came with two cups of water and happily pour them on me. tsktsk. ooh we went to buy helium balloons! yingci was letting us try sucking the helium but nothing happened. hahaha then yingci said she felt like burping after sucking so much helium=.= then alina joined the sms competition thing. she won! :DD then it was my shift. when we had loaaads of customers we didnt have cooked rice. when we have rice, customers were that much. oh ya, when we were cooking the rice for twenty minutes, this group of daaamn annoying sec ones or twos, i told them have to wait for twenty minutes. then they queued luh. then after some time this irritating girl purposedly stood near me and told her friends, "haiya, this stall soooo slow, let's go to other stalls la." and she was maintaing her eye contact with me can. i felt like digging out her eyes la. wah piang, hope you get food poisoning la. not like we really care so much for your three dollars la. bu yao jiu bu yao luh. damn rude can. argh. anyway, its your loss not ours what. nanny nanny boo boo.

afterthe whole thing, we went to cine. wanted to watch the dogggy moovie, but it was sold out:( then we went to kbox. it was quite coincidential cos in the morning i suddenly thought of kbox. then i was thinking, sigh have to wait till blocks are over. then heng heng ytd went:D so i owe chenyi money since i didnt have enough cash and she had nets:D so we sang and practised fir's songs since 080808 is comingggg:DD yayy i cant wait! xD then we ate and sang and drank and sang. and since its freeflow we drank and drank:D then chengxin had to leave. but she could leave sha gua behind! so she finished singing. halfway i decided to record since she sang quite nice! haha then during the interlude she spoke to us then i was quite surprised no one said anything. hahaha then after i realised chenyi was recording too! haha then alina wanted to but we were recording so she didnt! hahaha so qiao heh:DDD then we sang until seven plus and left!

i didnt bath until one am this morning. then after that i decided to study math. then around three there was a blackout. i think it was damn funny la, cos i was taking a doze on the table, then when i opened my eyes, blackout! but so hot i also cant sleep so i studied with my handphone light. then until a point i couldnt tahan anymore i went to sleep. then four plus the lights came back and i auto woke up. then studied until five the lights went off again. and this time i was horrified cos after it went out, it flickered once, flickered twice, then flickered agian. haha it totally felt like horror, so i went back to sleep with my mp3. and alllll the way till morning:D i just realised, without electricity im really helpless. like, so many things i couldnt do. i rely on electricity alot! like, fan, radio, teevee, com, charger (damn suay, my hp was running out of batt. probably cos i used it as torch for a looong time-.-), hair straightener, washing machine, hot water and so on. but now we found out the problem, electricity came back! :D then my radio all the preset stations disappeared and i had to reset. so mafan:/ but anyway, glad its baaack:D

okaaay i shall go cherish my electrical appliance now! byebye! oooohhh fir's qian piao hui tmr!! :DDD

2008-06-29T20:16:00.002+08:00

ever since gokusen 123 era, veoh has been such a loooovie! haha hello veoh:D i just managed to face up to reality that daddy's laptop's internet dieded on me:( now i have to make do with this lao pok com where viwawa lags and its not very discreet:(((( but nvm, i shall study more and touch com less. sigh, addictioooon.

anywayy, ytd went to khatib with joanna and chenyi! hahaha i really feel like saying again, what joanna was wearing doesnt look like uniform at all! i suddenly realised the orange skin in my pocket hasnt been thrown. ehhh:S anyway after that, we went to the busstop and took 858. and i walked home from evergreen. doesnt feel that loooong afterall:D at night we went for dinner near coro, i think its called penang kitchen. next next to thai noodle house. its quite nice! its probably cos daddy paid the bill thats why it tasted nicer:DD we ordered quite alot so the bill was around hundred. but it was good:D then we went to bugis to shop for rachel's dress. she has to wear a pink dress for some performance, so there we went. ooh i think i havent been to bugis for a loooong time! i was suuper shocked when i saw a building on the flat piece of ground! used to be la. but now there's a building! then most durian shops closed down. and there are lots of shops which sell nice nice clothes! then i saw this uniform-like thing i thought of joanna-.- we lingered there for quite long. then were lots of lenglui and leng zai! :DD

this morning was verrry lazy to wake up to study. so we went to sembawang park to jog. ahhh, stupid sports sale cheat my feelings! remember that time i was so happy i went around talking bout my nice nice orangey adidas shoes which i bought for $65.75! waaaaah im filled with remorse and regret! cos of them i kena two huuuge blisters on my feet! now i have to walk on my sides of my feet:( but then, i didnt wanna waste the trip there so i tahaned and completed, four rounds i think. not bad already la, one round slightly bigger than school but upslope i nearly took off my shoes cos the blisters were killing me. it feels like someone tearing your skin apart. eeeeee. then we went for breakfast. the prata man very funny, hahaha. he was joking bout his math, then he was like, $10.10 give discount ten cents, then he talked bout his math. hahaha damn fuunny:D after that i stayed at home and studied for at least three hours. arghhh, math is torture:(

siaaaan weekends is coming to an end. and monday is starting. argh. oh ya, study for chem quiz. zzz. anyway, my daddy will be seeing kuo tmr. i shall remember to tell kuo. SIAN.

2008-06-25T20:32:00.003+08:00

AHH PIANO! D:
i dont like regrets:( regret is like a strong urge to restart and go through everything again, its like a huuuuge rock which sinks into my heart and sits there. I DONT WANT TO FAIL:(

anyway, i'd rather practise for exam all day long at home than go to school. its only the third day and im starting to get tired of school. ytd a few pple were telling me bout mr K. im quite fed up with K recently. cos during ptm my parents couldnt go, then i told K. and during the holidays he told me i wont get back my report book until he sees my parents. so i told him to call my dad. he said okay, so like that. then on monday he looked pissed off and told me not to even think bout getting back my report book until he sees my parents. then he told me to tell my dad to go find him. ZZZZZZ. then i couldnt help but to ignore him. its not that i wanna be rude, but some teachers are really... not like i always kan teachers bu shuang luh, actually i think im quite respectful towards teachers already la, but some teachers really not tong qing da li la. i totally cannot stand teachers who dont even trust their students. like, im supposed to show him my exam slip. piang, exam slip have to give abrsm one can. so i had to photocopy. not like its a suuuper tiring job, just press the button ma. but the thing is, haiya, i dont know what's the thing la. im just buay song with this. damn, dont like school. !@#$%^&*

2008-06-24T16:43:00.001+08:00

okaaay just the day before my exam i broke my record. six and a half hours minus away lunch time, toilet break, water break, so its about six hours! power:D my sis wanted to study so i started at 10. then two hours scales, fifteen minutes for first piece, forty five minutes for second piece, then the rest for third piece. now my back is aching and i feel suuuuper sleepy. playing piano makes me sleepy. zzz. wo hen pa wo hen pa! piang, never felt this stressful over piano before. im stressed to the extent that i went to google 'piano grade 8'. i dont know what i wanted to find, but, sigh. im really kiakia my effort will go to waste! i dont want to fail! todayyyy wei shen me mei you ren wen hou wo! D:

2008-06-22T19:49:00.002+08:00

gokusen 3 is coooooool:D haha i bet if teachers read my post they will google GOKUSEN. hahaha i can imagine=.= actually gokusen is a combined word of gokudou and sensei. it is completely educational yaaaa(: hiro is suuuper cute! as in hiro from sky of love, but in gokusen 3 he's known as kazama ren! ren is suuuuper cute! there's one episode he was telling the class, let's graduate together! then he made this *faintfaintfaint* cute grin! hehehe:DD

anywayyy, piano exam this wed! three days:X im suuuuper nervous, well more of scared than nervous! my teacher was like, third song confirm fail, maybe your first song and scales can make you pass. well, barely. i just wanna pass! i dont need distinction or what:( tmr supposed to have phy sia with gi, but i dont feel like telling her i have piano lesson tmr! cos phy draaaag until term 3 heh:/ then have to go alllllll the way there to have piano lesson. actually didnt wanna go to school for the next two days. i dont mind practising piano at home all day loooong. but imagine what kuo can do! i really wanna pass my piano exam eh! ahhhh, zen me ban! i shall go look for phy articles! geeeeeorgi, if you happen to read my blog, heh! i shall think of how to break this news to you if you dont:X

ahhhh stress is breaking me into pieces! i realise i have alot of things i didnt accomplish during june hols! waaah my mum damn nice to my sis la. she whole day sigh cos her poly exams and piano exam clash, then my mum was like, "haiya relax la. if can try to play com more luh! why so stress! be like meiling la, dont know whether can get into hwachong still whole day playplayplay." ya for no reason i got dragged in again. but my mum never ever advised me to play com more before leh! so unfair! D: haiya tmr is the start of ~~sai~~ school, byebye!

2008-06-18T01:16:00.001+08:00

ohayou! its one plus now and im sleeeepy:D
just came back from changi, went to fetch my parents who came back from hongkong! waaah, my mum bought like tons of stuffs for us! i have two tee-shirts, one long tee, two go out shirts, one suuuper cute cao, one watch, one shoe-watch keychain, one mickey mouse-watch keychain! my mum bought sneakers fo my sis! hehehe im so happy:DDD they are watching the video daddy took! lol, my mum bought soooo many thing that they have to buy two more extra luggage to put the stuffs. hahaha and they bought like at least fifty boxes of hongkong snacks!

today has been rather hmm, busy i guess! practised piano for four hours:D then i watched gokusen 2. im suuuper guilty cos i watched all the episodes of gokusen and gokusen 2 in two days! if one eps one hour, so its about..twenty two hours! cos recently i really wanna watch gokusen 3, but i ended up rewatching both gokusen one and two. ahhh, jin and kame very cool:DDD oh ya, gokusen 1 right, uchi is quan in jap hana kimi! and he is suuuuuper cute! the last eps he winked at yankumi and its *faint*!! the story plots of gokusen and gokusen 2 around the same! i prefer gokusen 2 though, but we shall see. since i havent started on gokusen 3. oh ya, gokusen 3, ren is the guy from sky of love! the eighteen year old one, very cuuute:D yaaa, im super lucky i found this site which has almost everything korean, jap and taiwan. i wanna watch!

then after that my aunt's friend came. they brought their two kids:DDDD xinni is four and corwin is either one or two. i was watching on daddy's laptop ma, then they were very fascinated. hahaha corwin tried to climb up my laps. then xinni moved a chair next to me and climbed up, lol! they were very interested in the laptop and pressed like everrrything. haha corwin was very fascinated with the light he patted me and pointed to the light then laugh to himself. hahaha, suuuper cute can! then let xinni play uh, opened mic word for her then she typed her name, so clever heh! then she drew her house in paint. haha, after that took them to play toys. corwin was playing this car and he kept bumping it into my foot, haha hen ke ai neh! after they left, we ordered kfc for dinner and me and my sis left for changi. we took mrt and reached there like 11 plus. the plane reached at around 12 and we waited at the wrong belt:S then we took cab back! yay im so happy my parents are back! cos im tired of housework and preparing meals. haa okay la not just that:D tmr we are going to sakura to celebrate fathers' day! my fifty bucks:S

2008-06-14T22:00:00.002+08:00

i think it has been two years since i watched nana! hahaha i rewatched agaaaain! recently just finished the book so i decided to rewatched, and it was, well quite different fromt the book but its still nice!

today i practically did nothing except for practising the piano for one, two, three hours! ahhh, when can i do five hours:S nvm, this shall be my goal for tmr! today has been rather aimless mainly cos my parents left for hongkong eaaaarly in the morning, and no one nagged at me so i didnt do anything much:/ actually i did abit math this morning:D i dont like this empty feeling! i really shall get to work, shant i! time to do abit of bio and abit of chem and abit of physics. but math im like, zzz.

went to meet bel at causeway today! ohh and i saw suzanna, she walked past and i totally couldnt recognise her:S then my aunt wanted to shop so i held on to the volleyball and walked around i think i looked like a fooooool! then we went to the pasar malam to get dinner. haha our meals are going to be a headache for the next four days since moomy wont be back till wed night:( then we have to prepare meals and do housework! D:

ahhhh, cant stand it anymore! slacking too much really aint doing me any good! i really should start on my work soon! janneh!

2008-06-11T20:54:00.001+08:00

yoheyheyyoheyheyyoheyyoyoyohey.
hahaha i cant think of a suitable opening so yaaaa. did you realise, i practised my multilingual ability by putting in different greetings for each post! haha chengxin said i was, erm, i cant remember what she said. i am multilingual! :D went to kbox today! we went to amk's kbox, suuuuper nice! i mean, SUUUPER NICE:DD not the one near amk hub but the further one. really, damn shiok la! the pattern all nice nice one,then the songs all new new one, then the waitresses all polite polite one. the only thing to improve,hmm, is to put more shuai waiters! hahaha kidding:D but it was really very nice.and they gave us a BIG room! like, can squeeze fifteen pple one! but i think most of the time we squeezed in one line, lol.

ooohh, i tell you i tell you, four of us took the same mrt without knowing it! i was on the mrt then bel told me she reached, and my mrt just reached.then on the way down i saw bel walking down the stairs opposite me, then i walked behind her.then chenyi and joanna called me form the top. lol, so qiao right!! but cos chenyi didnt know yiwei changed number, then yiwei went to somerset:S paiseh! but anyway, we sang loaaads of songs! stoopid chenyi ejected all my linjunjie'ssongs! haha, not all la, but ROARRRRR. haha then out duet all cmi! haha but okay la, quite nice! oh,the kbox there is quite big! and confusing! yiwei, joanna and i went to toilet but we got lost:S but still, very nice! i think its even better than cine's! next time we shall all go there:D

kah sms-ed us bout liqin. sigh, liqin get well soon! i wanna go visit her eh, but tmr got piano:( oh ya, piano.tmr im going to be so dead. but only ge one day how to improve by leap and bound? i tried to spend five hours ar, but today onlythree hours:( tmr i shall wake up super early to play, but will disturb my neighbour! oh my neighbour downstairs damn cute, my mom was telling her bu hao yi si if our practising disturbs her.then she was like,never mind la, very nice! whenever there's this long long song then she will sit at the balcony and listen. lol, damn funny! how can exam pieces be nice! but oh well, she's very nice(: i think my neighbours all very nice. like, cos my parents going overseas this sat's midnight, then our house only both of them can drive ma,so they wanted to take cab i think. then chew's bro volunteered to drive them there. very nice right!

oh ya, tmr is the twelth, i shall go vegetarian, sighhhh, i shall shut shut shut. oh ya, tmr we are going to fetch my aunt cos she's coming from malaysia! i hope she buys lots of good stuffs for me:DD hahaha i told her to help me buy shoes! i wonder if she remembers:S

viwawa today is fun. my sis and i were playing together. then we kept paka-ing when we are partners. this guy verrrry funny. yytd i also met a funny guy, damn cold one la! but today's one he was like very urgent then he described bout him enduring. lol, suuuper funny. ehhh, i shall go bang on the piano for a little while longer:/ are you wishing my good luck? GIMME GIMME all your strength and patience and good luck! sighhhh-

2008-06-10T18:36:00.002+08:00

heyxzxzxzxzxz. had piano today:(
i dont think there was ever one lesson which i was happy:/ sighhh, surprise surprise, i just realised my exam is in two weeks' time. and my third piece is still like dabian. totally cmi can! i think im still like sightreading my third piece. talking bout piano really makes my head big. urgh. i dont wanna fail ehhhhh! i've never failed a single piano exam before, be it practical or theory! then im going to dirty my record:((( my teacher wants me to practise five or six hours a day, on ONEEEE SONGGG!! zen me ke neng! i zai zen me patient also cannot tahan for five hours what! sitting there for two hours already make me wanna faint luh! howhowhow! i shall suuuuuperbly focus on piano from now on! then two weeks from now i will be of exams standard! I WANNA PASS GRADE EIGHT! PASSPASSPASS!!! alina wished me good luck a few days ago, thank you! hehehe yall must mo mo de give me stregth okayyy! i shall practise for five hours on that song every day! jiayou meiling! :DD

2008-06-08T18:37:00.002+08:00

i've posted 222 posts and this is my 223rd! :DD
anywayyy, kia ora!
hahaha im back from KL and i wanna bathe cos i think i stink! well, not really:D okaaay, so what did i do in KL? mainly shopping. hahaha first day we went to timesquare. ooh, we took the monorail cos the traffic is super slow in KL! this angmoh was asking for directions and her attitude is totally horrible! whatever man! the pple at timesquare all look very punk! haha then there was this shop suuuper cool eh! it was like enclosed and they hang this "MEMBERS ONLY" sign at the entrance. damn cool eh! but its all punkish so i wasnt really interested, but suuuper cool:D then we went around looking for the chicken rice restaurant, cos timesquare is huuuge! haha then yay we found and ordered alot of things! ooh, this couple entered and the girl si suuuuper SUPER SUPER SUPER chio! waaaah, her body her face her features, damn nice! i think any girl will turn into a lesbian for her! hahaha im just kidding! but when the food was served she refused to touch the food, i thought she has yan shi zheng. but it just turned out that she was waiting for her drink. she is chiochiochiochiochio!

then shopping time! daddy went to watch moovie cos he wasnt a bit interested in shopping at all, lol. i bought bel's present! i wonder if i brought it back to singapore:S i bought a nice nice cheap cheap pair of sneakers too! haha its the last pair:DD there're alot of good-looking pple there! -coughcough- after shopping for a few hours we went to the indoor themepark. its not as huge as genting's, but still. ahh, i cant believe i went on the rollercoaster. cos the two most exciting ones are the upsidedown one and the rollercoaster. my sis forced us to choose one to ride with her, so i'd rather for the rollercoaster ride! wah piang, the upside down one i will get nao chong xue luh. but roller coaster ride wasnt that bad! haha i think cos i closed my eyes when it went upside down. its like an &-shape! i didnt really feel the upside down part! so it was okay! haha and cos the pple in front were super enthu that's why it wasnt that scary. haha then my sis sat on the kiddo ride twice cos she wanted to see the shuai ge-.- ooh, the guys in charge of the machines all very friendly! haha esp this malay guy, damn funny! ooh, the last ride i took was the round round one, then they wanted to give us a second ride, but this parent started shouting i thought their child got stuck in the machine-.- then we had dinner at macs. and back to the hotel!

we didnt go swimming the next morning cos we slept until suuuper late. we saw loaaads of angmohs in bikinis! it felt like 7 when it was 11. hahaha, then we went to bukit tinggi! it wasnt really an exciting trip la, bukit tinggi didnt really have much to do, just took loads of pictures! haha we met my sis' friend up there! then went to jap garden and jap village. it was raining but i guess it wasnt really a bad thing! cos the pictures we took were more urm, romantic! :DD then at botanical garden they had all kinds of flowers but cos it was raining my sis and i waited at the jap restaurant while they went to look at- plants. zzz. then we went to the i-cant-remember-the-name-of-the-place! like, alot of castles! its supposed to be french-like i think! it was quite cool, cos the castles very pretty! i took picture with my knight in shining armour! hahaha! there were black swans too! damn pretty! then after that, i cant remember what else we did then we descended bukit tinggi. we wanted to ride horses but it was raining:( hahaha moomy suuper funny. she was like pointing to the clouds/mist and said, "i didnt know we are so close to the sea!" righhhht, in the middle of high mountains we can see sea-.- haha anwyay i like the place abit cos the air is fresh and the scenery is nice:D so off for lunch! we ate at pizza hut and there was this ugly woman and i dont like her. okaaay, then back to hotel! at night, we went to bukit bintang! the place very cool! cos at the streets there were loads of teens doing breakdance! cool right! then we went shopping again-.- for quite looong, i think i was really tired! then we went to lot 10! hahaha, then after most shops closed we went back to the hotel! we played cards until quite late then they watched thai horror while i sleptttt(:

next morning we didnt go swimming cos it was raining. but i saw a guy in red swimming trunks hahaha! then blah blah blah we checked out. oh ya, was watching devil beside you and i realised ycl's acting really sucks in the past! okaaay at least in huan huan ai its alot better! anyway we went for brunch and moomy bought stuffs for her friends. then back to singapore! sighhhh im going to be a vegetarian on the twelth cos chengxin and jinyao are going to see them. >< i shall JIE SE! nvm, next time they go KL i shall go! my great-aunt said when we wanna go KL just tell her and she can book for us, so i shall go i shall go i shall gogogo! okaaaay i shall start on homework soon, janneh! :DD

2008-06-05T23:52:00.002+08:00

vanakkam! i just come to a sudden realisation that i will be leaving for KL tmr, so ciao! :D

2008-06-04T21:03:00.004+08:00

ellohay:D
happy birthday four six! today is our birthday(: in the morning when i woke up it was raining! then i was like thinking, what's our weather plan. haha but hengly, it didnt rain! in fact, the sun was niceeee:DD heh, i was late for at least half an hour! it was a wrong choice to take 963- first, its slow; second, its crowded; third, the young couple next to me was suuuper disgustingggg! haha then on the bus, goodness knows how manny pple sms-ed me to tell me they were late. but i was the latest besides rachel! haha oh man i dont know how many mrts she missed! so everyone was there when i reached:X

waaah, everyone was wearing this year's class tee, so i was the only orange one! but its okaaay, was lazy to change(: then we reached and had breakfast in the shade! haha breakfast was good i guess! credits to those who spent effort or money preparing food or drinks! haha oh man stooooopid joanna, while i was on the bus she was complaining bout paying for the plastic bag, cos today is the first wednesday of the month! and you have to bring your own bag, zzz. ooh, and credits to gi for the cutleries! and credits to nicole for lugging those heavy vitasoy! and haha, credits to all those who finished my sandwiches! if not i'd be so sad(: while we were eating, a whole loaaad of little kids stumbled into the shade, damn cute can! :DD

after that it was gaaames! we went to find another shade, wanted the shade next to coconut tree but it was all taken up:/ but its okay! we had BIGGER shade! xD after a whole load of them fussed over the tanning oil (JENZI CHUA!), we played captain's ball! hahaha i think we won! whoops, i forgot bout the forfeit:S it was really hard to run on sand, that's why its more difficult to get the ball! it was hilarious looking at how some pple get ball. haha then there was this period gi's group left her alone to defend, damn sad! haha then our group's defence not bad eh! xD so captain's ball was quite fun:D

after that was water break! then we went to play volleyball while some went to pick seashells and get wet. whoa my volleyball cmi, but its okay! haha so volleyball was quite funny! but then after nicole left our team straaaaight away kena thrashed! the ground was pissing hot! paiseh, i dont know why pissing seems to be a really suitable word to use! i wonder-.- after that we got wet:X i really shouldnt have gotten wet! really shouldnt! cos jenzi, gi and i were sitting on the sand in the water talking, then all the sand went into my-.- ahha, so we spent quite a looong time getting the sand out! hahaha it was reeeally, hmm, uncomfortable!

then, following this was... jenzi-related games! oh, actually it was just animal concentration! hahaha damn funny la some pple! like nicole, i bet she didnt even know what's her own actions luh! so this was fun too! then we exchanged gifts! at first i chou dao georgi! then after we reshuffle, i chou-ed joanna! but she said she doesnt eat chocoloates, sorry! i shall hunt something else for you yeaaa! haha but you can treasure the note! i wrote with absolute sincerity okaaay! xD then we took pictures! and some of them left with chengxin!

i cant remember what we did after this.. urm, dodgeball is it? oh ya, they were helping me hunt for the ball first! the white one was lost, good thing chenyi realised. then we went to look for it. this group of stupid teenagers had a similar one, so we asked if it was theirs. they said the guy in black bought it, so i guess we gave them the benefit of doubt. but it wasnt luh! idiotic fatass chinese guy, liar cheater beetlebug! maybe one day you really lose your balls then no one will return you! *&^%$#! i shant get angry with low-class pple like YOU! at least the malay guy was better luh, like after playing dodgeball, which was very funfun! hahaha it happened twice when i was alone and all ten of them were aiming for me, tsk! but the second time kelly and bel wanted to come back so we gained all the pple back! yayy! haha so dodgeball was fun! then after that we played cards. this was when bel saw the malay guy playing a white ball then we went to comfront him. at first bel was prepared to GROWLLL! haha but i asked if its his ball and he was honest! he said no, he found it at the sea or smth. very nice righhht! so hao ren you hao bao, i told him, "you want to play ar, lend you first luh." see! conclusion is, be like the honest malay guy and not the stupid cheater liar lizard dinosaur!

after that we played bridge, indian poker and pig! haha kelly did her forfeit! then after that i left with jem while the rest stayed for dinner i think! haha then on the way back home i was tireddddd! then i went to wash the ball at causeway:S haha and i returned the balls and no one knows what happens, right! :DD

yay so our birthday was fun right! i hope:S actually i thought of a loooot more games but i didnt want it to be like, fixed and compulsory! haha so it was free & easy! but we should have played more games! so anyway, hope yall, no, we all had fun yeaaah! xD

and yesterday! haha it was very sinful! cos we ate hao liao! ytd my cousins arrived in johor from kelantan ma. then we went to meet them. ooh, my aunt bought me a very nice shirt! you know the difference between expensive and cheap shirts? the expensive ones provide extra buttons! in case the original one falls off! very thoughful ehhh? :D but its pinkkkk:/ oh well! haha so we went to city square and had high tea! waaah we ordered like, fries, french toast, chicken wings in baked cheese, borsch soup, burger, and some other things they ordered! and for desserts, we had chocoloate snow mountain, mango ice, milo ice, cocktail and stuffs! nice right! but it was ex:S but its okaaay, daddy sponsored! cos cousins are from daddy's side! yayy i think my cousins very nice(: then after that in the evening went to fetch daddy from work, and we went to thai noodle house and eat! hahaha i think its very cool that daddy knows thai noodle house too! so i had tomyum and it totally burned my tongue all the way to my tummy via my oesophagus. haha okay, i just wanted to sound cheem:X

i hadnt been practising piano reeeal hard for hols so far! okay, when i come back from malaysia next week i shall spend at least an hour for scales, an hour for each piece! sigh, my teacer was telling me bout her lousy student who practised each of her pieces for four hours each day, and now her standard is like mine. sighhh:/ i shall fa fen tu qiang! i must must must pass my grade eight! eh, you you and you! wish me goooood luck:D oh well that's all for today! hahaha i bet gi is going to refer to my blog if she posts:D you know you love-

2008-06-02T20:27:00.002+08:00

guten tag!

this morning went to kbox, whoa suuuper shiok. have been wanting to go kbox recently. on friday, i was on the brink of going to sing alone. but i thought i will look so dumb so i didnt(:

i think my dad is quite generous! ytd, my sis was like, daddy we're going kbox tmr, daddy sponsor. then daddy looked at her, and took out 50 bucks and passed to us. waaah, i never knew my dad will sponsor us for entertainment purposes can! and it was super sudden! so we went to kbox today:D i sang until my voice became froggish and i was satisfied(: we are going kbox again next week right! xD

ooh coming coming wednesday wednesday:DD

2008-05-30T19:36:00.005+08:00

简单, 就是快乐..
today is a happy day:D

强求,

2008-05-29T22:17:00.001+08:00

I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

2008-05-29T19:26:00.002+08:00

yia sou! hahaha ive decided to blog early today cos i wanna study tonight:S anyway i really should start practising piano for looooong hours! D:

we had physics remedial today! haha com lab 4 is cold~ but it was.. okay i guess. i think i kidna understood what he was teaching but i just couldnt link. sigh, alina is right, phy remedial is pointless:( anyway after remedial, went to coro with gi, yingchee and chenyi! then we bought some food for the old pple! they wanted golden rooster so we ate at the stairs, haha this uncle was talking to us, very funny eh him! he was chatting with us and i think he's niceeeee:D haha oh jinyao they all were at prince, and they claimed we were stalking them! -.- haha while eating gi was saying she was about to fall asleep, lol! anyway after that we took 66 and reached kwong wai shiu. haha we gave the food to the person in charge, she was very funny also la! haha then we went to look for the ah gong, chenyi was saying his surname is huang, then i thought its wang, then yingchee was like, "ni men lai zhe li ren er zi ah?" hahaha stoooopid yingchee! anyway, the first ah gong we visited was gi's, then we went to look for yingchee's at second level. the ah gong very funny leh!! haha and yingchee was damn cool, she spoke fluent hainan:DD then we went back to the ward to look for the ah gong i talked to last time. he was there! haha i thought he didnt remember me, but chenyi said he did. after that the ah gong whom gi talked to lost his cup, then he was realy upset. i felt really sad for him, imagine how it would be like if you really want something but you are bedridden and have to depend on others. and he was having stroke for the second time so he wasnt really able to speak. it was really quite sad, and they should give him clean water! cos i saw ants in his water can:/ but after he found his cup, we left and he was alot happier after that! we lingered around and left after awhile!

haha, it may seem absurd or weird when i asked pple if they wanna go kws. actually, i have no idea why i suggested it too! but maybe, cos last time the ah gong told me, must remember me next time you visit me! must visit me next time! haha so i promised him i would go back, and so i did(: haha its actually a very nice feeling after returning, cos when we were walking to the mrt i felt really really.. hmm light-hearted? haha i have no idea why, but i was really glad we went! maybe not everyone would have felt this way if they had gone, but yeaaah, we did something good today!

2008-05-28T22:15:00.002+08:00

buenos dias(:
just a quick post before i go do my homeworkkkk! we had bio remedial today! i was late for half an hour:S but when i arrived lss went away to get something, so she didnt realise i joined the class late, i think. anyway i was very rajin during bio today! hahaha see the two whole pages of notes i cope:DD

after remedial went to play badminton. there were quite alot of pple today- gi, chenyi, rachel, jenzi, beehiang! then after that joanna and 大美女 came! i mean, after a looooong while. lol, at first we played 3 on 3, then after that beehiang joined us so we didnt have to do anything:D hahaha i think jinyao was very funny today, whenever play badminton with her damn crappy la, tsktsk! haha then gi as usual, when she cant get the ball she will go WAAAH. lol, and you will see the same action she makes, hahaha! rachel hadnt been coming for a few weeks but she returned strong as usual! hahaha and chenyi is still the saaame, her feet like glued to the ground luh:DD haha after that four of us against jenzi and beehiang. it was supposed to be five on one, but jenzi traitor! lol, and stupid jinyao and chenyi were happily suanning me can, HMPH. haha then i totally forgot bout joanna for at least half an hour! hahaha this stoopid girl took bus until beauty world can, overshot! then she had to walk back, lol! and 大美女 came very late too! cos she said no buses! -.-

after playing, we went to westmall! ate at kfc, it was supposed to be lunch! -.- then wah piang, they started to talk bout bananas then there goes the topic, lol! after that we went to look at stuffs! cos jinyao and a few were buying stuffs at comics connection, then gi, joanna and i wanted to leave first, so we left. haha then suddenly on the way down the escalator, jinyao shouted my name from two stories above. HAHAHA waaah piang damn funny! she shouted for me to wait for her cos she wanted to go home with me, hahaha oh man so fuunny! she shouted from two stories above and started chasing after us. haha but anyway, sorry for running away! cos whenever pple chase you right, first instinct is to run isnt it! haha but we still went home together:D

yeeeah we are going to kws tmr! must buy bread for the ah gong i talked to the previous time! i havent been doing much lately, but not that bad la! i did my homework already! hohoho that's all for today! cheeeers:DD

2008-05-27T21:11:00.003+08:00

ni hao ma:DD
today we had remedial. oh well, nothing much to talk bout. but during chinese remedial was damn crap cos jinyao and chengxin were behind me-.- i like jinyao's arm! like pillow like that(: haha during chem was super sleeppy. then after remedial we wanted to go take neos, so jinyao, chenyi, chengxin and i wanted lot one, and we dragged nicole along. haha, like, they literally dragged nicole to the bus stop, lol! haha on the way out my goal was to piggyback chengxin to the gate, super jialat! cos we started from class, and it was a looooong way to the gate. haha then when she alighted i realised gi's sweater was on me! =.= hahaha so bel took it home(: so we went to long john, haha when jinyao wanted to suggest long john she was saying describing in such an irrelevant way which i cant remember. after that went to sembawang, like, the cd shop. haha then wanted to take neos but the shop disappeared:S like causeway luih, saaaad:/ then we went to comics connection. after that nicole and i were waiting for the rest downstairs, then we bumped into gi! hahaha so qiao:D stooopid nicole said a very silly sentence i shant put it here, hahaha! then we looked at socks while waiting for the rest, zzz. after that we went home:D

dont be nice to me, dont be cold to me:( why cant we just be noormal friends! i hate it when your coldness makes me ponder bout where i went wrong. its just wholly your problem and noting to do with me:/ again and again, i have to tell myself, you are a deeeeep hole and i cant fall inside. who will pull me up when i do? but what you give is a special, indescribable feeling, which makes me want to hold on to you and not let go. graaah, leave me alone and make my life easier. dont pull me up and drop me down again, my nose will get flat:(

盘底的洋葱像我永远是调味品
偷偷的看著你偷偷的隐藏著自己

2008-05-26T21:34:00.003+08:00

lei ho:D
today is officially the first day of hols! hooray! had remedial today. chinese and chem. waaaah, during chem kuo came and tell me, "you should know why i gave chengxin and caroline their report books but not yours." yayaya not like i slack at home everyday watching YOUTUBE can. and i wonder which mind i was in to tell him to call me dad. and then my dad will be in a bad mood and start scolding me. not like i dont want kuo to meet my dad la, well who wants, not like my results are very good. but not like im not working hard either what, its just not enough. and when kuo meets my dad i bet he will talk bout youtube, youtube and youtube. wah piang, i dont see the diff between seeing my parents or not luh. like, see already what can he do? i really cant figure out what they can talk about which can be useful in any way except for my suffering la. so typically, form teachers just meet parents to torture students. argh, im just pissed that he cant just let it go like that. i bet you a thousand times, the only impact of meeting my parents will be torture to me. not like i will work any harder after they scold me or what la. whatever la, wanna see my parents then see luh. i shant expect much anyway. teachers are like that, sometimes you see them like they are really nice. but it never lasts. its such a disappointment that there's no really one teacher who's really that nice to an extent that anyone can tell he/she cares. not like, just caring bout your academics la. like emotional-being or whatnot. and meeting my parents equals to killing me emotionally. to think that i have had so many impressions that this teacher is nice, that teacher is nice. but it neer lasts. sigh, its disappointing.
whatever, i shall go do my work now, in case kuo has another chance to meet my parents again next term.

仿佛, 伸手就能碰到你, 可是我始终没勇气... D:

2008-05-24T23:39:00.002+08:00

alohaaaa:D
yayy i finished bathing and i didnt get scolded by my parents, hoho i shall blog bout ytd first!

friday!
i didnt go to school. haha i was thinking bout class birthday. apparently, its quite a good sign cos at least 80% of pple who replied can go:DDD okay, you can figure out if its cos too little pple reply or our class is full of class spirit(: haha then we went to republic poly for lunch! the food is nice can, and its cheap! and you can see shuai ges mei nvs walking around:D

met liqin and fly at causeway at around 6 plus. they came from smp i think. then we went to deli. haha yeah, cos they wanna visit shiyu who happens to be working at deli. haha she looked damn cool with her uniform! ooh i tell you, at first we were waiting for them to seat us. then i told the guy three. then liqin screamed NOOOOO. haha in the end figured out that she wanted shiyu to seat us, not the guy. haha then we waited for shiyu to come for so long that all the seats ran out. so we were put on the waiting list. but its good anyway, cos we got to sit on the cushiony seats:D haha, then we ordered our food. deli super ex, i dont think im going back there again! and what i ate for dinner is more than shiyu's one day pay:S but the food was nice(: haha i really like ytd cos we really talked alot. like, i never really speak this much to teammates before. then we kinda shared some stuffs. it was like a really frank talk, i also dont know how it came about. haha then shiyu extra kept coming to kaciau us, but super funny cos there were times she had nothing to do then snatched things from our table, lol. after finishing our food, we refused to leave and talked, talked, talked. haha think of the service charge we paid! xD then after some time, fly left then liqin and i talked. haha it was nice talking to liqin, but she refused to leave! hahaha:D liqin told me what she thought of me, then i was quite shocked. cos unlike what she seems like who she is, she actually thinks more deeper than that! and its really surprising cos she practically hit the bull's eye. haha so what did she say bout me! i shall put at the end of the post:D

today!
was at novena for the whole morning until 3 plus, then supposed to meet gi they all at novena mrt at 5.30. and i refused to stay in novena doing nothing for 2 hours, so daddy sent me home for five mintues and i left for novena mrt. i hanged around mph bookstores, memorising the foreign terms. hahaha i learnt thank you in italian and thai! :D then gi, gwen and nicole arrived so i went to look for them. we decided where to eat, it took us quite loooong! then gi rejected everything i suggested so we ended up at kopitiam. hahaha the boyboy next to us daaaamn cute! :DDD then after they left, this girlgirl came and she was suuuuuper cute! haha then gi said, i knew it. hahaha:D i ate udon for dinner, uh i forgot what happened but nicole dared me to kiss her. wah piang, sounds so wrong! but hahaha i took a mouthful of udon soup and she siammed all the way to the wall. lol, lousy! :D oh maaan, gwen and nicole were talking bout some jacob moovie, then gi and i started talking bout jacob biscuits. haha then i bet jacob's girl of his dreams is julie, haha cos they both appear on biscuits! hahaha then gi and i burst out laughing, damn funny! :DDD

after that gwen suddenly realised we are supposed to reach audi at 7 instead of 7.30! haha so we chiong down, bought flowers and ran to mrt. then we walked all the way to take bus at newton. suay la, all of us wear jeans then got sticky:S then we took bus to school, stooopid gi was laughing at the bus teevee. then we got off and we managed to reach in time:DD as for the performance, it was quite nice! i like stories:D but all turned out to be quite sad:( except for the light and audio parts, the rest was quite okay! but then, the guy in front of me very irritating leh! sit jiu sit hao hao ma, he still pose by putting his hand on his head which TOTALLY blocked my view! haha then during interval went to see chee they all. haha we were making fun of zong and her mini skirt, lol! so generally, the show was nice:D

the performance ended, then we were waiting to give them flowers. nah, ours were soft toys(: then after that moomy sms-ed me said daddy very angry at me for going home late. cos i told them my friend was going to teach me math. which was what liqin told me, lol. then i said i wanted to take cab, and gi voluntarily dug for money! she donated eight bucks, then i was asking chee for money and i realised she had less than one buck:S hahaha and zong damn cool, whipped out ten bucks and gave it to me! waaaaah i love zong and gi! :DDDD so i reached home in fifteen minutes and got spared from scoldings! actually it didnt matter that much since my momo wasnt home until five minutes ago cos she went for harlem's concert! :S haha aunty julie damn nice, give free tickets. i want angela's oneeee! :DDD

that's all for today! byebye!

oh ya, liqin-
"i think you have very low self esteem, but you appear to be very vain to cover up your insecurity.."

2008-05-22T20:06:00.003+08:00

i wonder if its good or bad that when i practise piano im normally thinking bout other stuffs. oh well, i shall pull up my socks if i wanna pass(:

today for shanghai sabbatical we went to the yanqing restaurant for shanghai food. haha before we enter the restaurant something super malu happened to me. but since its nothing good i shant talk bout it(: ooh, the food was good! most of us didnt have breakfast so we ate until our tummies were filled to the brim:D but so sad, we couldnt sit in the air con cos the others took up all the space. but it was still quite good, at least we had the scenery(: ooh, caroline gave me her xiao long bao:D i think i drank at least 7 cups of tea, lol. the journey back to school was damn funny. at first was talking to kayu and deb, suuuper funny la. they claimed that im a lesbian and caroline is their other mother. hahaha oh maaan. then after that walked with shiyu and cx, daaaamn crap la.

after that during lunch, nicole, caroline and i went to play bball. haha then bel came for awhile, we shot hoops. bel kept wanting to try the one from behind the hoop, haha then when she shoot she just kiap her wallet in between her knees, so funny! then after she left, three of us played 2vs1! ahha of cos the 1 is nicole la! lol, she wasnt thrashed by us at all luh, cos nicole lim is prooo:D oh i told nicole something which i told them ytd. surprisingly, her reply was what i expected to come from them, but it didnt. instead, their reply was.. well haha, never mind, its not important anyway. waaah, im still very bu fu qi, nicole and i jump ball for quite a few times today, but she kept getting the ball! anyway lunch break was spent meaningfully cos it was gooood, but it was quite random aint it! who says three-pple bball cannot be fun luh, i like i like. that was one of the few moments i truly enjoyed today:DD

lol, i shall go and do my r&r now(: and math written ass, math 6.1! zzz.. zai jian!

我不认输, 还有三秒钟才KO, 看我自己爬起来.

2008-05-21T20:07:00.003+08:00

sawadeekap!
hahaha today is hmm, okaaaay ba! actually not that good, but i shall be optimistic! last night was super historical! cos more than half the class was online until past midnight! haha cos everyone was rushing bio sia! except for ms yap chengxin, haha i have no idea what she was doing online:S she claimed that she just wanna be part of the bio sia movement? HAHA!

in the morning, went for sabb with caroline and chengxin. haha we were early cos no one was in the classroom! haha then chengxin was like, how come we are the first! haha then we talked rubbish for awhile and someone exclaimed, its supposed to be in the english room! haha so funny we thought we were early! then we went to the library ladada. we watched this show bout shanghai, okay la quite nice. the girl girl very poor thing luh. but her role is quite cool laaa.

during break we went to look for bel, then went to bind bio sia and handed in. lol, bet we are gonne have penalties for handing in late luh. zzz. then back to shanghai, after that was lunch break! we went to play bball. hahaha huiming and bailu joined us, it was damn funny. i think for today, the happiest part is playing bball with them and playing badminton after school! haha cos siwei's ball was coming at my direction, then i wanted to dodge so i just bent backwards and did xia yao, then they kept wanting to see my do it again. haha funny:DD

after that was biodiversity. uhhhhh. i dont really like biod la, i shant tell you why. but the vendor was fuuunny! and although i was quite scared whenever it comes to cutting animals, rachel always managed to make the first cut then my nerves calmed. haha actually honestly for biod, without rachel i think i will totally siannnnn off. like today, we were supposed to dig out the bird's brain and she was totally amused and tried to smear the brain juice on my face. so e xin!!! haha i dont wanna talk bout the bird. but now whenever i see birds i will get reminded of that disgusting digging out of flesh. ahhhhh:S hahahaha during lunch, i was complaining to chee bout having to cut the bird, then somehow we digressed and talked bout the sky. haha then this bird flew on top of us and we totally burst out laughing. stupid bird! haha and yea, bird brain is small!

after school jinyao couldnt go for badminton:( so we san que yi! haha then we just go on our own. but it was still very funny! haha we were super crap la, then we kept pretending jinyao was with us! hahaha then whenever the shuttlecork fell on my side, we blamed on jinyao. hahaha poor jinyao, bet she was sneezing away during her cca cip! then after that we went to lot one, haha we were all very tired cos of bio sia last night:( poor gi, she slept at five am! yayy. thanks to gi and chenyi for playing badminton with me today although yall were super tired! can tell! haha, cos i really really wanted to play today! even during the time when i was cutting the bird, i was thinking bout badminton. hoho xie xie:DD

i think the time when i will be super moody is approaching, be prepared! haha i bet by next week you will see emo posts and loads of rambling. hahaha, danger zoneeee(: today during the shanghai movie, i kinda like what the girl said. "dont be too nice to me, cos i cant help it but reciprocate." Reciprocation is something that the receiver does if they have the time, ability, and desire. Under no circumstances should a receiver feel any obligation whatsoever to reciprocate. An obligation to reciprocate can very quickly make the giver a burden to the receiver.

"However, to maintain any type of relationship there has to be mutual give and take. If you always initiate a get together, then the person gives repeated poor and unbelievable excuses for not following through, is that to be accepted from a potential friend? If they never show of their own accord that they think anything about you, then what? Are they just not to be burdened with giving you a call sometimes or suggesting getting together. That seems one-sided, not a friendship."

"But when its someone that I feel like I'm making all the effort with, and it DOES seem like they only get in touch with me when they want something, then I do kind of write it off as "oh do they even like me? or are they just using me for [fill in the blank]? i'm not going to bother anymore." you can really only give so much to SOME people."

hahaha it all seems kinda negative! but then, in conclusion, what really counts is-

"Expect nothing in return. Everyone is raised differently. Do not expect someone to do things YOU do, just because you do them. If you're truly friends with someone, does it matter how often they call, what they give, where they invite you? Be the best friend you can, if you truly enjoy the person and the time they DO have to give you, and leave it at that."

i've never liked giving others and not taking anything. cos no matter how nice you are, one day you will be tired of giving, wont you? and, whenever you keep giving, you get so lost, you are even unsure of whether the other person actually mind that much bout you. yeah, then doubts kinda make things complicated. haha but then.. yea you know what i wanna say(:

i'll just take your indifference as a problem with yourself and nothing to do with me. so i dont need to compromise anything and we can just stay as we are. the end:D

2008-05-20T19:51:00.002+08:00

ohayou gozaimasu:D

ytd we went to pulau ubin to cycle! :DD supposed to meet jinyao at woodlands mrt at 7.30, but i woke up at 7.15:/ i thought i was late so i sms-ed jinyao to meet at 8. hahaha then she told me she woke up at 6 but fell asleep until she saw my msg! haha so we reached tanah merah mrt like laaaate. but not that late! only ten minutes late(: so we met with gi and took bus to changi jetty! then we met nicole at changi jetty, we were earlier:D

it was pretty crowded! then we took the boat across to ubin. haha i was thinking of a very dumb question, if we were at jetty then what should we take. ferry? no. ship? no. jet? hahaha, okay i was just being stool. anyway the ride there was gooood, haha cos i stuck my head out of the boat and the sea wind was blowing my head off, damn nice:D

after reaching, we went to rent bikes. at first, my bike was really good la, nice to cycle, then the feel very smooth. ooh, gi and nicole were supposed to teach us how to change gear, but i didnt really hear anything so i survived without changing gears. anyway i hadnt really see the use of it yetttt. it was quite comfy at first, cos its like proper cement road with up and down slopes. then after at least half an hour, we went into the rocky path! haha it was quite nice, bumpy:D then we reached this down slope which looked super nice to zoooooom down. but we were like thinking, if we comfortably zoom down now, then later have to jialat all the way up! haha we nearly turned back, but heng we didnt! jinyao insisted on going down so we went down and reached the main road:DD ooh we took some pics!

then after some time, we went back to change bikes. cos gi's cannot change gear then mine went a bit sot. i was quite sad cos my bike was so nice to ride on! hoho we wanted to go for lunch, but they only have seafood:( we decided to watch moovie later so we just ate coconuts! hahaha nicole's coconut damn sad, no flesh! so i donted her mine cos i was too lazy to scrape. but nicole didnt eat much either cos she's a lazy one too! then jinyao and gi ate beehoon from some vesak day event, while i went to test out the new bike. it was quite nice too. after that we went the new way and all the way to the rocky place and to the beach! we took some pictures there too:DD

when we were about to turn back, we saw this ob territory sign. nicole said her group trekked pass there during ob singapore last year, but i couldnt remember anything! ooh, then on the way back to starting point, the biggggg incident happened! i was right in front with jinyao behind me. haha then she was grumbling bout the disadvantages of having long legs. haha so i just laughed and sped in front. then jinyao was so engrossed in talking bout her long legs we didnt hear nicole screaming. yeah, after we reached like so much forward, we didnt see gi and nicole so i called gi. then gi said she fell down! haha so jinyao and i chiong-ed back! haha good thing we didnt walk luh, jinyao thought they were quite near and we nearly planned to walk. but they were quite a distance away! then stuuupid jinyao was saying she wanna rush to go save georgi. so we rode our horses and zoomed to gi. her injuries very painful eh! poor gi:(

after that we managed to ride back to the rental place la. then we returned our bikes and went to the jetty. haha jinyao wanted to show us the secret garden, but we didnt go in the end. so she was like, "nvm it shall remain a secret for me!" haha we took this jetty back, then this three brown musketeers very annoying leh, they wanna snatch our seats. they super kiampa la, refused to move into the indoor part of the boat. then in the end all of us moved in. then they kept making so much noise and taking pictures. haha jinyao and i just kan them bu shun yan la. esp the girl la, so irritating. she still scolded us in malay luh, hello i have been taking malay for four years already can. so rude, HMPH.

after reaching mainland, gi and nicole went to toilet while jinyao and i sat in the middle of nowhere and talked. she was teaching me jap i think! haha then after they were done, gi and nicole went to buy ice cream! then after that we went to hawker centre to search for ice. haha jinyao and i ate mango ice kacang, but their mango not nice eh! then nicole ate ayam something. i think its ayam pendek but it means short chicken. hahaha i dont know(: then after that nicole went to buy lunch for her fam while gi, jinyao and i left for movie with joanna. we were searching for the most suitable timeslot cos gi didnt want too late and we didnt wanna be late. haha so we decided on toa payoh, but we were still late! waaaah i wannt talk bout this joanna can! she told me she couldnt go ubin cos she wanna rush her bio sia, but this chiwawa slept until jinyao sms-ed can, which was like 2pm? haha stupid chiwawa! but still, joanna damn on, she agreed to come out for movie:DD

so on the way to toa payoh, we had funny conversation i cant remember what. then we reached toa payoh entertainment centre and watched what happened in vegas. it was quite funny, then the guy very cute! the girl also damn chio la, so it was quite a nice show:D haha after the movie everyone left, but gi claimed there was gonna be something at the very end, so we waited and waited. no one was in the theatre already la! haha but hunag tian bu fu ku xin ren! we watched this super lame ending. lol, then we decided to leave! hahaha the mrt incident suuuuper funny! all four of us were walking to the mrt station then we were talking and talking then we didnt really notice where we were sitting. the opposite mrt came and left, then the mrt on our side came. hahaha then we realised we were waiting for the wrong mrt! and our mrt left! DD: hahaha but it was damn funny, cos we thought each other knew what mrt we were waiting for, but we ended up missing ours and waiting for the wrong one:S haha then jinyao and i got off at woodlands. she went to buy stuffs while i went home. ytd was a happy day! :DD

today! in the morning i was late, hahaha let me tell you the funny incident! at first my dad sent my sis to her school (which is alllllll the way at amk) then chiong me to school, but i was still late! then he was giving me a final choice, go to school or not! haha so i anything lor, just went in. then this sec two girl stopped me to take down my name and class. i tell you first, it was my first time late in school for the past four years in ny okaaay! haha so i didnt know what latecomers normally do. so i just gave my name and da yao da bai all the way to the class. oh, haha i realised the classrooms are empty so they probably were still at quadrangle. haha then during recess hanjing was telling me, this junior who took my name was a counsel elect, then she was telling hanjing, "one senior ran away from me.." HAHAHA oh man, damn funny! but it wasnt my fault what! im a fresh latecomer so it was her duty to stop me and tell me to stay there and not move. plus, when i walked back to class she didnt even stop me can! haha okay fine, she looked quite scared of me, but i dont look that scary what! hahaha oh man, i felt so paiseh, but it was so funny la! next time when im late i know i should stay there and not move, HAHA:DD

then for sabbaticals, the shanghai one i just spent my time talking to chengxin, tkaing pics with ehr, and sleeping. hahaha after that i was telling chengxin, it felt like a new day after sleeping for i dont know how long. lol, chengxin you cannot blame me for sleeping luh, its your job to entertain meeeee:DD then during lunch we ate together andddd.. for biodiversity, it was quite okay today leh! cos i like the woman, she is so funny:DD then we learnt how to specimentify crabs, crickets and eggs. it was quite fun la! haha then rachel as usual was making crappy comments:DD i dont feel like going for tmr's sabb cos we are going to dig the bird's organs and flip it inside out. *vomits* i dont want, its plain cruelty! animal rights!

after school gi, chenyi and i went for nyaa cip. lol, we just slacked totally today. cos henry park had some programmes for them. yeaaaa, watch, stone, watch, talk, take pictures, stone, stone, stone. hahaha. then back to the place, we played games. then i took liyuen to the mini library and we read. haha liyuen super cute, she'd rather read than play games. then we went home! okaaay, that's all for today! i wanna do my bio sia and redo my math written assignment. tonight's gonna be buuuuusy:(( janneh!

2008-05-18T10:48:00.000+08:00

ahnnyeonghaseyo! :DD
it is raaaaare to see me here on sunday mornings right?! xD yeeeah, it kinda took me by surprise too. i thought that as usual, im gonna have piano lesson today. then i woke up and saw my parents sitting on the table eating pancakes. at first, i wasnt really awake so i just stupidly sat there with them. then i thought, arent we supposed to go malaysia to have breakfast before lessons! then bingo! hahaha actually i wasnt that happy that we arent having piano lessons. cos i practised kinda hard this week(:

anywayyy, i shall blog bout yesterday(: we had social night! at first was an activity by susan, then we went for dinner. dinner was by mr fam, suuuper nice:D i think the drumstick is very cute, looks real haha. then after digesting, we started on games. first was telematch, haha very funny. it consists of four parts- kiapping the pingpong ball with chopsticks and spoon, the chair chain game, the one finger on the ball one, and the pass the ball chain. haha i think the chair chain game is the funniest one. cos we were lagging behind at first, then david threw the first chair far in front so we could catch up. and we got first:D haha we had super powers at first, but didnt use in the end. yeaaa, so telematch was fun(:

then after that was netball. i think watching them play was very funny. cos the whole court was in a mess. but they were quite cool cos you never really get to see pple this hungry for the ball or jumping this high during girls' netball. okaaay, maybe there was. anyway, it was fun. at first was grp one agains four, then we won. so after two against three and two won, we had winner vs winner. grp two won, haha i think i was quite bad during the last game. like whenever i wanna shoot, timothy at least a head higher than mine, just blocked in front. but it was fun nevertheless.

after everthing, waited for moomy to fetch us. waaah, they went to downtown east to fetch my sis, suuuuper long la. i think we waited for at least an hour. still said half an hour, hmpf. mingsheng and weihong waited with us and lompang a ride back. while waiting they were playing the piano and guitar while we nearly fell asleep on the chair. then finally my parents came! but when we wanted to go out, we thought the gate was locked. weihong suggested climbing over the gates, but then cos got us then mingsheng ran to get the janitor, but in the end the gate wasnt locked-.- so we took the car back, yayy:D

what should we do today. its quite historical cos i rarely, hardly, almost impossibly have a free sunday. daddy suggested we go hawk park. hehehe i dont mind! sunday is the perfect time to get in touch with nature:DD ooh, i wonder if we are still going cycling at pulau ubin tmr! i really feel like cycling:/ but actually im kinda scared of pulau ubin cos there are dogs everywhere! im not looking forward to school cos we are still in the midst of sabbaticals. sighhhh..

cause everything inside it never comes out right
just recently, i have stupid thoughts running in my head. talk bout integration, i think its hard isnt it? it doesnt just happen once, but quite a few times, when you're supposed to integrate, but you just dont fit in. i dont see the point in squeezing in, if you dont click, you just dont click. i dont know la, let's just give each other a chance.

2008-05-16T21:37:00.003+08:00

konichiwa:D
today is the start of sabbaticals! i shall blog bout my sabbs first. hmm, i chose shanghai and biodiversity. the shanghai one is okaaay, the teacher is nice, although i wasnt paying much attention. but shuold be fine la(: then biodiversity today was erghhhh! we dissected frogs:S it was horribly terribly chamly sadly immorally disgusting:/ at first the frog i got was damn active, lao bu si, die already still move around. as explained by sandy tan, they may be dead but they still have relex actions. but she was nice she changed for me a more dead one. i guess i was glad she did, when i saw rachel gumbling bout her frog moving around, haha. i took pictures of the gross dissection! i think we are supposed to put on lms or something. im sorry frog! not that i wanna dissect you, but i had no choice! if you want revenge go look for sandy tan:/

you know, i have this level of mood change graph. one of the days last week was my peak, and i can feel my graph going down now. so, warning! but arent we glad june hols' comingggg(: i shall mug extra-ly suberbly hard:D actually i dont have much to blog bout today laaaa. hmm, i was supposed to remember three things today, but i forgot everything. its my memory, yayaya.

i realise playing the piano always make me think alot. then i get emo. haha so piano makes me emo. i dont know why also la. its like, scales for an hour, then really damn sian so you have to have thoughts running round your head to get rid of the boredom. i think im weird, i can practise without really knowing what im practising. as in, i know what im playing, but im just daydreaming while practising. if you get it(: but i need to focuuuuus! exam is less than a month away:S anyway, some pple may seem like they are close to you, at least used to, but if you think bout it, yall hardly exchange a few words each day. fine la, that's just for my case. for example, i dont remember speaking to gi at all today! i miss last year, crapping bout anything under the skyyyyy:( i dont know la, haiya i dont wanna talk bout this. ha.

let's talk bout something moree.. cheerful? hahaha rachel was talking to her frog todayyyy! haha stupid la she, you should see what she did to her frog, TSKTSK. haiya, im not in a high mood now, talk next time! who's gonna brighten my dayyy:( here you go again, giving me hopes.

You leave me hanging on the line.
Every time you change your mind.

forget
forget
forget
forget
forget
forget
forget
forget
forget
forget

让我心动的人是谁呀
愿那在梦中的你会懂

2008-05-15T20:05:00.002+08:00

ooz(:
today is an extremely weird day! like, in the morning was quite normal, i was still playing bridge during ih can. then suddenly halfway during lunch break while watching the show, a patch of my vision suddenly got blurred and i couldnt see anything beyond that patch. i thought i was going blind! then i had this annoying headache on the left side of my head. then i thought, must be joanna! cos she came to sit next to me during lunch, then i kept bullying her, so she decided to put a curse on me, no wonder! heh, just kidding la:D anyway after that was physics and LA, i was totally left with half a life. during physics i kept feeling like my head was going to burst and my tummy was going to explode. not that i had such a sumptuous lunch or what, in fact i only drank lychee during recess and bb tea for the whole day. but i just felt like vomitting, i wonder what could have came out. so during LA i was like half dead, and half-heartedly paying attention. i was really scared i would vomit in heritage corner, it would be so embarrassing!

then after school was supposed to go for math remedial and trng, but i just laid my heavy head on the table and fell asleep for awhile. ehhhh, sorry to those who talked to me but i half-heartedly replied, cos i was really feeling weird:/ bel as usual was bouncing around then she came and kaciau me, but i didnt have much reaction, and you can see this dead whale lying on the table, hahaha. but i still went for trng. didnt wanna skip so many la. i also dont know why whenever it comes to thurdays i get sickkkk. like last week, i wasnt in school. but i was glad i went for trng! cos i felt alot better after that. i think i have caring teammates(: fly and shiyu were asking me how i was feeling, then i told then the situation. then they said how can dont eat, must eat something! so fly bought me a packet of famous amos. although, i didnt finish cos i reeeally feel like throwing up, but i was really touched by fly's thoughtfulness! haha, i shall pay you back tmr! so i gave the leftovers to the hungry lions, haha. then this sec one came late and i did passes with her, both medicine ball and netball. after that i felt really alot better. so doing work made me feel better. but after that i left early with chenyi. anyway, i wanna thank pple again! haha, cos it really makes your heart wam when you are unwell and pple cared bout youuu(: first its gi who looked very concerned when i told her bout my eyes! then mr tan, although he didnt do much but he asked me if i was unwell twice:D then during LA, alina and nicole were very concerned! alina even offered me water and shot me looks of sympathy(: then rachel was also very sweet, she offered to help me tell jenzi i cant go for trng(: and during trng, basically everyone was very nice to me((: after reaching home, chenyi sms-ed me to give me advice! haha so im kinda touched today(: lovely pple always make the world go round round round(:

and today during chinese! hahaha we were all hard at work and wu lao shi said she was touched! she said she was GAN DONG(: so she gave us sweets! haha yayy i think lao shi is the first one to be gan dong-ed by us. normally when teachers talk bout four six, i think their first thought would be- HORROR! haha i dont think teachers have much impression of us! LC was very funny during math today. i think im starting to get used to her, sigh ggg ran away from us. actually although i dont like him that much, i think he is quite nice luh. when we lost our math worksheets in his pigeon hole, he will take it as his fault and still award us with marks. then he will bother printing extra practice for us. but LC is rather strict in her markings, and i kinda cant figure out the way she works out her workings. oh well, time to do more revsion on my own. i think now, the subjects which require me to do most studying is math and physics! im gonna fail so much more, man! ooh you know, my ca1 is like, dabiaaan! DD:

lol, i dont think i have much to talk bout already. ooh, term two officially ends today! cos starting from tmr it will be sabbaticals! and all the way till june hols! HOHO(: ooh i hope sabbs will be fun! but i dont wanna dissect rabbits! nor do i wanna see pple dissecting them! i wanna change:/ how can sec ones have nice sabbs but ours... sigh, sec four! ooh, its hard to accept the fact that im sec four! when i was sec one, i felt that there are so many pple, so many things, i felt so tiny in the school! but as i slowly progressed towards sec four, all the pple and things around me got smaller, and the school doesnt hold any suspense or surprise for me anymore. sigh, i think i shouldnt be thinking bout this, but spend all my time on studiesssss! D:

okaaay, i shall end here! HAHAHA i made a resolution not to hit jinyao today. i think i succeeded(: haha wah piang, every thing she says just makes pple wanna kick her can, no wonder hitting her after every sentence she speaks is already a habit! haha especially during recess today, she knew i was containing my urge to hit her so she kept agitating me! hahaha jinyao is a cowwwww(:

2008-05-14T20:49:00.003+08:00

holaaa:D
i wanna continue practising piano! but moomy's friend and her kids are here! hahaha the son suuuuuper cute can! he says he's only three, but he can speak like any primary school kids! haha now i can hear him saying "dynomite!" repeatedly, HAHA cute right! :DD but he is very sweaty and smelly! haha kawaiiiiii(:

i intended to do math, but my sis wanna use the com! so i shall go continue practising piano! ooh i think they are going home already!

anyway, today in the morning i was really quite sian, but yaaaaa still okay ba! then lunch played bridge with alina, joanna and iris. after school we went for badminton:DDDD got jinyao, gi, chenyi and me! at first played doubles was rather slack, then played singles against gi, so shuaaaang! i dont know why so many pple dont like to play, but its really very fun luh! like jinyao said, where got sian:DD anyway i dont know why but while playing bad always get very high oneeee(:

after that we went to westmall again. went to kfc, ooohh we saw louisa and melvis! hahaha tey super funny(: then we ate for awhile, there was this young kid sitting on the baby chair, then we just posed and did stupid actions but he was like, stare at jinyao, stare at me, stare at gi, stare at chenyi, back to jinyao again. hahaha then when we left, he started crying! hahaha i think that's what happens when you see four scary monsters, lol! then we went to library again. i borrowed one book, but i left it with chenyi cos my bag was super heavy. then we went back!

what should i look forward to tmr! there's trng! lessons should be quite boring so i shant:X then fri no more lessons, got sabbs:DDD i dont have much to say today. waaah, jinyao and chenyi had alot to comment on my chinese can! hahaha they are always waiting for opportunities to attack me luh, tsktsk!

the previous post i was still rather optimistic! but sometimes its real hard to get it going, aint it? oh well, i dont know. sometimes you just feel that you give too much, but cant get anything back from that person. have you ever had this kinda feeling! then perhaps one day, you will just feel like stopping, you think its pointless to wait for the person to return what you gave. what will happen if this day comes to me? i wonder if you by then will realise that im giving up, how i waited for you to return.. hahaha this is not meant to be an emo post, really! i was just thinking bout it. some pple are like, you give they return, so its a two way thing. but some pple, although they may be this close to you, supposed to be the closest ones, but you cant get anything back. you will never know, maybe you are just a normal friend. not that everyone wants an abnormal friend, but just like, good, better, best? haha i think so. i wonder if you are reading this. are you going to return? cos i dont wanna wait in vain, i dont wanna give up when the day comes. still, waiting for you to return, how much longer can i wait?

只有天上一颗星星说她睡了
你是否也该休息了

2008-05-13T19:55:00.002+08:00

bonsoir! guten tag! aloha! buona sera! ohayou gozaimasu! ahn nyeong ha se yo! salvete! holà! ni hao! :DD
fine im just being boliao. hahaha(: anywaaaay, today is pretty much.. okay! haha i dont really have much to blog bout. but i shall post something meaningful and important first. recently, i realise my ca1 marks really sucks. then i came to a realisation that i have to do well for this year if not goodbye to across the bridge. and suddenly, i remembered bout how i promised myself to work harder this year. now im guilty to the peak:(

today we didnt have very exciting happenings. urh, pe was good! we played soccer! hahaha first time as a whole class, well excluding a few pple. but it was quite nice! fuuunny(: but alot pple was injured! hahaha gi was telling me her braces scratched huifang's face, so funny! but it was quite uncomfortable during the game cos i had flu and couldnt breathe through my nose:/ but it was still nice on the whole! :D

after school we went for nyaa. gi didnt go cos she had something on:( but *coughcough*. took bus with alina to serene centre! then we ate ice creeeeeam and sundaaaae(: for nyaa, okay we didnt really do much there. i think the little girl i took last week is suuuuper cute! but she didnt recognise me! DD: and liyuen had forgotten me too! DD: so i had this malay guy but he wasnt very interested in me, oh well! he was doing sci and i realised my pri sch sci is like... (: then we played monopoly. after that he was called by ms raja so only chenyi and i were playing. super childish la! zzz~ ahhhhh, then i *coughcoughcough* super cute! haha totally mesmerized yeah. its like, when your eyes fall on someone then totally cannot take the eyes off the person. have you ever had this kind of experience! sweet sweet sweet:DD

we left early, hahaha. i was happy cos everytime after nyaa i never got home earlier than seven, but today i did! xDD still, dajie is playing the piano and i cant practise:( oh ya, i wanna complain bout this shop! super annoying can. ytd on my way to take my bus at the interchange, like next to it there's this mama shop by indians or malays i cant remember. cos i only have a one dollar coin and i dont wanna waste on bus fare ma, so i wanted to change for spare coins. but this shop owner, he told me impatiently, "we dont change coins. you have to buy something." i just thanked him insincerely and walked out of that place. and i tong-ed my one dollar coin into the bus fare thing. HMPH please luh, i'd rather donate my money to transitlink than buy stuffs from your shop! how can selfish shops like that exist luh! dont wanna change jiu suan le, still force me to buy stuffs. I DONT WANT LUH. so annoying. then i kept scolding the shop under my breath ytd. tsktsk, you need all the wishes under the skies to not let your shop close down man!

had third lang prelim oral ytd. i totally, and i seriously mean TOTALLY flunked the whole thing can! cikgu asked bout chinese new year, i talked bout SPIDERMAN! but cikgu was nice, she asked me what i wanna say in english. but ahhh, im so angry with myself. i will will will pia hard for third lang can! anyway after oral straight away can leave. luckily i was quite in front. so at first jinyao, joanna, chenyi, bel and i wanted to watch movie. we wondered if student price has time limit, but wu lao shi told us mon-thur dont have! anyway i wanted to go causeway, but they wanted cine. so we got on a bus to cine. then we regretted so we got off at coro, and crossed the bridge to take another bus. waste money can! after that they backed out so jinyao, joanna and i attempted to watch. but wu lao shi cheated our feelings! student price until 6 only:/ so we didnt watch in the end. after coming all the way to causeway, we felt so bo hua, then went to eat something good to make up for it. in the end spent more than movie tickets! should have watched lar! zzz.. but it was quite fun with them la. lame kia. after that we felt so unjust for the price then we just pushed and pushed the responsibility. hahaha, then joanna said, "should have gone for macdonald's ice cream instead!" hahaha ya luh! tsk tsk!

there's badminton tmr! hooray! remind me to bring rackets. whoever remembers to remind me will get a free ice cream! :DD anyway, we booked the court last week already. i paid le! xD i wonder if there's third lang tmr. hope not! not not not! :D then i can come home early to practise piano. ooh my piano exaaaaam, its worrying me SIGH. i shall attempt to finish my owed homework today!

i have a story to share with you about RACISM! it was on the radio today! i feel like sharing this cos i know im quite racist, not like discriminate all other races la, but just.. dont treat other races as my own. ya, probably cos im in a cheena school for four whole years. okay, im just kidding, teachers dont dont dont look for me(: here it goes!

Scene took place on a British Airways flight between Johannesburg and London.
A White woman, about 50 years old, was seated next to a Black man. Obviously disturbed by this, she called the air Hostess.
"Madam, what is the matter?" the Hostess asked.
"You obviously do not see it then?" she responded, "You placed me next to a Black man. I do not agree to sit next to someone from such a repugnant group. Give me an alternative seat."
"Be calm please, " The Hostess replied. "Almost all the places on this flight are taken. I will go to see if another seat is available."
The Hostess went away and then came back a few minutes later.
"Madam, just as I thought, there are no other available seats in the Economy class. I spoke to the Captain and he informed me that there is also no seats in the Business class. All the same, we still have one seat in the First class."
Before the woman could say anything, the Hostess continued,
"It is not usual for our company to permit someone from the Economy class to sit in the First class. However, given the circumstances, the Captain feels that it would be scandalous to make someone sit next to someone so disgusting."
She turned to the Black guy, and said,
"Therefore, Sir, if you would like to, please collect your hand luggage, a seat awaits you in First class."
At that moment, the other passengers who were shocked by what they had just witnessed stood up and applauded.

isnt it nice? i like the story, i like the way the hostess deals with this. i wouldnt be able to do this. haha i shall be less racist and treat all races equally. easier said than done, but no harm trying eh? :DD

i just feel like talking bout more than just physical stuffs. you know recently, i just realised that pple arent normally who i see them as, for a long time. always thought that they were like that, but they have so much more to tell. i really like the fact that everyone has a story to tell, and every story they tell will be different. there cant be totally identical stories, can there? that's not my point la. actually, i dont know what's my point. i was just thinking that if you dont commit yourself too much, you wont feel disappointed even if you lose it. but then again, if you dont commit yourself, how can you experience what it has for you? just like during sil, who was it who said this bout eeyore. he thinks the worst for everything, he doesnt look forward to anything. and when he doesnt, he wont experience the joy in hoping. imagine if there's not hope, wont life be very sad! its hope that dares us to dream of the impossible, to get ever so close to what we really want. haha i think i make sense, dont i? so what im trying to get across to you, you and you, and even myself, is that- dont stop hoping, you'll never know what lies ahead of you. so what if greater hopes comes with greater disappointment? at least you got yourself so close to what you want to get. haha, so dont lose hope and cheer up! if happiness can be kept in jars, i will distribute them to all the sad pple out there!

okay, meiling comes to an end and off she goes to bang on the piano(:

2008-05-11T19:52:00.003+08:00

it has been quite long since i last blog-hopped. i dont know la, cos i ~~think~~ thought that reading blogs always has a tinge of disappointment in it. i dont feel like explaining, you can figure out yourself(: but today im rather free (heh this phrase may bring me loads of troubles) so i just hopped around. had piano today. before me was my younger sis, she totally got my piano teacher hopping mad. she was really bold she flared up at my piano teacher and slammed the door behind her. whoa, super daring can! then my teacher was damn mad so i was the one who suffered! >< but heng my teacher was appeased. thanks to me the guai kia:DD like her mood totally changed for the better, which was good(: she said i improved(: sighhh piano exam is coming, i shall work extremely extremely hard!

then mothers' day was quite spoilt. oh yaaa, HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY MOOMY! :D heh cos my sis ma, then moomy was quite upset. but we celebrated in peace anyway! we went to jusco's pizza hut. wah you know young pple nowadays right, super practical la. normally when we go to jusco, pizza hut is totally empty, like you can see the waitresses and waiters hitting flies. then on mothers' day, the youngsters all turned filial luh, pizza hut was soooo full that we had to sit on a five-pple table. heh. but this kind of xian xiang may not necessary be a bad thing, cos got alot of shuai ge HEHEHE(: kidding la. anyway, the next event would be... dajie's birthday! :D

we are having team breakfast tmr! hohoho:D what else to look forward to this week, hmm. wed badminton! oh ya, we booked the court beforehand hope we can make it:D last week was fun fun fun(: then.. friday sabb starts! i got into shanghai one and biodiversity one. for the former one, i know caroline and chengxin got in too. then for biod, got quite a few cant remember. geeeorginaa not in anything with me! D: i will miss you maaaan. *FLUTTER FLUTTER* hahaha:D then.. sat got alot of programs! actually not alot la, heh, but at night got social night:D then next next week there's vesak day! then sabb week! then HOLS:DDDDD yayy! oh ya, we may be having class birthday celebration! MORE DETAILS ON CLASS BLOG SOOOOOON(:

风它不肯说
云悄悄飘过
黑夜它依旧沉默

2008-05-10T23:08:00.003+08:00

hohoho:DD
i shall blog bout ytd! :DD oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENGXINNNNN! :DD
school hadnt that much to talk bout. maybe there is, but not the main point. main point is chengxin's surprise parrrrrty(((: haha its not really that surprising since chengxin claimed that there are loads of loopholes! hahaha but she was still happy anyway! according to what i asked her(:
after school, i went home, showered and changed, and met alina, joanna and chenyi at clementi mrt. i was late for more than ten minutes! heh, paiseh(: but even when i was on my way there, gi and rachel were still in school and melwee and kelly were on the bus! so i suppose we were quite early, haha. then we reached, shiyu they all were there already. so we just practised how to play birthday song. haha actually in my last...nine years i've never known how to play a birthday song. hahaha(: nvm, im not the only one! but then i still played. haha at first was like, a few of us 'surprised' chengxin, which she was totally not surprised la. then the realy surprise came, cos rachel they all were late, then they enter with chengxin's best friend in pri sch? ahaha and chengxin was surprised i bet:DD
then we ate for quite long, haha like pigs can! haha actually i didnt really move around to get food cos alot of pple served me, HEE(: ooh cos gi couldnt bite, then couldnt eat! hahaha so we kept tempting her! err, or was it just me? HAHAHA! aha we kept spilling food, wiping the floor, spilling food again lol. and we took loaaaaads of pictures! :DD haha anyway alot pple bullied me la, but the worst one was kelly aimed for my *cough* and planted her fist right into *cough*! TSKTSK, i felt so... painful HAHA. alot of things happened while i was eating la! cant remember what, but totally cannot eat in peace! then we played gaaaames. haha no, actually only one game! hahaha but i came prepared with my weapon -- WASABI. hahaha we sabo-ed chengxin:DD first time was quite successful, but second time was quite dumb, cos rachel was telling me like secretly, then i turned around and saw chengxin staring at us intently. HAHAHA DUMB DUMB DUMBBB! but then it was also quite dumb i brought my weapon but i had to eat it too, zzz.. but it was very funnny hahaha. then we ate cake and rachel told me to smudge the cream on chengxin. so it wasnt me okay! maybe it was me, but it was me physically and not intentionally! rachel is the mastermind! HEE(: then we presented our presents to CHENGXINNN! i wonder if she finished seeing the present we gave her.. must keep properly okaye, it contains our wee hours of midnight and loads of efforts and love and care and whatever la! :DD
after that, time to go home! went with shiyu and cassandra cos cassandra's mom went to fetch her. she super lame la, in the lift keep hitting my balloon, then my balloon fly away. haha ooh we met jinyao they all at the mrt and this guy came to ask us where we got the balloons from. hahaha so funny. jinyao was saying maybe he collects balloons. hahaha damn lame. waaaah, on the way home on the mrt jinyao SUUUUPER LAME can! every word which came out of her mouth is dabian la(: i think she managed to suan everyone on the mrt with her ytd luh. tsktsk so kiampa:DDD after that i took bus home and felt so sleepy i didnt wanna blog. that's all for ytd!
then guzheng concert! met chenyi at yishun and went to j8 to have lunch and buy flowers. then we were daaaamn late for the concert. we missed like half of it. but it was quite nice la! although we didnt have comfy seats. ooh nicole was next next to us! then after that we went to stage to give chengxin flowers. and took loads of pics! haha, then bel, alina, jinyao, chenyi, xinyu and me went for dinner! hahaha okay that's all! i wanna zao already! loooooooove, meiling!

2008-05-07T21:54:00.003+08:00

heyheyhey((; i nearly fell asleep in front of the piano. hahaha good thing i didnt, if not there will be a big bang on the keys. lol:D yaaaa, i have been really hardworking and practised piano for more than two hours. but i was so sleepy i gave up practising on my third piece. haha my second piece right, got a lot of repeated parts! then i was dozing off so i kept repeating the same part again and again. tsktsktsk, how can i survive!

anyway today was okaaaay. haha i let a few pple listen to the virtual barber! it is damn cool:DD but i think only imaginative pple can really see the coolness hahaha. anyway today's LA very funny. were talking bout why you dislike cockroaches, then someone said cos cockroaches have hairy legs, then mr L looked down at his legs, haha damn amusing! then phy we had SPA! sighhhh, spa spa spa everyday. but phy was okay. more okayer than bio, cos at least i know what im doing for phy. but i suddenly have coughing fit then i escaped to the toilet. but good thing we have ample time(: ya, recently im really sick. today i had to survive breathing through my mouth. sigh, i dont like being sick:/ anyway i dont wanna be on mc either cos im not in the ponning school mode. i just wanna be healthy:X but being sick didnt really make be feel real down. haha i think its random but during recess chee called us to play bball, lol:D

chinese was quite fun. this is the first time i enjoy bao zhang bao dao. cos they asked bout mothers' day stuffs! like, see how well you know your mother? haha its kinda sad cos most pple know their friends more than they know their mom! i shall interview my mom when im freeee(: then math, okay i shant talk bout it. then lunch just slacked around in class and played bridge! assembly was quite okay! had some hmp musical performance? ya, quite cool. i like one of the songs huh. then after school yayy:DD

wah you know right. normally its rachel, chenyi, me and some other pple playing badminton every wed. then today some cannot make it! so i asked chee they all. i thought i'd be playing with ex two-eighters. but siwei and zong had remedial! so i asked somemore from 4/6. haha so in the end we have a group of 4/6, a group of ex-2/8. hahaha turned out to be more pple! but the more the merrier! it was super fun la, today! although we had to wait quite awhile cos there are aunties dancing. ooh, then we played with this little didi, super cute! and he's pro-er than joanna luh:DD okay i shant blog anymore im falling onto my keyboard. i shall go do math ass, and study chem quiz! zzz..

谁为了谁
为了谁心动在分分钟

haha it sounds kinda funny, but in the midst of my practising the piano, a sense of emo-ness came upon me. lonely, im so lonely, all on my own. lol, haha not really la. i think true friends are hard to find. kinda sad but in my sixteen years i dont think i really have a friend so close that i dont mind showing her my ugly side and just talk to her bout anything. like, all the friends i have are either high-friends, friends who friend me with motives, or just friends that you really cant get close to no matter what. sigh, i dont know la. anyway, i just dont like it when you are talking to your friend, then someone else wanna talk to her, then she just left the conversation hanging there and totally ignores what you are saying and goes on to talk to another person. ya its not obvious that you obviously dont matter that much. sigh, wo ye bu zhi dao. some pple are rather -adjective-, like normally they stick to this certain person, then when the person is not there, she bobian has to stick to you. ya, its abit disgusting. anyway, ytd talked to gi bout some stuffs. she said that floating around is better than always sticking to the same pple. i pondered quite abit on this. i think i think otherwise, cos sad pple like me need an quan gan! haha fine i shall end here(:

2008-05-06T21:24:00.002+08:00

hellohello:D
today is... well on the whole okaaay. but im sick again:( like, a few weeks ago i was sick for quite a while, then i recovered. then after a week, which is about now, im sick again! D: i dont wanna be sick, i wanna alive and healthy and annoying(:

we had pe today:D it was very fun:DD haha and ms chue was nice, she let me sat with chengxin cos i had flu. then i joined them for assessment and game(: waaah, soccer not as bad as i thought la. although my legs really cannot be controlled by me. i wonder by who:S i did pairwork with nicole lim today and while i was being the goalkeeper i witnessed the ball came flying at my face and PIACK! hahaha:D then assessment was okaaay. actually my soccer damn lousy, but nicole was my partner so i think my marks wasnt thaaaaat bad. hahaha(: then we had game! haha mr lim damn funny can! but it was really quite fun. hahaha oh man, thinking of joanna makes me wanna laugh again! she had the ball with her, then i was defending her. as i got closer, her leg just swang one round around the ball, haha i prepared to see the ball fly high and far! but it was still on the very same spot. hahaha damn funny! it was supposed to be "on purpose" according to joanna. haha not bad eh, KONG CHENG JI(: hahaha oh man, thinking bout this makes me wanna laugh again!

after pe was recess. then LA, then lunch! lunch i was doing ih sbq. it was quite a torture having to do work when everyone's slacking:/ ooh anyway thanks to gi for letting me grumble and grumble(: then chinese stupid huifang was being irritating. haha then class contact we had gcp meeting. haha i was quite surprised to see the faces in wep. quite a few teammates and ob sabah pple. ooh, four from anything hangtuah! hahaha:D sigh, suddenly got reminded of sabah. i like how it stays in my memory cos there's this funny unique feeling tugging my heart whenever i think of ob sabah. sigh, im sure it wont be that bad staying i singapore. then i have time to find my own hol job and earn money:DD anyway there's third lang o' level in the middle of nowhere. so i guess it wont be that bad! just hope i dont get into... haha you know what i dont wanna get into! :D

then after school went for nyaa cip wtih gi, chenyi and claudia. haha i was incharge of this primary 2 girl. damn cute la she! she kept saying "i like you jiejie!" then she kept hugging my arm. hahaha she's super cute! then she was playing a fool with this pri 3 guy. so funny! i think she's like liyuen! so cute:DDD then after that took mrt home. i decided not to take daddy's car anymore, cos i really dont wanna rely on other pple. sigh, and i have to sacrifice the leisure! oh well, that's all for today(: are we playing bad tmr! :DD

2008-05-05T20:49:00.004+08:00

im sleeeeeepy. i just slept in front of the com while doing bio SIA. sigh. oh ya, have to do ih sbq. although its due like today. ehhhhhhhh. where is chenyi! i wanne sleep leh, and its barely 9. i shall wake up early tmr.

i've nothing much to say bout today la. just sian, lessons lessons lessons! arghhh, then tmr got quizes and spas! i dont want! school is getting boring-er and boring-er. come, june hols, come! after school chenyi had doctor's appointment. went to kap to check out the hmm ya:D okay i shant linger here any longer, byebye!

梦若和你的一切都是梦
那为何我会心动

if you are displeased with me in any way, just tell me straight in my face. dont have to go around rambling bout me. i thought i will be angry with you, but- dissapointment, when i thought you are my friend. used to be. i dont wanna use the word best friend, cos you really aint worth it. you judge, and you dont bother trying to find out how i feel. do i really want it this way? you never ask. perhaps your faith in me is too little, too unnecessary. but you'll never know how much more it hurts, when its someone you trust. am i wrong to treat you as my friend? you'll never how glad i was when im sad and you give me a hug, when you read my blog and told me to cheer up, when im crazy and you go crazy with me. i guess these are what good friends do. its a pity our friendship lasts only for a short while, but im sure we would have been really good friends if there arent so many things holding us back. im sorry we have to end here, cos here's where my trust in you end. goodbye and dont look back.

2008-05-04T17:11:00.002+08:00

heyhey:D
im in a slackyyy mood now but i will go study soooooon. haha my studying soon is always very hard to, umm accomplish? heh heh! but i finish all my hw already luh. okay la, except a few. like, colouring the malay project, doing ih sbq, and some SIA blahblah.

nothing much happened today. just had piano lesson earlier than normal. then in the afternoon went to meet pinghui, that's all. ergh, piano lesson was horrible today! not that i got scolded till so cham or what, but cos my sis got scolded until she cried can. you may think, that has nothing got to do with me, but my teacher told me to sit in front of her and play scales and pieces. waaaah, you can never know how bad the atmosphere was. my hands were trembling until cmi la. imagine yourself being the one supposed to show your sis how its done, then the teacher kept scolding your sis. and you are supposed to have perfect demonstration. the stress can totally kill me la. heng i survived. sigh, i wonder if i will pass my grade 8. ytd at chengxin's house bel and jinyao thought i was good, but i think i really cmi! my scales not firm enough, my pieces not familiar enough, my sight-reading and aural havent even started, and my piano exam is one month away! tell me how to copeeeeee:/

but unhappy things aside, this week is gonna be loooooong. i dont know. sigh, let me look forward to something. ooh tmr morning playing with siweeee they all! yayy(: then.. wed playing badminton! :DD anddddd.. i dont know. haha i shall be optimistic! SMILEEEE(:

2008-05-03T21:41:00.003+08:00

ahhh its barely ten pm and im really sleepy! i feel my eyelids dropping...

anyway, went to chengxin's house! hahaha i had a hard time finding her house man! then the signboard cheated my feelings! it points to the left for block C, D, E and F, but i found chengxin's house alllll the way at the farmost right! then chengxin told me the sign is for cars! -.- but then her house super cool can, the view outside lala nice! we were supposed to do other stuffs, but we ended up slacking, heh. well, rest is good!

chengxin's parents took out two boxes of ice-cream for us. then chengxin and i started without them. haha super funny, chengxin kept claiming the yoghurt ice-cream wasnt nice, that's why both of us were eating, then the rest ate the other normal one. haha but then i think yoghurt one nicer eh! haha initially they believed us! lalala(: then bridged. lol, rachel said she wonder what i will become in the future, cos i com-bridge then human-bridge then com-bridged again. lol, i wonder too! then we left and i reached home like eight plus!

there's piano lesson tmr! i scared scared:/ but i practised alot this week eh! sigh, what's meant to be cant be avoided! i miss playing badminton with rachel and chenyi they all! although we only missed one session, but i waaaant! ergh, my moomy cui me go study already. byebye!

oh ya, i think fitting in is hard. figure out why.

2008-05-02T22:14:00.004+08:00

hahaha i received an sms from chengxin, damn funny! i read then laughed reread then laughed even harder. this yap xiao jie was like, "Hey!tmr georgi&bel coming to do ih sbq,rachel & jy coming to do ih sia!even though you got nothing 2 do here,missing a noisy person is weird!:D" oh maaaan, damn funny i just stared at the phone and laughed hysterically! xDD

haha that aside, today was okaaaay! in the morning was damn hot! and i was really reluctant to take off my jacket cos i didnt bring nametag. but no one caught me anyway. ooh mr L called me back to talk to me. i thought he was going to scold me or what. haha cos always when other teachers call me, is scold scold scold can. sigh anyway, he talked to me bout that entry. i suppose you all know which one, so i edited abit! well, not really abit la! but then but then, if no one knows the identity of the culprit then okay already whaaat. oh anyway quite a few pple confronted me to tell me the post very funny. haha then jinyao was saying she told her bro bout the black-peppered crab then they started laughing. heh i didnt mean to be mean, but it turned out mean, so it was meanly not my faulty. okay, maybe it was. but what's written's written so why not just take it as entertainment? anyway im not sure if mr L told me to delete the post or to censor all the names. i think i shall get a new blog soon. i dont really see the point of restricting what i can blog and what i cannot. like, i dont use blog as a tool to let everyone know the inner side of my (sounds so cliché la). then cannot write this cannot write that. wah might as well not write. why dont i just post essays and news or something. but then.. what's a blog for anyway? okay, there are basically 3 types of posts i have, i think. rant, emo, joy. not that joy la duh. oohh anyway, remember what i said bout joy in my previous post? hahaha she tried to make up for my emotional loss and offered one of her *cough*worksheet*cough* i shant say what. hahaha but in the end i didnt use hers la okaaaay. lol but it was damn funny cos she was like about to help me do the whole thing. eh, actually cos i forced her to. but i did it myself in the end okay! i shall clarify in case mrs C happens to be reading my blog. which i hope NOT!

then the rest of the day jiu like that luh. chem was okay. mr K was being lame as usual, but damn funny. his jokes always cold dao funny la. then see his expression, can die! but then, i dont really like like mr K as i did in the beginning of this year. i dont know la, kept getting in "trouble" with him. why "..", cos most of the time its not my fault la. at least i think so. like today, laiweng gave me a box of sweets, so i happily chew chew chew. then he asked me, "meiling, do you smoke?" obviously he wasnt joking, cos he looked serious la. like helllllllllloooo?! i dont even have enough money to go watch movie weekly or kbox monthly, how to buy cigarrettes?! anyway i cant even spell cigarettes properly, how to smoke? and please luh, if i do my dad will probably throw me down the flat or squeeze me down the toilet bowl. not that im mad at him for seeing me as such a non-sensible person, but its totally nonsense please! i feel like telling him ya i smoke, i even stick two cigarettes into my ear cos i cant stop smoking. wah lao, the nearest i get to smoke is eat smoked fish la. and i didnt even smoke the fish! ARGH.

but i wasnt really mad at him. cos during the lessons he really had stupid jokes la. fine, quite funny. then during LA lecture, wah piang! they picked me out for the gcp discussion. its to talk bout our last year gcp, how to improve what what, then talked bout their culture. i really have nothing to talk bout la. but i spoke quite a bit la. talk bout sabah only what. but it wasnt really that sian la. but i wanted to do math eh. fine, you didnt read anything. SHH.

i just came back form my sis' room then there's one missed call. heh so zhun, i was here for hours then no one called. then once i was gone got missed call. so anyway, where was i? hmm, the gcp discussion was quite okay la. but got alot of teachers spectating us! then very uncomfortable. but not that bad la.

after school went home with xingxuan. she's really like a kid can! the bus move vigorously she clutched on to me. then the bus jerked she put her whole weight on me, so i ahve to support two people's weight. then heng rachel koh's mom/grandma held on to her. ooh on the bus i saw a rachel koh from raffles! but this rachel koh is much chubbier and tanner than our rachel koh! hahaha:DD then i went home, bathed, practise piano and waited for chenyi to call me to meet her at causeway. then she called, we bought bubble tea for our sick patient and went to her house. its like doing cip for this old aunty who's stuck at home and didnt have any food for goodness knows how long. and who was deprived of computer. hahaha and she happens to be our dearest jinyao. damn funny la, she's like some criminal, then we send her food and entertained her. haha like, we ate in her room, chatted, then played bridge. haha one of us had to take up the roles of two players, then we alternate. haha super funny la. like, we cheer stupid things like "jinyao de zuo bian, jiayou!" haha amusing! then reached home and moomy didnt scold me. although i told her i was just going to friend's house to pass her hw. but we stayed there for an hour plus i think. lol! but very funny((:

recently things have changed for the better. i dont know if its me or other reasons. but im kinda scared to own so much, for the fear of losing them. its hard being a normal person- when you lose it, you are sad; when you own it, you are scared. is there ever a time where you can be truly happy? sigh, i think i shall treasure what i have when i have them. so if i lose them, i can proudly tell myself, at least i was happy for that period of time! as the saying goes, "never be sad for what's lost, just be glad it was once yours". i think its super meaningful. so happiness, here i come! :DD

2008-05-01T19:10:00.003+08:00

ni hao ni hao:DD
i heard they had great fun during the sleepover! sad i couldnt go:/

but today today! was quite okay:D i was really troubled whether i should go for sentosa outing or not, cos still had to rush to cine, but went in the end. at first woke up at freakin six plus (it is labour day and we should sleep in until the sun rises up to our asses!) then in the end daddy said he can send us. oh well, hooray! didnt have to take mrt alllllll the way to harbourfront. then daddy, moomy and rachel had breakfast and walked around until jayne was done and went home while i went to cine.

anywayyy. the sentosa outing was pretty nice i guess. saw alot of topless shuai ges with six pacs:PP kidding la. mm, we played monkey! my throws like dabian, kena monkey for quite a few times. then we playeddd.. oh the girls in front guys behind one. haha forget it la, i was quite shi bai in this! reaction wise, im slow. action wise, i also slow. so bo bian! then we played dog-and-bone! haha actually there were loads of hilarious sights during this, cos everyone was like protecting the ball then eyeing the ball as if it would run away. hahaha. but sad, didnt play beach captain's ball! oh, and i wonder why so many indians in sentosa:/

after that i left for somerset. went by mrt cos moomy said take car will take longer. anyway i was late for quite a long while cos we were supposed to meet at 10.15? haha i heard jinyao wasnt very surprised! so much for the surprise celebration, but HAPPY BIRTHDAY JINYAO! oh and HAPPY BIRTHDAY QITIAN too! then we met liqin, pH they all. ooh and happy birthday to i-dont-know-your-name! anyway i feel so bu shuang not blogging this, so i shall. you know on the mrt when i was chionging to somerset, this ah ma she nearly fell. then a mei nv and me, we both held on to her. BUT SHE THANKED THE MEI NV AND NOT MEEEE! so biased, she very yi mao qu ren leh! next time i see you i dont hold on to you already. HMPH.

anyway went to kbox, like finally. then stupid gi told me its room sixteen. at least no, i thought i heard her said sixteen. then i told the person. then he took me to sixteen. AND THE THREE GUYS WERE DAMN SHOCKED TO SEE ME ABOUT TO ENTER THEIR ROOM! hahaha stupid gi can, so paiseh! then i told the guy, not this one. its, got alot of girls one. then he asked, oh the one with birthday one? YAAAA. so i just embarrassed myself like that, tsktsktsk. hahaha i gave jinyao a very meaningful present can! i brought the sand from sentosa all the way to cine! :DD

who were there, caroline, alina, chengxin, melwee, gi, yiwei, me, and of cos- jinyao! haha alina told me there would be fourteen, how come only half the number! then we sang sang sang. haha cos i only go there for an hour very bu hua suan, then we added another hour with extra drink! so i sang for two hours! but they got to sing for four hours! i wanna go again! i realise we kbox session is always with four six. lol! anyway i went to wash away the sand in the midst of kboxing. haha gi wore her "long gou" top! xD my first song was qing ge, but stupid melwee complained that i cmi then she'd rather sang alone! waaah so demoralising, i sing with you its your honour luh! haha so in the end chengxin did a better job! then sang until more than twenty minutes pass the time we were supposed to stop. haha aska's songs very nice leh! haha yay i knew most of the songs we sang! then kept ba-ing the mike(: then we left, yi yi bu she! :DD

after that went to take neos! lol there we saw liqin, pH, hanjing and i-dont-know-your-name! then we took neos lo, haha i think this set of neos quite nice leh! haha i cant remember who, but someone from msp, on our trip to negri sembilan she said something like, meiling although you are not very pretty, but you very photogenic eh! hahaha i didnt know whether to laugh or to cry. is it a compliment! lol. but anyway, the neos turned out real good. and gi, melwee and i got to take more cos we paid twice! heh:S

then gi, melwee, jinyao and yiwei took mrt with me. haha damn crap la, our conversation all cmi! eh, they always suan me can, even yiwei! >< waah yiwei you biao li bu yi! oh ya anyway i wanna kick joy! she copied my phy ass and promised she will go for today's celebration, but she didnt! tmr i shall kick you! but then, throughout the ride it was really quite entertaining la, esp jinyao! hahaha damn funny. so melwee and i got down at woodlands . then ion the way went to shop n save to buy sunshine bread and nuggets. oh ya, the black wrist thing jinyao put on my hand was supposedly cursed, according to jinyao. so i threw it away!

on the whole, today was quite a fun day! yayy i didnt waste my labour day holiday. but i shall go practise piano for a couple of hours now! then later must do ih sia and chem sia! ooohh, goodbye!

2008-04-30T21:46:00.002+08:00

hello. i didnt go to school today. i think staying at home makes me feel alot better. actually these few days hasnt been that good, i hope it gets better tmr. if not there goes my labour day.

today is quite okay. i think i practised piano for more than two hours? or maybe even three. i dont know. but yeah, plaayed viwawa for quite long too. thenkept meeting funny pple. oh just now there was this guy. i bidded for no trump, but he kept wanting to bid for hearts! then in the end he won the bid -- five hearts! siao, and guess what? IM HIS PARTNER CAN! but its like, what i had he didnt have, what i didnt, he had! so its like i kept putting all my diamonds for him to trump. then guess what, WE WON! we had like eleven piles? whoa, super cool eh! but sad i wasnt able to continue playing cos my com just laaaagged.

and then another one after me dinner. surprisingly i had one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten diamonds! i had ACE, Q, J, 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4 i think! then i called K la, duh! and we totally thrashed them! damn cool right! :DDD fine, i know i shouldnt be playing this! but i was really very happy(:

oh ya, tmr how! i dont know if i should go for the sentosa outing. but i dont wanna pangseh jayne leh. see ar, if we meet at 9.15 then reach siloso at eaaaarliest 9.30, then if i have to reach cine by 10.30, even if i go by cab the latest i have to leave sentosa at 10. so how can i go for sentosa outing and reach early for cine! oh ya, i shant blog bout cine until tmr! :DD but my trouble is.. i have to choose either one, or sacrifice both partially. so i chose the second one. here's my plan. go for sentosa as usual, leave early, reach late for cine. but it will be like reeeal late. i dont know la, but this seems like the best plan so far. we shall see.

i hope someone will make my day tmr. its kinda dumb recently cos you have to be oh-so-high when you are not. but im really quite fortunate cos there are pple expressing their concern for me. although its bout the same pple, but good enough! come on meiling, out of the emo shell! two hours to may day! *cough*jinyao!*cough*

2008-04-29T10:39:00.003+08:00

EDITED AGAIN, cos mr L talked to me bout this entry. okay from now on i shall refrain from using teachers's names. anyway i dont see what's wrong with this post leh, i didnt mention the culprit's name what. anyway, a few pple were damn amused at the post so i shant delete everything. eh, sorry but i shall put in effort in making this post sound nice. but well, how can it when what the crab did was unpleasant? anyway mr L didnt figure out who crabby is so i guess its alright leaving her as the anonymous black-peppered crab.

edit edit edit:
i deleted my previous post cos i think i was rather mean. but i still wanna blog bout it cos my anger hasnt subside. anyway this is the edited one where im sitting comfortably at home instead of ranting my head off in school during recess. i think i should first apologise to the pple whom i kinda flared at today. like during recess alina asked me stuffs then i just replied her impatiently. sorry! then when i changed into hongzi i intentionally chose the further toilet but gi and jinyao were there. i didnt bother to smile at them or what, sorry! i dont know what happened to me today, normally such things happen i also dont have this kind of reaction leh, not so fan gan. but then.. okay la maybe its pms. i really hate it when i cant control my emotions:/
ya so what happened today? let me enlighten you. pe was cancelled today, so we went to canteen for "class breakfast". then caroline and i were talking bout i dont know what, then jiu shun bian place our legs on the bench. not like its the whole bench, just edge of it. like, daaamn edge. to be honest with you, i dont find this uncommon. like, its natural ma. who will sit cross-legged like some sibei gu niang on a bench! ya, so guess what! this freaking crab came and scolded us, and told us to go get tissue paper and wipe the benches. (ya, in case you are wondering why is it crab, you can refer to little mermaid. do you recall a crab whose name starts with an S.) damn right, she's that ass. so caroline and i happily went to the toilet and get toilet paper to wipe the benches. oh my, hold on, i realise the previous sentence doesnt make sense at all. ya, as if wiping benches is a common thing to do. and this piece of crap, i mean crab, went to tell the whole world, then like the class knows. and she still not buay song, must go complain to mr K. i really wonder how she said it. is it like "mr K, your students sat like ah lians" or is it "mr K, your darn students dirtied the benches with their shoes". ohhhhh, maybe she owns the benches? or maybe.. the school puts her in charge of the benches? oh ya, how can i be so inconsiderate and blame her. maybe she is just in love with the benches to such an extent that she wants us to do such a ridiculous thing like CLEANING THE BENCHES. wah piang, thanks can! you just made my dayy. so this freaking piece of crap complained to mr K, and mr K confronted us and lectured us for this shitty reason. i wonder if she informed kuo that she told us to the a ridiculous thing like going to the toilet to get toilet paper to CLEAN THE BENCHES. i dont swear, but i promise you the next time i see you i will push you down the stairs or kick you ass or flatten your head. i was, AM freaking mad at this damn black-peppered crab. oh, i really mean black and peppered. look at her face and you will know why. i dont give a shit bout how teachers will confront me in case they read my blog. whatever la, i zao already.

2008-04-28T21:15:00.002+08:00

hohoho! i just rpactised piano for at least three hours! you know what i cant stand most? being challenged! then i just wanna stand up for myself. cos ytd piano lesson teacher was saying that dajie improved. then she didnt scold me cos she said dajie used to piano so much i didnt have time to practise. she was quite nice ytd. then moomy also didnt scold me. it felt kinda weird when all you paly is sucky then no one wants to scold you. heh, but im self-motivated! i must must must pass grade eight! since i hadnt failed before why should i fail my final grade! :DD

anywayy, this thursday how how! holidays always like that. when im free then totally dont have anything on. when im not free, i have so many things i wanna go! haiya, actually not alot la heh. first, got team sleepover on wed night which will probably be till thurs. then got sentosa outing, got lunch date with aunty pw. then got movie date! waaah. i dont know which one to go! but moomy doesnt allow me to go for sleepover:( then if go for sentosa have to leave halfway. ten lunch date prooobably cannot go. haiya, actually the confirm one im going is movie date. cos its speeecial:DD so i dont really know how. haiya, chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi, ship will auto go straight when it reaches the bridge. lalala, i shall go do chem now!

2008-04-23T23:01:00.002+08:00

yayee i finished my math written assignment:DDD
but havent studied for chem quiz yet! sigh, wo yao zzz le!
anyway, today was pretty ok. the badminton session today was more crowded cos we had six pple! hahaha we broke our record today(: so chenyi, rachel, jinyao, gi, gwen and i went to play badminton today! then i chiong back to school for third lang. ehhh i dont always pon third lang kay! why hardly anyone believes me when i say this:S but this sat was supposed to have some exchange activity with hongkah. i dont think im going, cos its in the morning till noon. haha oh well kayu was very excited bout the free food! lol:D anyway i really like our weekly badminton sessions. regardless of whether its only rachel, chenyi and me only, or as many as the six of us today, i think its suuuper fun! haha cos while playing everyone will be making stupid comments, or suanning whoever. haha or is it only me suanning gi? :D haiya gi ar, you scold me lesser i bully you lesser la. like that then fair ma(:

2008-04-21T17:34:00.003+08:00

harrrrlo, ni hao(:

today is okaaaay. not like super happy or super sian. uh, at least alot better than last week's lessons. i think i hadnt been blogging for one two three four five days! haha i dont know, i lost count. have been rather busy lately! like, reeeal busy. i dont know what im busy with either. definitely not JUST schoolwork. cos i still owe loaaads of hw! but then, i hadnt been touching com. and i hadnt been watching teevee alooot. so what am busy with? I DONT KNOW:/

i have alot to blog bout last week. like, really interesting week! not say lessons la, but like after school activities more exciting. im not saying this is good, maybe its not, cos i could have make better use of the time. but i can have a week to destress myself right! haha, so tada! so on the whole, i hadnt been reaching home early. monday-seven plus; tuesday-eleven plus; wednesday-eight plus; thursday-nine plus; friday-ten plus. heh, its like increasing, decreasing, increasing!

monday-third lang. tuesday-thomas' birthday. wednesday-badminton, kap. thursday-trng, shopping for rachel's birthday present. friday-crashing of rachel's house cos its her birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RACHEL! haha or belated, rather! ooh let me blog a few words in honour of RACHEL KOH. haha firstly rachel is my meimei! cos my sis also called rachel! :DD haha that's not the points. so on 18th april, we didnt give rachel presents, or bought her a fancy cake in school. its kinda pathetic, really. cos during recess, she just had a candle stuck on a pandan cake. damn sad, i tell you. haha i suppose rachel was kinda sad wasnt she! then after cca orientation, (ooh i shall blog bout cca orientation for sec ones. it was kinda fun. had water games, got wet, played this game where you have to paste a cardboard with an action written which you cant do. eg, laugh, talk, do star jumps. then you are not supposed to do them. then my first one was "sabo people" hahaha and damn ben dan i did it! and it was willingly can! haha, how i know they have so lame ones! then i took the powder and smash on huikin's face. lol, then i got smashed in the face! haha, but it was damn nice! then food time, we sat in our batches and ate pizza. this year no more junks but pizza, muffins and cookies. quite ok huh! haha xingxuan dropped a whole box of pizza! but the sec threes ate them anyway. ooh and the rules were introduces and we chose our mortals. guess who i got!) raaaah, back to rachel's birthday!

after cca, met with chengxin, chenyi, gi, jinyao, xinyu, junning and cheryl then we left for rachel's house! hahaha on the way there it was daaaamn funny! cos rachel's mom sent her down in order for us to sneak into her house. then we scared she see us so we sneaked to her block like thieves can. haha, and on the way there we were like whispering what name to choose for this mission. i cant remember what we came up with! then we were like, we are ns-trained so cannot be caught! damn dumb, but super funny! then reached rachel's house, we sneaked in with our shoes. then halfway i saw rachel i was like, why are we sneaking around when rachel is here! haha it turned out to be rachel's sister. they look SUPER SUPER SUPER ALIKE can!! their hair, skin, SMILE! wah piang! then we hid in the room with her sis. and her brother! waaaah, damn cute! he kept talking while we were trying to keep quiet then xinyu played this party game with him. "if you talk, you lose!" haha so rachel's brother was daaaamn cute! then rachel came home, we shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and she was so shocked she burst into tears! haha rachel super cute la, like that jiu gan dong le! haha to think that she believed that that (in school) was all we had for her! of cos no la! meimei wo men bu hui kui dai ni de! haha but credits goes to chengxin! haha i want a best friend like chengxin too! one who can go to all troubles to give me a memorable surprise, i want! DD:

then we ate food. rachel's mom can cook la, hen hao chi! and we watched the wu zong xian show. lol! then rachel's mom secretly gave us jolly, a kind of mild alcohol. then tiger beer. we drank abit only la! alcoholic drinks arent good for good students like us! but i think i drank quite abit cos no one wanted. but SHHHH! then rachel's didi damn funny. ooh, he gave me his most cherished lego structure! this goes to show that he likes me alot! :DD then we had cake! and took loads of pics, played with rachel's didi, then that's bout it! oh, and rachel's dad chao nice, sent us to different mrt stations. his car was supposed to be a mini-seven seated but we squeezed eleven pple! haha! then he sent us to woodlands, jinyao, cheryl, chenyi and me! and i reached home ten plus. bathed then slept like a pig! rachel, hope that you had a really memorable birthday! xD

i need to do loads of homework. sighhh. but havent been playing viwawa for a loooong time. although we play bridge in school like everyday. heh. ooh i baked cookies ytd. who wants! :DD

2008-04-18T06:12:00.003+08:00

waaah, the bread moomy bought me for breakfast has sour mashed egg! so i threw away all the liao inside and now im left with a short and fat tube. lol, then just now i was damn shocked to see plastic inside the hole, then i came to a realisation that i used the plastic to push the liao out. hahaha, i think you need to be highly intellectual to get what i mean! xD
ytd was okaaay! i was less sleep than ytd's ytd! i think im going to make a conclusion that my average awake time in a one-hour lesson is half and hour! lol, i really feel sad for myself! hmm, but ytd's lessons werent that bad. nothing reeeeally boring. haha, ih maybe. then math also. sigh, i dont mean to be mean but i really want a change of math teacher:( if not my math this year will be so so screwd up! DD: ooh, anyway we bridge during phy ytd cos mrs chua wasnt here. then someone shouted MRS CHUA IS HERE and we all siam. like everyone was around everywhere then all chiong back to their seats. haha, but iris' clique was back like halfway during the lesson, damn funny!
after phy, school ended! then i went for trng. at first was only jenzi, ver and me. then fly came, soohan came, jocelyn, then claudia and yan. ooh i gtg now, talk bout trng later! and we are having cca orientation today! :DDD

2008-04-17T06:01:00.002+08:00

hohoho! im up early and im blogging when the sun is nowhere to be seen! haha i have nothing to do before leaving home anyway, so i might as well interact with myself. i really think blogging is like talking to yourself luh! xD
i shall blog bout YESTERDAY(: school was boring! especially when you only slept for three hours, super jialat! i think i slept throught most of the lessons. let me think, LA i didnt cos we presented the julius caesar thing. lol, i think i just made a fool out of myself! then after LA is bio, i was dozing off and lss had to tell me to pay attention. then after recess is chinese, i just kept talking rubbish to jem and chenyi for the whole lesson! waah, theuy power luh, bully me together can! lol, then its math i think. damn sian. before she started on lessons i was like damn awake. then she started on new topic so my head started to orbit round and round. chang saw me dozing off, but she didnt say anything. i think its cos everyone was doing that! lol, damn lame, rachel and chengxin were observing us sleep. lol then they kept laughing at me! o.O and after lunch, physics. wah that one i totally cannot make it. i was wide-eyed for the first half an hour. then after that each second passed like an hour. damn sloooow! but i made it in the end. although i did a really silly thing. you know, like when you sleep your neck just losen then your head falls behind? ya, mine did, reeeal hard! then i was so paiseh i just hit chenyi super hard. and she was sleeping too, so she got real shocked! hahaha, i shocked her out of her sleep:/ so malu!
after school, went to play badminton with chenyi, rachel, joanna and jinyao at bukit timah cc! at first only rachel and chenyi and me, so i asked gwen. then suddenly jinyao and joanna popped out. but gwen couldnt come in the end cos of math remedial:( i think our weekly badminton quite cheng gong uh, although the only constant ones are rachel, chenyi and me! lol, but it was damn fun! ytd kept suanning joanna! lol, then jinyao kept suanning chenyi! ooh, we were quite malu at first cos next to us were the pros. like, big, tall, muscular and PRO. hahaha!
then after that went to kap. i saw shanice! she looked very cute cos she tied her hair. i think! ooh, then chenyi and jinyao joined us later. they went back to school to put the rackets and get jinyao's bag. after eating, we went home! took 962 with chenyi and jinyao. waaaah, jinyao damn funny! :DDDD aiyo, 6.20 already, gtg to school! BYEEE(:

2008-04-16T03:36:00.003+08:00

oheyyo(: im up so freaking early just to do LA presentation for julius caesar. well apparently no one wanted to do i guess, so the job is mine. ya, so its up to me and me alone:/
AHH, recently im in a bad mood. ytd at school wasnt that glad bout everything. then certain pple just made matters worse. like, you dont like me you jiu say what, dont have to do all these disgusting stuffs. its not like i can help it but im super sensitive to this kinda stuffs, so what you're thinking i just know. i dont know la. a friendship burdened by reponsibilities cant last long. if you are friends then means both are supposed to like each other aint it? aiya, im wasting my time writing bout stuffs like that. but i dont think i will speak to you bout it. i'd rather pretend everything's fine. that's what everyone is good at. so ytd i was in quite a bad mood, wasnt that bad in the morning. alina was giving me the hug she said she wanna give me. haha some pple just naturally make you feel better(: it kinda sucks when pple just think for themselves. argh, whatever la, shall spend my time doing julius caesar instead of wasting my time on this. but suprise, no one's bothering bout it at all and im happy doing these stuffs.
if wasnt for the stuffs going on after school, i would have banged my head on the wall. cos i went for cip at queestown and thomas' birthday at tanjong pagar and both really made me cheer up alot. at first, cip. it was quite okay, i got liyuen, then she damn cute la. when we walk around she will hold my hand, super ke ai! after cip i took mrt to tanjong pagar. was reeeally early so i walked around. i've never knew such a place exist, lol. then after everyone came, we left and reach at around 7.45. was supposed to meet at 7! lol, then we get to sit in this room for thirty. generally, the food was rather good! we had loads of stuffs, cant really list everything out. but i've never seen the peas before so i was rather fascinated:D then we played games, damn funny, and thomas got sabo-ed. he was quite ke lian, had to eat chilli padi with weird sauces, then got his head smashed into the cake, then had to eat this sushi-like thing with wasabi and garlic. haha, but he did it all! so it was quite impressive(: oh, then a few others also kena sprayed by the whipped cream. hahaha. then we ate until 10 or 11. then we took mrt with jasper, jireh and mingsheng until woodlands. reached home at around 12, was feeling quite tired then didnt wanna do LA, so borrowed dajie's laptop and here it is. sigh, have to do LA now. i think i shouldnt mind so much whether im doing the work or some pple just totally bo chup or not right. oh well, pettiness is not my style. i have a bigggggg heart:DD so fine, i'll just have to accept it, aint it?

2008-04-14T21:44:00.003+08:00

i shall blog one post before my sis use the com. urgh, i wanted to do so many things after school i dont think i accomplished much. okay, school aside, i dont wanna talk bout school! lol, after school! lol, chengxin chenyi got LA remedial, i dont know if i should go since i was free! but chengxin desperately wanted me to go HOR! xD but in the end, went to coro with rachel and jinyao cos bel and chenyi wanted fries. then chengxin wanted sushi. before that had to wait for jinyao, like snail can! haha, then meanwhile iris was providing us with free entertainment. wah piang, you should see how she shake her skirt, iris you damn mei you xing xiang can! then after fooling around with them, we went to coro! lol, then like typical mondays, we went to coro and shopped like aunties, for food! tsktsktsk. i think go out with rachel and jinyao damn funny!
then upon reaching school, we sat there and have picnic. according to kayu according to deborah. lol, then five or six of us, we played bridge. after that had to chiong for third lang. it was rather ok. cikgu was very nice to me today, she called me mei mei. lol! then after that cos i have no free shun feng che to take, i went back to class. then the gamblers were still there! they opened casino luh! lol:DD then played for awhile and crossed the bridge with jinyao, rachel and chengxin!
HAHAHA jinyao was being damn retarded wearing chengxin's jacket. i laughed dao wanna faint already can. she's damn funny! xDD then went home with jinyao! haha we took 170 then changed bus at ten mile junction. lol, jinyao tell stories super entertaining! hahaha then we talked bout serious stuffs too! then home!
okay, what i wanted to do when i reach home: piano, chem sia, homework! i think im quite guai already can, i dont owe homework! hehehe! tmr kuo wanna change our seating arrangement. but i really improved alot this year la(: okay, maybe not the results, but look at the process! many pple said i bian guai alreadyy:DD anyway, when i got home i was quite touched. cos chenyi knew bout my incident, then she smsed me, "meiling have you gotten home. is ur dad at home? everything okay?" haha, i was rather surprised to receive it, thank you chenyi! then online, i think alina read my blog, she said,
"HELLO MEILING CHEERUP OKAYYYYYYY (:
everything will be okay in the end! (:
so don't worry too much about things that have happened :(
hahaha TMR I WILL HUG YOU OKAY
HUG HUG HUG HUG HUG (:"
lol, i was really very gan dong that alina approached me on her own. thank you alina! *HUGGG* i think im kinda useless, cos i get really touched by simple acts of concern like these! actually in school still got a few la, like bel, she was telling me i can look for her whenever i have problems((: haha, at least there are pple who care bout meee(:
anyway, i hope my dad's blood level can get to normal. hmm, i think my heart softens very easily but my pride just wanna let my mouth harden. so in the end i cant make situations better. oh well, like father like daughter. our pride is deadly. i hope situations improve and we can all get back to the past.

2008-04-13T20:56:00.005+08:00

today must have been the most memorable day of my life, or historical rather? hooray, cos my dad slapped me. this is the first time someone laid his hand on me and yes, im trying to be jovial bout it. fine, here goes the story.
had piano lesson today. i think my scales improved, although my pieces is still a mess. not that no one realised i improved, at least my teacher told my mom i improved. but moomy was lecturing dajie. she diam diam, but i kan bu xia qu so i just cha zui luh. it was on the car btw. then upon reaching home, my mom talked to me bout my cha zui-ing. then fine la, i promised not to speak at inappropriate times again. then daddy came and he wanted to speak to dajie. but i was telling him dont need la, since i dont see how he can make dajie feel better. then i forgot what he said but he was getting rather fierce, and stupidly i just blurted out his eq low. and he rushed over to me, grabbed my head and gave me a slap. piack, there goes my cheek. a slap hurts more coming from the one you love. but then, i didnt retaliate cos i was totally shocked dio. i thought he went crazy. then he started informing me that he is the one paying for everything i own. to be honest, i was damn scared. and i mean reeeeally shocked out of my wits. cos i've never seen my dad like that before. although im not close to him like how im close to my mom, it was really really, i dont know, unusual? but i think the only thing i did was just watch him with my mouth hanging. then he said that sentence, i guess its it which kinda pierced through my heart, or rang the alarm in my mind. he said, "who do you think you are? who do you think you are to say this?" oh ya, btw i forgot to mention that my mom was trying to stop him all this while. i think he was just a step away from strangling me (fine dont take this seriously), and if my mom wasnt there i'd probably be dead by now. then a series of things happened, i cant remember what. but i went to my room and cried my heart out. or more practically, i think i cried my eyeballs out. hmm, for two hours plus i think. at first i really wanted to find someone to talk to, i thought of the pple i know. then i really couldnt find anyone whom i can cry to. its kinda, not good for the reputation:/ so i just cried to myself and wet my pillow. then i kinda reflected on myself. i was rather sorry i said that to him. if you love someone dearly, you wouldnt try to hurt him right. but then, if you cant even be frank with your family and have to piece your words nicely before talking to your own family, then i think this world is quite pathetic. fine, maybe im the only being who's pathetic. the scene which my dad slapped me kept replaying in my mind, then i just cant help but cry my eyes out. so ya, congrats now i have super swollen eyes and i can hardly see. i think my eyes are even smaller than jenzi's! hmm, so im not sure if i want to go to school tmr. ya, cos crying consecutively for two hours just made my flu worse, and i have terrible headache and my heart is still in the process of being mended. i've never been the kind of person who can handle personal affairs without interfering work. if im not in the mood, i dont see the use of going to school and making everyone else around me feel horrible. anyway after the two hours, except for the swollen eyes i just talked normally to everyone else besides my dad la, duh. i think this war is gonna last at least for a month. it is wrong, i know. but i've never let my mind take over my pride. and like, red streaks across my cheeks is just a horrible reminder that this whole thint took place. cos it felt so unreal, so unlikely i could have just believed i dreamt the whole thing. i'll just have to survive taking bus home for the next month. haiya, wait till im appeased then see what to do la. i know im mostly at fault. argh, this whole thing feels like channel 8 drama. if you happen to read this post and got rather disturbed, im sorry, cos i sound so annoying even if im sad. ya, who wouldnt be sad when your daddy give you s slap? D:
so, have you heard of a happy sunday? here it is.

2008-04-12T20:56:00.002+08:00

harlo:DD
its only 9 and im sleepy already! i was dozing off in front of the com while searching for piano scores just now:/ anyway, this morning went for hsk, some kind of chinese exam. i was really hesitating whether to go not. and my dad was really reluctant to let me go for hsk. but still, i went. kinda regretted, cos it was really a pointless thing. like, the papers arent even close to hard. and i spent quite a long time sleeping during the paper. i was really scared my coughing fits will start and i will disturb the rest so i bought extra lozenges with me:D im also not sure why, when im sick i will just cough non-stop whenever the air is dirty or cold. weird. then after lunch chenyi and i cabbed to novena, dropped her off the mrt and i went for thomson-balestian combined. quite nice la, was super funny. then stayed till five plus i think, but they drove home already so we had to take mrt:/ the journey felt long, but i was kinda semi-conscious so it wasnt thaaat bad. oh well, piano lesson tmr! DD:
hahaha i shall blog bout spark camp which took place quite looong ago. but my memory aint that good, so i'll probably end up missing out loaads of stuffs. first, reached there really quite late. i mean like really late cos we were like one of the last few. then after some briefing and other stuffs, we took a bus to kent ridge park. it was quite a long ride, but we still had to walk past bridges, hills, mountains and clouds to reach our destination. lol fine im exaggerating. i cant remember what we did there, but i know we had loads of activities. hmm, first we got to know our family groups. i was in aRRRmy, with pple like shanice, frances, hongqi, linus, joel and timothy! then we had some songs, and i think we moved on to activities. we had this photo scavenger thing, then have to form human pyramid. our group was quite fast! no, i think we were speedy, lightning speed! :Dthen played this catching game. hmm, the one mr goh taught us during trng. hmm, what is it called, interlocking game? lol, i dont know! lalala, somewhere in the middle we had lunch. and speech by mingsheng. then after like loaads of stuffs, it started raining. so we kia kia kia to the top and lalala we were on the bus back to homeground.
after that we had this water activity thing, which was rather fun. like, captains ball but you have to throw water bombs throught the hoop. so both groups bao-ed their hoops with loads and loads of newspapers and scotchtapes. haha, it was kinda impossible to throw through! but somehow, our group lost, aww:/ then we had to sit in the middle of nowhere like prisoners and wait for water to be splashed at us. lol. ooh, then all of us were supposed to have our pictures taken from above. so we were all staring up, smiling i guess but good thing not with our mouths wide opened. cos after some time, pails and buckets of water came pouring down at us! lol, super funny:D then blah blah, bathed, dinner. i really cant remember. then at night we had quite a few activities too. and soem activity by linus i think. hmm, quite fun. then no trustwalk, but we had this chain thing where we have to say what we like and repeat all those before you. then some very funy la, gave super long stuffs. lol. then after eveeerything, sleep!
the next day, bathed, breakfast. then speech by mr fam i think. so, ya. i really cant remember what happened. then after everthing we had the game, see whose structure tallest and stable-st. lol, we won! xD then.. grah, my mind is turning into a white piece of paper. blankkk:/ haiya, then lalala, after dinner. we watched a few youtube funny videos. lol saw the one on the nus professor? or is it ntu. lol, the first time i saw was damn funny, but that time wasnt that funny uh. but the indian one was super funny. then mr bean, lol. then we had activities at night. then candlelight thing we went to the high level. the qi fen was rather nice. then we shared. i think mine was pretty pointless, but oh well. then we left. so ya, overall it was quite nice. and the theme song, damn nice. although i didnt study for the test at all during spark camp, i didnt really do thaaaat bad. except, perhaps failing physics. haha, no it wasnt meant to be sarcastic, i mean, i rarely pass physics! :O okaye, dont say i didnt blog bout spark camp! :DD
anyway, a few pple in class asked me bout certain things. then i didnt really wanna say, but they really wanted to know. only gi she was like saying "since meiling doesnt wanna say then so be it la", which was quite nice. cos sometimes pple will have things they just talk about briefly and dont wanna go into details ma. i think that, if the time is right, i will just tell la. but dont worry la, its nothing scaaaandalous(:
oh, PIAAANO LESSON! x((

2008-04-11T15:15:00.001+08:00

方大同-爱在
买了菜她跟他慢慢的炒着菜
他为她赶回家走得快
爱无处不在可是呼之却不来
小阳台她拿走死掉的小盆栽
他对着啤酒杯等下载
爱无处不在可是到处有悲哀

爱在大街上小路上每个人海
谁却爱在小岛上不愿离开
难道爱在不该爱的时候才爱
就算百步以外总有爱在爱在

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
你爱在清早打谁的领带
我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
不能明白只能够期待
爱无处不在

那是爱到头来也发现这是爱
流泪的微笑的都是爱
管它好与坏总是呼之却不来
雪花白永远都渴望看桃花开
梁山伯辜负了祝英台
在何年何代总是到处有悲哀

爱在阳光下烛光下每点尘埃
谁却爱在黑暗里不愿离开
难道爱在不该爱的时候才爱
就算百步以外总有爱在爱在

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
你爱在清早打谁的领带
我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
不能明白只能够期待
爱无处不在

从来微风都靠树枝摇摆
从来种子都靠春泥破开
所有人世间的美好都存在
就算看不到都依然存在
在意料之外
我的女孩你快走过来
爱在期待(爱在爱在)
我们无处不在爱

我爱在黄昏看谁的刘海
你爱在清早打谁的领带
我们都要爱偏偏无法同在
不能明白只能够期待

我爱在楼下找谁的门牌
你爱在途上靠谁的胸怀
我们都要爱偏偏分开无奈
不能明白只能够期待
爱无处不在

heyy(: didnt go to school today. a sick patient is supposed to be tucked nicely in bed and sleep until she recovers. but this whole morning i was kept rather busy. i think i did rather meaningful stuffs besides sleeping till 9am. i did some homework, washed the clothes, vacuumed and cleaned the house, practised the piano for quite long, sent my sis fgor tuition. so unlike normal mc-ed days, i was rather useful today(:
haha gi was very nice she sms-ed me today to ask me if i was better. yayaya im better than ytd! cos last night moomy bought a bottle of really really really bitter medicine-tea for me! my sisters are sick too, but its quite unfair cos they get to share a bottle but i have to finish everything myself! D: but moomy said its cos theirs are milder than mine. ohman, the taste is reeeeeeally very bitter can! then it lingered in my mouth for so long but moomy forbid me to drink water. i wonder what logic is that that after taking medicine you cant drink water. sigh i knew moomy would be guarding the water source so i just went to do my own stuffs. ooh, there's hsk tmr i dont waaaant:(( then piano lesson on sunday! D:
i dont know why recently i have been rather self-reflective. its either i dont have much days left or im too stressed or i have nothing better to do. thought bout loads of stuffs, maybe not that optimistic. i think if i am not me i'd probably dislike me alot. i wonder if there are pple who dislike me. lol there must be. the other day, bel was telling me she was talking to i dont know who then they discussed bout the pple in our class. so being extremely curious, i asked her what they said bout me. then bel said i dont have anything bad to talk bout, so all's rather positive. the same answer when i asked chenyi. she was talking to jinyao bout our class, then i asked her what bout me. she also replied that im just very funny, nothing bad to talk bout. i think its either they are too nice to me or they dont know me well enough or im too good an actress. ha, jk la. but i think there's this dark side of me which aint that obvious, but i have so many so many bad points which im trying to get rid of. or maybe some i dont even know. cos like brutus said, "for the eye sees not itself, but by reflection, by some other things".
i think humans are really dangerous. i know i said this before, but i keep having my point proven again and again i just have to agree even more. i wonder if im the only one who felt this way, but there are some pple whom you feel like, they are more than friends. maybe the portion between "normal friends" and "best friends". like, what they say or do to you, makes you feel this way. not just the normal hi-bye friends. but then, they may not find you in that portion. maybe you are just in the "normal friends" portion. i wonder if im making sense, but when you realise you are just a normal friend, you find it hard to trust in anyone like that again. this topic feels familiar, i think i talked bout it before. i dont know, you will probably end up finding it hard to treat someone as your good friend, no matter how high regards they have for you.
in the past, if you ask me whether true friends exist, without hestitation i will say yes. but now, im really not sure. is it possible that there's someone out there who is willing to always stay by you and never give you up? just for you, she can give up what she owns, or what she can own, in her utmost best? recently, i kinda witnessed something related to this. this pair of good friends, whose friendship i constantly look up to ever since i started to have friends-related issues. i thought it was really impressive that such friendship exist. but then, however strong is the 'ship, after long, enduring hardship and obstacles, it will still collapse. maybe not really collapse, but there are bound to be injuries. so, it seems kinda hard to believe there are true friends. not that im saying there's none, but if there is, reeeal rare aint it:/
ahh, im not being emo! its just that, like i said, truth usually doesnt sound pleasant. and nice things said never last but hurting words lingers. ask me if i prefer truth or pleasant words, i'd go for the latter one. at least for now. wait till im stronger i will want the truth. kinda a vicious cycle aint it? i hurt you, she hurt me, blah blah blah. and it goes round and round.

让你逃亡又让你回航
让你依赖我也让你倔强
只要你微笑带一点感动的泪光
我就得到可以再给的力量

我让你飞翔又让你说谎
我让你苛求我也让你奢望
我还以为爱就是要体贴的退让
我们一起盖的罗马你却跟他拆了城墙
踩过我用挚爱建筑的天堂

this song is nice, i think the lyrics is meaningful.

2008-04-10T17:55:00.003+08:00

hello, today is quite a sad day. probably cos im sick. my mom's gonna get mc for me tmr i guess. school is quite sian, shant talk bout school. but oh well, happy birthday eileen! (: i think cos im not feeling well, then felt kinda shitty so i wasnt in a very good mood. ya but then, a few pple managed to make me high today(:
after school, was on the same bus with qh. then saw ver. had quite an unexpected talk. actually i never dreamt i was gonna talk to her bout this kinda stuffs. haha, i dont know. i think what she said make sense. truth, is usually not pleasing to the ear. i guess i have to agree. honestly, it was kinda awkward. she said said said, then i didnt know how to reply. then i thought thought thought. well, i dont know. i think when it comes to topics like that i can only say i dont know, like running away from the problem. am i thankful that i can get mc for tmr or what, cos i really dont feel like seeing anyone. haha, not that im going to isolate myself or what la. but i guess i need a good rest. anyway, thanks ver for your honesty, i mean, ya, you were real frank! and i thank you in advance for keeping it confidential yea! well, i will try to put in some effort ya. it really sucks when you look back in the past and think to yourself, why didnt i do this earlier?

2008-04-08T21:37:00.002+08:00

yo:D
today surprisingly we had quite few free periods. except for bio lab and math this morning, we dont really have other lessons. tsktsk i think we really shouldnt have math before napfa. wah piang, listen to linda chang talk i really really wanna sleep can! not that im being mean, but we are taught not to lie right. anyway i think honesty is more imporatant that politeness aint it! so 2.4, hahaha i think my stamina really cannot make it. but at least i manage to maintain constant speed throughout the eight and a quarter rounds! i was really tempted to walk la, seeing so many pple walking. lol but i just had cme speech ytd talking bout JIAN REN. lol so that's why. wah piang, at first i could have sprinted all the way, but i can feel nature's call, lol so i tried to keng and finish my last round, then deborah overtook me at the last last last part:(
anyway, after 2.4 i went to shoot. forgot to get money from my mom and i didnt wanna borrow. cos apparently i owe laiweng 5, chenyi 1.6, rachel 0.5! my shots were horrible at first, then jenzi came and my shots improved. after that, my fairy godmother appeared with a cup of iced lychee! :DD hahaha thanks chengxin! not consuming water after 2.4, then you see this huge cup of drink, wont you feel the joy and pleasure! haha, then sat at the canteen for awhile and went back to class. mr jlow wasnt here so we had free period. you dont wanna know what we did la. then lunch. then chinese, laoshi wasnt here. so i finished my ying yong wen at such an amazing speed that bel and rachel were shocked. haha, actually if i concentrate i can finish one luh:DD then class contact.
after that we went for nyaa cip at queenstown. today i was in charge of serene. wasnt reeeally looking forward to it, but she's okay la. then after her, ms raja told me to take amirul. lol, he is super funny can! like, little p6 boy act ah beng, damn cute. then he kept crapping non-stop. and he taught me quite a few tricks too! i think he is quite clever uh, cos he just did all the math and english without my help. in fact, i tihnk i was slower than him! lol, then after the session, chenyi and i went to peep at the kindergarden downstairs. ahhh, the kids looked damn cute! so chubby! i took a few pictures! lol, this little guy saw me taking pictures then he grinned and covered his face with his hands! haha, i like going there(:
oh well, nothing much to blog bout. i think each week is passing really quickly. i suppose its good? hmm, in case i forget what's coming up. this thurs, train sec one. next fri orientation. or is it next next fri? argh, i only know its rachel's birthday la. lol. hey rachel i want you to be my mei mei! xDD

2008-04-07T21:32:00.002+08:00

吴克群 - 牵牵牵手

我的话不多不会讨好
一句我爱你都说不好
全世界想救都没解药
只有你给我微笑

该怎么去爱我没学好
太多的招式我没记牢
原来牵了手就会知道
爱情不需要套招
这招只有你知道

牵牵牵牵手一直走到最后
我们开心的梦游
牵牵牵牵手永远十指紧扣
我相信我会永远在你左右

2008-04-07T21:13:00.002+08:00

ni hao!
how how how i really like wu ke qun's qian qian qian shou! :D
ooh, deeear isnt in school today, wont be in school for tmr too! gi must get well soon yeah! i wonder if it is xin you ling xi cos im starting to get sore throat. i know just when it started but it really sucks cos you cant do anything bout it:(( ytd i was sitting in front of the com drinking ginger soup. then i feel my throat starting to hurt and i knew it! sore throat:((
tmr is 2.4 already, but i feel damn slack. oh well. i wonder how it will be like, cos gi has always been my motivation. lol now im all alone! lalala just kidding la. hmm talk bout today. morning was in school early, then played bridge and daidee. then.. damn sian can. first, LA mr jlow wasnt here. sigh, so we did compre. then cme, got speech. wah piang, everyone did on jian ren (determination)! lol wo men xin you ling xi can:D haha jenzi and chenyi said my speech was quite good. but oh well, i dont know i think as i grow older i get more stage fright. haha like on sat my hands were totally trembling while holding on the mike can. then just now i can feel my paper vibrating. lol, jialat la!
then after cme, math. lol sian! at least i didnt fall asleep just now. cos i was doing LA. ahh, i dont wanna fall asleep during math lesson leh:( then lunch, i tried to restrain from food that will hurt my throat, cos i was really sorethroatish. then we went to shoot. hahaha havent shot for yeears. oh well, i dont really feel like shooting without my ball. do you think anyone will get me a new ball? hahaha but then, i really dont think anyone even know my ball is missing. although im not like going to continue with netball after this year, but i wanna keep a netball as souvenir:( sigh, away from this sad topic. i really aint very hopeful bout this. i think it really sucks when someone else loses something you treasure pretty much, then you cant do anything bout it. what you want me to do, go ball-hunting? or finding fault with whoever lost my ball?
oh well, i dont know. if there's really anyone who will spend twenty eight bucks doing this for someone else. honestly i really cant think of anyone who will do this. haha i think in my whole life, the only person who got me what i wanted was gi! cos i was hinting to her i want that thing at watson, then she took so long to figure out. but she got it for me in the end! lol anyway even if i say i want my netball back, who'd bother! D:
fine, switch topic! after lunch was phy and bio. phy lab ok la. bio we watched video but i was asleep for most of the time. ehhh, i really didnt do this on purpose! i tried to keep my eyes open, but there werent any toothpicks or ropes to pull my hair to keep me awake! i dont think lss realised, did she! after school we went to coro. bought loads of stuffs, like auntie can! then i chiong back to school for third lang project. lol, then off to third lang! actually i quite like third lang lessons, cos the pple are damn funny la! pls, esp kayu, can die laughing luh! hahaha deborah also, today super high. then she made lots of male comments! haha, then cikgu was talking bout the word "nilai". lol i was damn amused i started playing with the words "nilai, nilai" (chinese: you come you come) hahaha then cikgu said i confirm get full marks for oral if i say it like that during oral! lol damn funny!
after third lang, while waiting for my dad, was crapping with kayu and mia. then reach home zhi hou, slacked then went to republic poly's park. lol i shall end here!

2008-04-05T23:08:00.002+08:00

hello hello(:
lots of things happened since i last blogged. but im real lazy to list out everything. and im kinda lazy to know when my last post was. so just a brief post okay! :D anyway part of the reason why im lazy is cos of all those muscle aches! wah piang, i have muscle aches all over my body can:/ from top to bottom, around the shoulders, arms, abs, back, da tui and xiao tui. lol damn jialat i tell you. i dont even feel like walking around. i just wanna lie on my bed. and do my homework! yesss i've got loaaads of homework to do. i dont even feel like listing them out. argh.
but however busy we may be, there must be a time for us to relax aint it! so since our piano lesson is cancelled tmr, we may may may be going to east coast park tmr to cycle! hooray! hahaha but i dont think the teachers will be pleased to know that im going to relax on a beautiful sunday! lol do you know teachers read our blogs! hahaha ever since i knew, i've been holding back certain stuffs. cos you dont want teachers to know bout certain things eh! lol i promise im gonna burn up all my midnight oil and do my hw. hahaha can i say math is the tyranny of all my homework! grah.
hahaha today met up with gi, and jenzi for phy sia and plus bel for la presentation. hahaha i dont think our meeting was very fruitful but oh well! lol after that we wanted to take neos, lol i have no idea why gi suddenly xin shui lai chao. oh ya, btw i called my mom and gi spoke to her, hahaha. anyway yupp we walk walk walked, then i was talking to gi bout somewhere then suddenly i turned around, i was half a cm from a guy's chest. damn embarrassing can! but the worse thing was, his girlfriend TOTALLY glared at me can! hahaha gi saw. her glare can kill hor! :S then we went to look at some sports stuffs and home!
hahaha the previous week. hasnt been doing much la. study, piano, third lang, napfa. lol what else. i think i have no life man! but i kinda like saturdays though! at least not that jialat hor! (: tuesday 2.4! hahaha i cant wait to get it over and done with! i look forward to our weekly badminton at bkt timah cc too! lol:DD ya that's all i look forward to la. then lessons wise, sciences okay la. math is totally cham can, i hate to say this but i dont prefer the current teacher. not that she isnt nice, well maybe she isnt, but her lessons seriously cmi la. when she start speaking its like cui mian qu luh, i just have this tendency to sleep. i've always liked math la, but here goes my first time sleeping during math lesson. sian:( how come my math teachers seem to be getting more and more not as good. like ycy, tkc, ggg, then lc. sigh, sad man. besides math, ya pe also quite sian. this module soccer ma. sigh okay la not that bad. then.. chinese. lao shi damn funny la. i like her can. althought loads of pple kinda dislike her. but try to keep an open mind, open heart. cos she may seem like those typical china teachers who generally dont have very high eq. fine, this may be an unfair generalisation, but my point is, lao shi is really different luh. she's like always threatening us when she chases us for hw, but she's damn soft-hearted la. i think she's the most caring teacher i ever have yea! haiya, im not praising her cos she said im hao xue sheng. cos i have always been a good student ma. lol, but lao shi damn funny ya! then, lang arts. haha la quite ok la. but sometimes we're kinda.. oh well i shouldnt say anything yea(: maybe we should try to speak up more and hand in hw punctually! xD
haiya, school damn sian la. always beginning of year start of with full tank of oil. then only second term but the oil kinda used up already. hahaha, sad hor. i miss nyaa cip. lol i think the kids there are generally quite nice leh. but then hor, did i blog bout this school's students. wah piang, this bunch of girls. cannot stand them la! complain complain, then gossip gossip. if i know their school i confirm write a complaint letter to the principal already luh. grr.
haiya, nothing to blog bout la. whenever smth happened i kept reminding myself to blog bout it. but i always have nth to blog bout when im blogging. uh, ni men hao zi wei zhi ba. haha i dont mind stress la, i just wanna be happy even when im stressful. it happens doesnt it! (:

2008-03-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

hello(: i have been feeling sleepy for the whole day. i slept in the car, slept during chinese, slept during ih, slept during physics. i was really tuned to the subconscious mode. lol, that was why i was saying, and we all agreed that after test its more tiring than during test. haha.
anyway, i dont feel like blogging bout how my day went today. hmm, recently certain stuffs got me thinking. many teachers when they just got to know this class, then alot of nice things were said. i can accept your this, i can tolerate your that. but as time passes, it is hard to hide their frustrations. like at the beginning you are an empty memory card. but sooner or later, it will overflow then cant store any more stuffs. oh well, i dont know why i suddenly feel like talking bout this either. i think certain teachers really regret taking our classes, lol.
then friends also like that la. in the beginning like hahaha i like you alot. then after sometime, you realised that this person really disliked you at first. well, maybe she likes you now, or maybe still not. it just seems kinda hypocritic that when you dont like this person alot, you pretend like you do. really, lol. hahaha not that im getting emo, but aint it disappointing to know that even the closest ones do this.
ayeaye gotta go now. byebye! anyway just wanna say that i feel pretty motivated to study recently cos my ex-tution teacher said i have qian tu:DDDD

2008-03-27T21:58:00.003+08:00

oheyyo(:
i feel rather sleepy although its only nine plus. lol school is rather boring today. uh, morning there's chinese, ih. wah, ih super sian can. then after recess math. i dont know how im going to survive math lessons for the rest of the year. cos today's math lesson was rather hmm, dry? i dont know. maybe lc can interact more with the students. gg may not be the best teacher around, but at least i dont feel sleepy during his classes. actually i hardly fall asleep during math. cos math is pretty nice. but today, sigh!

then LA. we watched a little clip of little rascals. hahaha damn funny! the little guy and girl super cute! "friends, roman and countrymen, lend me your ears!" haha i love that little guy can, so chubby! then after LA i was supposed to look for cikgu, but she wasnt there. so after lunch we left for kallang netball centre. missed chem but kuo didnt give back chem tests. so, ya. should be tmr. hmm, it wasnt really a fruitful trip to kallang, cos it started raining after the first quarter of the first matches and nanyang hadnt got to play. so postponed to this sat. but not really not fruitful. cos we decided to have this sports day then we can play badminton, tennis, cycling, swimming. hahaha, oh well!

anyway gi, rachel and i are going to have a badminton day weekly! heehee. gtg now. byebye!

2008-03-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

yayyy block tests are over like finallyyyyyy:DD hahaha hooray! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY! we just celebrated mummy's birthday(: oh i went for nyaa cip today. was in charge of the twins. their family's rather interesting uh, dad malay mom chinese, then they have 4 other siblings. haha oh and their mama's birthday on tmr! one day after mummy's(: oh well, i was rather "reflective" just now. cos the twins were making cards for their mama, and they were super yong xin la. then i asked them if they bought presents for their mom, then they said, "no, no money ma." but then, how can money be compared to the efforts they put in for their mom! cos after making their cards, they went around asking other kids to write birthday cards too. haha actually i wrote one to her too, although i've never seen her before. i dont even know her!

anyway, what the twins did was really touching isnt it. i only shun bian bought my mom a present. although it burned quite a big hole in my wallet, but i dont think it can be compared to what the twins did. if i have my own kids, i'd rather they spend hours making cheap cards then thousands of dollars on gifts. not that i've been this unfilial throughout my life, in fact, i used to make cards ever year for my parents! but like after you enter teenage years, making cards seems kinda... childish? well, i dont know! anyway i dont think my parents treasure my kiddy cards alot. hahaha.

anyway, chem test wasnt thaaat hard. i just wanna pass la. oh i failed chinese paper one. i've never failed a chinese-related paper in my whole 16 years. oh well, i broke the record. but i dont think its good news! getting back paper 2 tmr. arghhhh:( then LA, i think im going to fail terribly! sigh, time to buck up eh!

i have been thinking bout alooot recently. especially after spark camp, i was thinking what im good at. cos when asked this question, i really couldnt answer. like, what am i good at! relaxing luh! hahaha. oh well. not that i dont learn things. besides academics, i've learnt swimming, badminton, netball, piano, third lang. but i dont think im good at any of them! actually i used to attend art classes when i was really young, but i dont think it had any effects on my. lol. then piano, i think i should practise more. and not just exam pieces, exam pieces and exam pieces. but i cant manage my time eh. aga aga i think i get home in the evening for almost everyday. then hwo to play:/ anyway practical exam is coming soon. in three months and im still half baked. not even half! then netball, i think i pretty much failed in this. havent been shooting since... i dont know, last year? ever since my ball got lost, the more i aint motivated to shoot. not that i have a need to la. anyway, i dont think anyone actually bothers bout my ball going missing. it seems to keep getting lost in other pple's hands. not like its anybody's business, i think im at fault for not taking good care of my ball. anyway i dont see a need to use another 28 bucks on a third one. but its just kinda sad aint it:((

argh, away from the upsetting topic. back to where i was. the conclusion is im not good at anything! rahh. its supposed to be a happy post cos block tests' over! lol i shall go surf the net for a while(:

2008-03-24T16:18:00.002+08:00

hello hello hello(:
i finally couldnt hold it anymore but bloggggg. have been having this urge to go online, but its block test period so must tahan! but still, chem paper tmr, the last one:D oh well, i dont think i will do well for the papers, cos i wasnt really in the study mood, was i? okay, maybe i was for a short while, but as time passed it gradually died, and studying bacame a bother:/ and so! for all the papers so far, i dont think i have any one im reeeally satisfied with. im not placing too much hope on chem either!
okay, first chinese. i didnt really have time to complete. then LA, sigh i think i practically screwed the whole thing. what have i to say bout diamond rings and marriages! then bio, sian. math, didnt finish. now you see the mess. then for phy and IH today, i was totally screwed up! phy i didnt study on kinematics at all. what i didnt study came up and what i did didnt. oh well, its only 6% isnt it!
i cant remember the last time i blogged. time just passed in a mess, or rather, i think i just wasted my time away. like after graces, i didnt really study much. than school started i also didnt pia anything. even if i did i also cant remember, cos im in a total state of halfdeadedness:( anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGCHEEE! i gave gi her birthday gift today. ytd i baked cookies for her! (although i was supposed to be studying for physics) but it was kinda destressing so not to worry yea! haha im kinda sorry to gi, cos the cookies werent very cheng gong cos i didnt bake it long enough. heh, paiseh(:
since last week, i was thinking bout it. how it feels like to treat someone so important but the person doesnt actually bother bout you. oh, jenzi and i thought what sam said was very interesting! "dont make someone your priority when you are only an option." oh well.
howeverrrr, recently i felt kinda, i dont know how to put it in words. its when you are alone, then someone stretches out her hand to hold yours. it has this warm fuzzy feeling isnt it! not that i suddenly feel emo or what, but this kinda happened to me, then it really felt warm and fuzzy! haha(:

2008-03-12T11:40:00.002+08:00

oheyyo(:
i think im pretty much adjusted to the studying mood((: i shall study hard(((:
had bio remedial today. i think its quite pointless la, since i didnt get away with much. after bio, the side gate wasnt open. wah piang, i was damn pissed at the side gate la. it sounds pretty dumb i know. lol but this mornin it was raining and i had to walk all the way from the side gate to the main gate so i was wet. aint the school supposed to be doing smth bout this! :D
anyway cos after bio the gate was still locked, we walked all the way to the main gate. and damn suay i tell you. this teacher not to be named was there. i wonder if she was really that free to be waiting to pounce on students, or had she just lost her way or smth. i dont know. normally i see her on stage i thought she is nice la, but hell NO. she was like "come, come i take picture of you" and repeatedly she held up her phone to take picture of us. ya thank you very much i know you have a camera phone, but you dont have to show us like that.or should i say, WHOA so updated, you have a camera phone, very convenient HOR! bleh. i think she is the first teacher in my entire life to make a situation this awkward, well maybe she thought it was FUN. i dont know. so she stopped us, then took loads of pictures. i wonder if i will appear in the straits times tmr! whoa, so excited, maybe we will be FAMOUS. then the title of the article will be "i caught my students in shorts" or "teacher arrested students not wearing school schoes" LOL, i think meeting her totally brightened my day can! HAHAHA. and she let the sec ones go cos they claime that their shoes are still wet that's why they didnt wear. ya lor, your school skirt also hor? but she didnt zhui jiu and let them off, and continued to pick on us. wah piang, dont you think it makes more sense to lecture the sec ones who are going to have four more years ahead, then sec fours who will be saying byebye to you in less than a year? PLEASE LA!
back to where i was. we were supposed to meet chengxin and kelly at jurong library to study. after the pleasant incident jenzi and i went to jurong library to find them. heh paiseh, they waited quite long for us to turn up to have lunch first. so i owe chengxin ice cream. kelly had a strong desire for macs so we ate at macs. i think we spent quite a long time having lunch, but it was damn funny! lol i cant remember what we said! but then kelly was amused at why i folded my fries when i eat, then they started to get interested in my fries, lol. in the end we were all waiting for chengxin to finish her drink. then we were tempted to do lots of things! chengxin said there are lots of tempting things to do- movie, kbox, iceskating, neos. hahaha then to satisfy our desire we went to take neos. cos that's the fastest entertainment!
so we went to take neos. hahaha i think our neos turned out quite pretty! esp the fan bai yan one, hahaha cos i designed one! we were supposed to look up to make our eyes look scary, but then kelly and i were quite shi bai, then chengxin's and jenzi's eyes were very cheng gong. hahaha so i coloured kelly's and my eyes white, which chengxin claimed look like fishballs. hahaha, i dont agree! okay, maybe a bit la. but then, i think im very creative luh! hmph:D while jenzi and kelly cut the neos, i went to toilet with chengxin.
after that we walked back to the library to do what we were supposed to do. study! hahaha so we studied for quite a while. i did my chem stuffs. there's nothing to blog bout studying, heh. before we left, we attempted to gossip. hahaha but its very hard for nice pple like us to gossip bout others, so we ended up just talking. ooh and we took pics! :D and off we went!
i reached woodlands earlier than i expected, actually much earlier than i expected. i was half an hour earlier, so i went to the library to borrow books! hahaha then it was quite sian so i just sian guang. then after passing the cap i went home. lol i didnt get scolded. anyway im in cold war with my dad so its okaaay(: i think my dad is pretty unreasonable sometimes. althought sometimes he is nice la, like when it comes to money matters:DDD but his eq not very high la. i dont know. oh well, then dajie came home after work, we had a taaaalk. hahaha then she gave me 3 dumplings. hehehe i realise i will always seek her when i have things to talk bout. then she will lazily give me advice, but it does help sometimes. especially when it comes to thaaaat kind of problems. hahaha oh well, i shall go off now. bye bye!:D
ps: hiro has been crying these days! haha this reminds me, of one of our topics in macs. hahaha they were saying when it rains it will be hiro's mucus. and just on the spot where i am! i dont think so luh! if hiro sees me it will be love at first sight! haha i realise hiro sounds exactly like hero! :D

2008-03-11T21:11:00.002+08:00

hello hello hello! :D
i was about to take a shower, but decided to blog first! haha im addicted to cao ge's ai ai! which is, the song playing on my blog! hehehe i think the song is damn sweet! oooohhhh anyway i shall talk bout sky of love later!!
went for chem remedial today, was late for half an hour:/ it wasnt on purpose la seriously, cos i woke up at like seven? but then normally i dont go down to wait for my bus, but i'll wait till the bus under my blk comes then i chiong to take the bus opp the road. but then today i have no idea why i didnt notice the bus, that's why i missed my bus. then had to change to 961. yeah, so it was pure unintentionally. anyway kuokuo was quite nice he didnt scold me like i thought he would. he just asked me if i would be late for my wedding then he said smth super lame. haha so it wasnt that bad!
after that we wanted to go thai noodle house for lunch, but full liao so we went to coro instead. not we full la, but tnh full. hahaha. then had lunch with jenzi, gi, chenyi, sam and kelly. after that went to catch SKY OF LOVE with chenyi, cx ( i wonder if you mind me blogging your name! ) and kelly, which is damn nice! okaay, maybe certain parts arent very relevant! haha i shall talked bout our journey there first. we took 171 to plaza sing, then it was raining damn heavily so we took a cab there. hahaha that auntie damn funny can! then we bought tickets. haha then i played viwawa at the com there! so we went to kai kai around. then we saw huang zong yao and julian hee! not that im excited bout seeing julian hee, NO! but hzy was damn nice! he is so much friendlier than jh! hahaha, i didnt mean anything(: so we took pics with them!
aiyaaaa i wanna go bathe already! okay bout the movie! sky of love was damn nice! a sweet jap romance. AND THE GUY IS SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI SHUAI! haha can i tell you throughout the movie when i saw him i could feel my heart melting!! wah piang, he's my dream guy can! i just have this thing for shuai guys. hahaha esp shuai jap guys! *faints* hahaha oh man, this is so mei you xing xiang. but let me tell you his name. hmm, his name inside the movie is HIRO (reminds me of the bang bang tang guy!) and his real name is Miura Haruma. OH MY GOOOOOOSE HE IS ONLY EIGHTEEN?!?! wah piang, same age as my sis! i didnt see wrongly did i! Birthdate: 1990-April-05 sheeeeesh WO YAO WO YAO! :DDDD check this out! http://wiki.d-addicts.com/Miura_Haruma oh myyyy im in love((((: and goodness, he's acting in GOKUSEN 3!! i wanna watch!! HOORAY, LOVE IS IN THE AIR!

2008-03-07T19:25:00.004+08:00

heyyyyo im back from graces(:
graces camp is like a leisure camp instead of a "training" camp, so there wasnt any life and death situation. except when kuo hantum-ed us la, hahaha. but i'd prefer obs anytime, cos those talks in ballroom are reeeally boring! maybe they arent THAT boring, but the lights and the atmosphere kinda made it boring and i kept falling asleep:/

well anyway let's start with career conference before graces. career conference aint that horrible, in fact, certain talks are pretty interesting! like the youth one, medicine, film production etc. hahaha the film production one was super funny! i think the speaker really can make the whole talk lively uh(: of course, there's this talk on jc life. after all these talks, the more i have no idea what i wanna do in the future!

and for graces, our class met at audi in the morning cos we were the first class to leave cos we had to help kuo carry av stuffs. damn funny, the aircon in the bus was raining. hahaha oh we were supposed to be the privileged ones, but other classes reach d' marquee before us and we had to lug the av stuffs. at first i was lugging a lot of stuffs, then i suppose i looked like some clown in distress so many offered to help me so i ended up carrying only my own stuffs. heh(: after settling down at d' marquee, we had teabreak and the even classes went off for make-up class. lol not that make up class, but that make-up class! lol, and i ended up looking like a clown:D oh, the lady in charge of our table was suuuuper pretty! i think i took pic with her but i have no idea whose cam its in! she is reeeally pretty and reeeally nice! :DD

after that, we went for lunch and off to the ballroom for emcee and hosting talk. wah piang, in less than half an hour i started dozing off. i think the speaker put in alot of effort la, and its not that i wanted to fall asleep, but it just happened! but after that, it was alot better la(: well, i guess i dont have alot to say on that.

after the talk we were off to prepare for malay extravaganza night! hahaha our room and alina's room are connected! :DD anw i had to reach d' marquee by six so i bathed first and got ready. met with soohan, piala they all and we walked to d' marquee while pple shot us weird glances. lol, then following this was a series of confusing stuffs and we were just lost la. but then, we still managed to host the guests. i think the performances were really good, werent they! except for the gamelan which was quite poor thing cos while they were performing everyone was eating so not all eyes were on them. but they were put at this slot cos they were paid, unlike zhenghua and evergreen who were our guests.

i think the two malay guys i host were quite shy. well, either they were quite shy or they didnt like us alot. hahaha. i shall pretend its the former one(: then we sent them off. after this was malay mass dance. hahaha it was quite fun! lol, kuo danced along, he was funny! chengxin and hsinfang were being spastic as usual so they were damn hilarious! i dont think i've ever enjoyed mass dance but this may be the first one:DD after this, everyone rushed around to take pictures. hahaha i was told to look for msp pple in front, so i was busy searching for them like a lost sheep, then in the midst of my hunting, i didnt notice two eight on stage and they suddenly yelled my name, which completely shocked me! hahaha i took quite awhile to recover myself, lol. so we took eighters picture, then msp picture. ahhhh i didnt take team picture with jenzi they all but she said they were shouting for me and i didnt hear:( oh well we can photoshop me inside:P i think we took four six photo, or didnt we! i cant remember:/

after that went to look for alina cos she wanted to buy toothbrush then i wanted to buy shampoo. hahaha but cheers doesnt sell yellow sunsilk! so i used gi's black sunsilk for the rest of the camp. ooh, then back at the chalet, chengxin, bel, gi and nicole zao already so rachel, alina, jenzi and i were playing cards and grumbling bout the four and stuffing ourselves with junks. hahaha. at first for bridge, alina and jenzi kept turning out to be partners and they kept winning! but rachel and i did improve alot! at first no piles, then one pile, then a few piles. hahaha! then we polished our nails with rachel's fresh-bloody nail polish. i think its pretty nice heh! after the four returned at i dont know what time, we watched jumper! i brought the dvd and they had dvd player:DDD so all of us were seated comfortably and watched jumper. it was quite nice, but i didnt stay awake for the whole thing, dozing off every now and then. then there was this once i fell asleep for half a minute and after waking up saw chengxin they all staring at me and started laughing, lol. then jenzi power la, i think she slept the most throughout the show! :DD ahh, the guy was really pretty shuai(:

we slept at one plus. hahaha, chengxin, bel and i shared and slept on the two beds, then while we laughed like crazy before we slept! cos chengxin was watching bel's ipod touch, and she started narrating this cave show. oh man, chengxin is a pig can, she narrates until damn hilarious la! her sound effect also cmi la, what "gulu gulu gulu", then bing bong here bing bong there. lol damn funny la! hahaha the next day rachel complained that we were too noisy:D

after the first night, we woke up the next morning. haha every morning bel will wake up first, but she will refuse to go brush her teeth and chase me out of bed first, lol. we went for breakfast then practised class parade. and off for indoor games! i think the games are okay leh! although a few are typical camp games. lol i went for the first two games and shoulder-carried jinfaye and charis. lol, charis damn funny la. she kept screaming whenever i moved abit! haha, there are five games, two games to do with the canvas, minefield, plates on head and balloons! hahaha quite okay la(: so our class got second for games! yayy:DDD hsinfang was saying, all those prizes for most gracious class, what confident personality, we all cmi, but we are only enthu in games. lol i think so too:DDD so we all get one oreo packet, haha.

then after lunch we went to the ballroom for elaine heng's talk, "yours graciously". she talked bout dining etiquette, how to behave, how to eat how to walk. lol i fell asleep in less than twenty minutes. i clarify again, it wasnt on purpose! heh cos i was really trying to keep awake luh. then we had this catwalk with heels thing i totally cmi. after the talk we went to cheers to get stuffs, then on the way back saw gi so i went with her to pass the cd to the teachers, then on our way back we saw rachel and nicole so we went with them to find cake. hahaha kuo saw us then nicole said we wanted to go get "nv ren de dong zi". hahaha damn funny. on our way back we saw kuo again, haha he was saying "hai jiang qu mai nv ren de dong xi..." hahaha you wont get this part la, unless you see the actual situation, funny. lol then got ready for formal dinner.

ooh, xingxuan, claudia and yan came to passed us the cca jacket! damn hao kan! :DD haha then xingxuan kept asking for the cookies we baked. then we took pictures. after bathing still have to wait for damn long cos pple were ba-ing the dian and mirror. i wonder if there wont be that much confusion if pple dont go around other dorms and the pple in the dorm have to wait for goodness knows how long. anyway jenzi and i ended up in the toilet to do our make-up, that is why we had a patch of water at the same position on our dresses. haha jenzi looked damn pretty! alot others also, too many to name. we were late so we chiong to d' marquee. this time even more weird glances. haha the hawkers were even seated nicely watching us rush there like they are watching some drama or what. hahaha. then we reached d marquee and went around taking pictures. oh ver and jocelyn were there. they looked damn pretty!! ver black, jocelyn white. haha. then jenzi and i sat at the table with another class. oh well.

class parade was.. hahaha damn nervous la! but then it was alot more comforting when you walked on the red carpet and you hear your friends shouting for you at the side. hahaha oh did i say i tripped on the stairs? haha i didnt fall la, thankfully. then the rest of the thing i cant remember much. haha i only know jenzi sat super cholor-ly throughout. hahaha. then we took pic with yingcheee! hahaha we went over to four three when they were preparing for class parade, then kayu damn funny can! she wanted to get some warmth from me cos she wa super cold, then she ended up doing stupid actions. haha it was quite funny cos she was dressed up la, lol. the games were funny! esp kuo and j.low, lol damn nice! after the whole thing we took eighters photo and i cant remember what happened after that. anyway, sorry jenzi i didnt mean to be that harsh to you. but then again, thank you cos you didnt blame me or refuse to speak to me or what, lol. ah, and thanks to gi and bel, cos they were really understanding when i wasnt in a good mood, and those little chit-chats and friendly words made me feel alot better. it takes alot of effort to make someone feel better, but just a foolish act to make others feel like shit. and whatever you do just portrays you as what kind of person you are. not that im angry or what, or maybe i was. but more of disappointment cos when you treat someone as a friend, you placed all your trust on her, but when she disappoints you, all the trust in her goes down the drain. not that you wont speak to her ever again, but she will just be an insignificant part of your life. that is surface friend. so my advice is, of course we can have fun, mess around with each other, but there has to be a limit. if you know clearly that its going to turn serious, dont be an idiot and place us in awkward situations. i hope i can find an acceptable reason behind that action, even if its completely ridiculous. but there's none.

yeah, after celebrating jenzi, melwee and hsinfang's birthdays, jenzi, chengxin and i watched good luck chuck. hahaha not suitable for demure kids like us maaaan! lol so we watched cj7 instead. lol i was pretty tired so i kept falling asleep. it didnt fell like i slept for a long time but after i opened my eyes they switched off the teevee already. so i went to the toilet and back to sleep. slept like a pig for the second night.

next morning, which is this morning, woke up earlier. wore class tee and jeans, packed our stuffs and assembled in d' marquee. after breakfast we went to practise our item. although we didnt win anything, but its quite a good job for last minute practice! then we went for talent time at d tent and performed ours. i was wearing shades and not glasses so it was alot better since i couldnt see the audience. but i was damn nervous! lol i think quite a few other classes performed well! haha its quite obvious who are the last minute ones and who arent! lol then teabreak we didnt eat i cant remember what we did. then prizes and credits. i think the teachers really put in alot of effort in making this camp a pleasant one, so credits to them.

so generally, graces camp was nice except for a few stuffs, like what happened to mr tan, and when kuo spoke to laiweng, jenzi and i during one of the lunches, cos he sounded quite sad. but it will be such a great waste if kuo decides to go for sec one night patrol instead cos he really made our camp alot better(: oh well, that's all for graces. i have to go study for theory exam which is on moooonday:((

曹格-爱爱
新郎新娘敬酒
我一定代你醉
老公老婆斗嘴
我祝你俩相对

去年我们参加朋友的喜酒
你问新娘怎么会那么美
oh baby```想不想体会那感觉

昨天我们拜访朋友的新家
你好羡慕那幸福油漆味
oh baby```只要你点头我都给

我爱你女孩我等你答案

让我给你爱爱喔愿不愿意
让我给你抱抱喔可不可以
我很确定只要看你
心跳永远都像现在那么急
让我做你北鼻吧愿不愿意
让我做你老公吧可不可以
用这首歌当成媒人
把我和你绑在一起

2008-02-29T19:54:00.002+08:00

ayeaye:DDD
term one lessons has finally ende, yay(: next monday and tuesday we're gonna have career talks then wed off to graces! i hope graces will be funfunfun:D
anyway, this week has been.. okaye ba, i dont know! of course there will be upsetting stuffs, but i guess its how you handle it. i dont think i handled it pretty well, cos i usually dont hide my displease. but then, as easily as i get upset, i get easily pacified too. hahaha, so i guess it kinda balances. hmm, i think it was wednesday when i was pretty buay song the whole day. but today was okay(: i have no idea why but the happiest time of the week seems to be third lang. hahaha i think im starting enjoy third lang, oh no. have you ever wondered why i used to pon third lang more than i attend? i dont think its cos of things which make me dont wanna go, but nothing mad me wanna go. its kinda different since.. last year i think. i have been turning up for more and more classes. i dont think it is bad, isnt it! probably cos of the pple who make third lang fun and makes me wanna go. hahaha(:
this week's nyaa cip gi didnt go cos she was sick. well, she is still sick. AHNANA GET WELL SOON KAYYY(: so only chenyi and i went. i got liyuen again. she is my favorite buddy laaa((: ooh let me tell you what happened ytd. i didnt wanna wait for 961 so i took 170, which also goes to woodland la, but instead of causeway, it goes to woodlands central road. but the bus to my house also goes there so i took 170 ytd. but bad timing cos of the JI issue then there was a loooong traffic jam there. so i walked to the bus stop and waited for my bus. seconds, minutes and even one whole hour i think! i waited for this stupid bus, but in the end some kind lady walked over to tell us not to wait in vain anymore cos the buses are turning back due to the traffic jam. so i had to take cab. and guess what! i took from WOODLANDS to WOODLANDS and its $5.70. hahaha you can imagine i mad i was at myself for not waiting patiently for 961. oh well, i learnt my lesson. i shall die die wait for 961 next time! oh btw, ytd we went to night safari. HAHAHA(:
that's all i have to say for after school activities this week. as for lessons.. i didnt fall asleep as easily as last year. but a few times i did snooze awhile, my head "orbitted" in circles and stuffs. lol, i need sleep. not that i sleep late, but i wake up too early. but if i dont, i dont see how i can finish my homework or study for quizes. ooh, did i mention this year i studied for twice as many quizes as last year. although im still failing quizes, but i guess improvement is better than nothing. i shall work harder(: i dont think its nice of me to say this but recently i get reeeally fed up with a teacher. it started off with bad impression, then dislike, then detest, and sooner or later i will pin his picture on the wall and shoot darts. i may not be a teacher's pet but i dont dislike a teacher this easily. i was telling gi, as my affection for this teacher GROWS, my dislike for that teacher INCREASES. and its such a pity cos i really like math. okay, maybe not "like". but math is like one of the few subjects i enjoy:/
i think alot of teachers get really annoyed at our class for being too passive and unresponsive. i dont disagree la, cos after loads of presentations since last year, we have already experienced it ourselves huh. but then on the other hand, i really cant imagine our class being RESPONSIVE. i dont know, i dont think its something changeable overnight. like for me, since primary school i dont volunteer to answer questions unless im being asked by the teacher la. so it should be like a habit already. oh well, i dont know. i think some of us are trying to change this already la. hahaha of cos its quite impossible for ih. hahaha. ooh this reminds me. i have to do my ih essay later. argh, that's all i have to say for lessons. think on the bright side, it could be worse(:
recently i have been rather mindful about sincerity. all of us should be able to sense it when someone isnt very sincere to us shouldnt we. be it teachers or friends, for me i think im too sensitive to each's sincerity, cos it just get very obvious but some pple still cannot sense it. i dont take it as a strength, but rather a fault. cos when someone feels insincere, i usually tend to think of not very positive side of her. i dont know. another thing is, i cant stand those who like to xuan yao in front of you. i dont think showing off is an appropriate phrase, it just doesnt feel right. i've never thought it will happen in real life, at least not to me, but some pple actually will say things like "huh, so easy why you dont know how to do." i dont know why but its like the person just want a reply like oh cos you are clever what, i beg you to teach me can? wah piang, i think being EQ-less just make the whole person intolerable. i know im such a mojojojo to carry on grumbling but i cannot stand it, cannot cannot cannot! it is too hard for me to swallow the unpleasant thought and pretend i didnt hear anything. im not the kind who will tell pple off when i get bu shuang with them. it will just make the whole situation awkward. its like, not knowing how to turn someone down when she borrows something from you. my most practical example, windbreaker. i cant stand sharing windbreaker with others, but i dont think anyone really knows. not that i mind alot la, but i just feel that its kinda weird wearing a jacket which trapped someone else's whole load of heat. kinda eeyer aint it!
oh on the issue of jackets, from last year to now i think loaaads of cca's are having cca jacket! ours are supposed to come next week, but you know what. another cca has same colour as us:((( oh well.
okaye i shall end here. sorry if i grumbled too much. sigh, is it cos the older you get, the more you grumble? i miss blogging bout super lame stuffs. oh man, i remember my last year's post on chang tsai and something mean. i dont know. haha speaking of this, i miss chang tsai. lol, actually i kinda prefer last year's life to this. haha i think i miss sitting with ahnana! she's such an entertainment please! at least for last year la, dont think it will be the same this year! lol shall go do my r&r now. BYEBYE(:

2008-02-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

hihihi:DD
this is a random post cos i suddenly feel like blogging. i've been quite fed up with myself recently. well, to be exact since school reopened. i've been fed up with myself for being fed up with pple. far too easily. not that i mean to. i dont know, maybe i do. hahaha i dont think im making sense am i! but anyway, i kinda reflect on my attitude towards others now compared to the past. hmm, take sec one for example. i didnt used to grumble or get bu shuang with pple that much! if i used to be miss little nice, then now i should be miss meanie mo. sigh, i dont know. it has been really normal having pple say that im nice, im nice. well believe it or not la. hahaha. but now, i dont think i am nice at all. think of all those mean thoughts running through my head:( perhaps this is why the chinese saying goes, jin zhu zhe chi jin mo zhe hei. used to be amused at how someone can be so "unnice", but surprise surprise. hahaha i dont know. is it really better to be nice and bullied than bully and not taken advantage of? sigh.
i think i come to have this kinda thoughts because apparently someone's words just shook me to my senses. now you see how a few words can affect someone totally. perhaps im just a wolf in a lamb's clothing. im not that simple huh. and all day i grumble bout how annoying she is, how insincere she is. so often that i hardly have time to reflect. howhowhow, am i really a wolf? DD:
oh well. maybe i can turn over a new leaf. maybe i can mind less bout others and mind myself more. who says there cant be kind wolves? :D

2008-02-24T23:36:00.002+08:00

hello hello. it has been a busy weekend for me! i really wonder why my weekends are more busy than weekdays. and weekends are supposed to be free and relaxing. tsktsk. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIWEI! :DD
no wonder i cant finish my hw. saturday i was out at 8am and home at 11pm. had piano lessons for three hours last night and four hours this morning. amazing, i know. cos theory exam is in two weeks. ooh i hope LA remedial wont be on 10th march cos i have theory exam! :DDD i can picture my march hols already. remedials, remedials and remedials. can someone please define the term "holiday" for me! haha oh well, i guess we all deserve a looong remedial holiday. block tests are coming:/
anyway just now went out to buy heels. im going to walk like a duck please. lol, and we went down to watch chingay! i dont know anything bout it cos my duty was just to watch. and my sis claimed she saw mi lu bing, i dont know! it is pretty cool having chingay right opposite your house! so when we wanted to get home after the parade ended, the lift was crowded like not only sardines but tuna and eggs as well! but it wasnt that bad. cos it was like a night for neighbours gathering. usually, the streets will be filled with pple going their own way, then tonight there were pple sitting on picnic mats and chatting with their neighbours while waiting for the parade to arrive. so it was pretty cool aint it! ooh i was carrying this little kid from fifth storey! he was daaaamn cute can! he wont let you carry him unless you said you wanna bring him to see birds and cats. hahaha! then when i carried him he just stared at me blankly and touched my face with his cold yoghurt drink and started smiling foolishly to himself. hahaha he is super cute laaa! :DDD
oh well. i spent the last few hours doing IH. hahaha well, most of the time la! lol i shall cont tmr. byebye! i intend to do my math ws 3.1 and chem SPA and study for bio quiz soon! (:

2008-02-19T21:31:00.002+08:00

yay daddy's laptop's connection is superbly duperbly good:DDD
school is boring, my brain is dying. im willing to do loads of homework as long as my brain can go back to normal. i think im going to lose all my brain memory card sooner or later:( i need a cure, anyone? hehehe.
i have been thinking bout smth recently. or rather someone. not very pleasant, oh well. i was thinking, how come pple seemed so nice initially but after getting close to you she shows her true colours immediately? just when i began to trust her. oh well, so disappointing. but what can i say! goodness knows how many times you have to tell yourself to know better than to put all your trust on anyone. mankind, tsktsk.
anyway surprise surprise i bought my graces dress. hahaha my parents very funny can. ytd was telling them, kuo wanna check today, everyone bought already except for me. hahaha then they brought me out straight away. my parents cannot tahan ji jiang fa! haha anyway if i didnt say that they would have waited till the day before graces. haha so before kuo hantam me!
okay, nothing else. i just wanna tell that someone if this is really you, i'd rather we be strangers. ciao!

2008-02-16T22:38:00.002+08:00

hello hello! my sis is ba-ing the com and my dajie refused to lend me her laptop cos she is watching some laaaame stuffs on youtube. so im using my dad's and the connection is super good can! so i was playing viwawa. hahaha, really good heh(:
anyway, this morning woke up at five. then wrote my la journal for goodness knows how long. we had flag day today. although i woke up at freaking five plus, i was more than half an hour late meeting chenyi. heh. sorry chenyi! oh jenzi and i have TOTALLY NO COORDINATION. she waited for me on khatib mrt. then i got off at khatib to look for her, she got on the mrt i got off. hahaha chenyi said the problem lies with me. cos i was sposed to get off at yishun to look for chenyi, but i waited on the mrt cos i thought she was gonna board. lol yeah i think the problem lies with me:S
i have nothing much to say bout flag day. we wasted quite alot of time then decided to go to chinatown, jenzi bel and chenyi. then gi and caroline went to bugis i think. pple at chinatown are quite nice. hahaha Hasty Generalisation! lol, since the love fallacy story i kept linking stuffs with the fallacies! yeah, there was this good-looking girl, she looked educated, and she is super generous. bel asked her for donation, then i was at the side. she gave bel her leftover coins and gave me a two bucks note. i like her:DD i think i didnt really meet any unkind pple, just a few dao ones. but most are nice la. haha alot came to zhu dong donate. oh dorothy said she saw eugene at dhoby ghaut.
after flagday we rushed back to return the cans. my can was suuuper light, heh. the person collecting the can was super funny. oh, sorry laiweng. im not sure if you wanna keep your ahem secret. well tell me if you want then i shall shut my mouth(: anyway hahaha okaye. oh we to change our clothes, then ah fang, gi, chenyi, chengxin, rachel and i started our bai nian marathon. hahaha we went to rachel's house first. ooh we bought oranges before that. i think her mom is super nice and her bro is SUPER SUPER SUPER CUTE! he is really very ke ai! i dont know how to describe but i really like him alot:DDD we spent quite a long time at rachel's house playing with her bro, or rather, his toys. hahaha. we played a few rounds of dai dee, and black jack. didnt play with money cos only chengxin, rachel and me wanted:((
after that we went to gi's house. hahah oh yeah we had alot of mrt rides today. mrt rides with them damn funny one can. esp the one where we played the "IQ games". lol! at gi's house we took photos with her parents! like quan jia fu ahha! then we watched teevee and snacked on her new year goodies. finished watching you fu and we proceeded to ah fang's house. haha i shant include any content of our conversation, firstly cos i cant remember secondly cos i cant remember and lastly cos i cant remember. but our conversations is funny daaao!
at ah fang's house we snacked at her room and just jiang hua uh. hahaha we were laughing at my alarm ringtone. oh and alina was on the line so we spoke to ehr. hahahaha alina damn cute also la! :D they wanted to order pizza but didnt in the end cos its slow or smth. ooh we flipped through ah fang's baby photos! VERY CUTE! xDD then we camwhored at her house. ooh i didnt mention that we had fruits at all three houses! pomelo at rachel's, dragonfruit at gi's, and oranges at ah fang's! we didnt come to my house cos it was too late! i told my mom we can save the angpao money, then she was like bu yong la, bao hao ni na gei ta men luh. hahaha so if i dont forget i shall bring the angpao for them on mon. chenyi's mom also! lol. ooh then after walking us out, ah fang took picture of us from across the road! haha so funny ar! they said if the driver looked at us in shock then kena car accident zen me ban! haha. then we will be nei jiu one huh. oh rachel chengxin and gi took 67. chenyi and i took 963 to woodlands. then she took mrt home. i told her i will call her on the lift cos walking up the lift and on the corridor is scary, haha. so she talked to me for a minutes plus. xie xie ni worrrr! :DD
okaye, i had a fun day today(: has been a long time since i laughed so much. xie xie ni men! byebye:DD

2008-02-13T21:29:00.002+08:00

有些朋友是当假的.
it really disgusts me to see how pple can claim to be friends but in actual fact not liking the person at all. it is rather terrifying in some sense cos your closest friend may be the first person who wanna see you dead. well, that's just an example. this just spoils everything cos if you dont like someone you just wont call that person a friend, will you. and some pple talks everything bad bout this person behind her back, but pretends to be nice to her. it just gets on my nerves. i guess no one really likes or wants to see the ugly side of anyone.
oh well, i think im just feeling pessimistic today. each days starts off well, but somehow gets spoilt by the insensitivity, may it be accidental or not. i guess very few actually minds bout how others will feel when we do or say smth. everyone has faults, but it doesnt hurt to spare a thought for others, does it?
do what you think, mean what you say. dont go on your fours and licking the ground just to get a place in the pig sty. well if you get it.

2008-02-11T15:30:00.000+08:00

i wonder if im in trouble.
anyway, i shall blog bout my cny holiday in msia later on. cos im in a rush to do hw. goodness knows when i started to bother bout school work so much. but i've had enough fun, time for serious work:(
anyway today went to school as per normal. both my parents on leave but they wanted me to go to school still. so i did. then left ater bio cos i had vaccination appointment. at first i was suuuper excited cos can leave school halfway. but then only ytd i started to worry bout the injection. reached there on the dot, but the waiting time was loooooong. there were plenty of cute kids around though! and my younger sis wasnt in school too, cos her teacher insisted that her mosquito bites are chicken pox. hahaha ooh and jenzi went with me to let my parents sign the leave form and she got an angbao from my mom! hahaha i think my mom is super funny can. and my running around to get pple to sign the form wasted my time and wasted my energy. hahaha.
recently i visited one of my relatives' house with my parents. if anyone every realised, there's one newspaper article on this old man who recently passed away. he used to bring me to the playground and buy ice cream for me from ntuc when i visited him. he passed away a couple of months ago. you know chinese they have this bai bai thing for 49 days. then his wife ws exclaiming, what a sad date her husband chose to leave. because the 49th day is this thursday, valentine's day. she said he used to buy her flowers for v.day every year. this year she is the one giving him flowers. at the cemetry. really sad story huh.
i think my relatives have alot of dramatic stories. like that time we went back to msia, my distant aunt and her husband are going to flie for divorce, and they are going to fight for the custody of child. the guy's uncle is a lawyer but my aunt's family is rich. how dramatic. but i pity the kid. she is only like one or two years old? she is suuuuper cute can. oh well, i hope the child follows her mom.
aiyayee, i shall go do math now. byebye! urgh i realise my homework will be near to none if you take away all the math stuffs. grr ggg.

2008-02-05T16:33:00.000+08:00

hello hello. im supposed to be doing nyaa cip today, but going to msia tmr so have to finish packing by today. sigh i have to finish all my hw too, gotta hand in tmr. and i owe kuo letters. siaaaan, how come my intuition tells me cny isnt gonna be good this year.
anyway, today i was in a pretty bad mood. maybe not bad, i didnt flare up at anyone. i hope. heh. but kinda.. stony i guess. haha i dont know. probably cos i had a looooong day ytd. went to kranji war memorial, then went for dinner at lot1 with ver, gi and bel. we ate at pizza hut. it was kinda comfortable cos we 闲聊-ed. hahaha but ver wasnt comfortable i bet, you can ask her whyyyy! but ahaha the rest was okaaay(: anyway at night we went out for some last minutes "new year's shopping". not really last minute la, cos i bet tonight all the supermarkets will be flooded with pple. ooh anyway i shall go causeway to get some stuffs later.
as i was saying, last night was home pretty late. then i did my chi compre and went to bed. this morning woke up at like 2am to do my math supp and phy ass. so i only slept for 3 hours:( this morning i reeeally didnt feel like coming to school. but still went anyway. and i was pretty moody at first. i just felt really drained out la. oh well, ggg didnt check the math supp. which was good and bad i guess. good cos i didnt finish all the questions. bad cos like hello i woke up at 2am to do please! but anyway, i guess it kinda balance out so im fine with it. pe was pretty okay i guess. probably the least sian period. lol gi and pei lih were super entertaining can. then i went back to class with alina and studied bio. for like five minutes? its okay im prepared to fail bio quizes. lol im not very proud to say this but failing bio is like my zhuan chang. heh heh. but then, i did try to study whenever i know bout a quiz luh! and i passed that only one(:
anyway i wouldnt say i had a good day today. and i can picture smoke coming out of kuo's ears when he reads my letter. cos he was quite pissed at some of us who wont be going to school tmr cos we are going back to msia. but then, tmr is new year's eve please. okaaay, imagine my parents decided to leave after school ended, i go to school as usual, we leave for msia straight after school, let's say about 12? and after twelve hours of car ride, it will be new year already! surprise surprise, and we will all miss reunion dinner at ahma's house. so what im trying to say is, i think my reason for not going to school is valid can. imagine twelve hours of car ride! but im okay with the long car ride, although when we get off we will have backaches, headaches. but i love car rides:DD yayy cant wait for reunion dinner!
okaaay i shall go do my homework not. i havent started packing and have to hand in phy ass, ih essay, and chi compre tmr. so much for new year's eve's eve. but oh well, what can i do. happy chinese new year everyone, you wont be seeing me till monday! whooops gotta go for jab on monday! :/

2008-02-01T22:00:00.001+08:00

sooner or later i'll have to breathe through my ears. i find myself saying this for the goodness knows how many times today. cos my nose i blocked, my throat is about to be blocked too. phlegm, if you dont know what im talking about. i seriously hate the feeling of phlegn ascending and descending my throat. horrible i tell you.
oh anyway i didnt go to school today. but i feel more tired than normal school days. just now while doing my chem and LA i just kept dozing off. and it aint even 9 just now. oh man, am i getting old or what. and in my sickly old form i still had tuition. and in my sickly old form i finished one, two, three, four pieces of homework. good girl is an understatement. i think i was quite dumb to go all the way to school just to hand in math. actually most of the reason is that i wanted to give chenyi her present. hahaha. and i left straight after that. oh yes btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENYI! :D
its surprising how ning can said something so true in her midst of un-seriousness. "meiling, zhi you ni sheng bing de shi hou cai hui na me qing xing. na ni ji xu sheng bing ba." of cos im not referring to the second sentence, if you are wondering. NO! hahaha just that i really agree with her. i seem to be more sober when im sick. aint it!
oh yessss. nanyang won ALL THE MATCHES. ytd nanyang won rv! three cheers to nynb! xD i think they played really well. i wonder if im going bonkers but whenever i watch my own teammates play, like when you see how hard they are trying, i feel suuuuper sentimental. if you get what i mean. lol okay this is quite dumb i admit(:
if my instincts arent wrong i think... i admit i was at fault. should have taken note of others' feelings. i was just excited cos this is the second time i passed bio quiz and i raaaaarely pass bio quiz. maybe im too sensitive but just in case, my apologies. oh btw its inconsideration or inconsiderateness(:
oh well. i feel sick thoroughlyyyy:(( i wanna get well soon. what if i cant go around getting angpaos? DDD: whoops i wanna apologise to the woman on the bus. just now on the way home a moment ago i was awake, but i was soooo sleepy the next moment when i was reaching my stop i fell asleep. then when i woke up the door nearly shut, so i just jumped up and rushed out of the bus. and this poor woman beside me got a shock i think. cos i practically jumped, like, jumped. hahaha. sorry woman:/ this is so random:D
i think im not a really good friend. is anyone gonna argue? hahahaha byebye!

2008-01-30T21:51:00.001+08:00

halo. how are you im not fine:( i feel my throat bleeding. as almost the whole world should know, im having a sore thoat. and just i just happend to sneeze real hard and poof, i taste blood. at least i think i did. it feels like blood. DDD:
anywayyyy. nothing much happened today. played viwawa in the morning. i think the school com is much faster than my com. i shall stop playing viwawa at home. lol i just played a couple of games with chenyi just now. hahaha. in the morning i was in the middle of a game, then had to go down for flag raising, so i just left the com there, like halfway through a game. cos do you know how much it will cost to leave a game halfway! 200 xp! lol so my apologies to those who were playing with me. they have to wait for a looooong time(:
school was okay, maybe at the line between okay and boring. lol its only the first month and lessons are starting to get dull. i really should start studying hard. tsktsk. i dont think i will score zero or bio quiz this time. hahaha seriously bio is just not my cup of tea. in other words, i really detest bio. but lss' lessons have been rather okay these days. normally lss' voice is like lullaby. haha but i guess she's starting to interact more with us. i suppose that's good(: we had phy lab today. hahaha i think tanbh is actually quite funny. he isnt like the first impression he gave me. so i suppose phy is fine too. i dont think i should write negative stuffs bout teachers. im not going to put my grades at risk, hahaha.
after school jenzi, gi and i sent claudia and jo to beyond for nyaa service. i wonder how it went. lol li yuen recognised me! she looked so happy to see me(: ooh did i mention that the toddlers on the ground floor are suuuuper cute! oh man, i wanna go there can! cute:DDDD whoops, must remember to call ms raja tmr.
after that jenzi, gi and i played at the playground. hahaha i guess the playground wasnt meant for my height. lol i banged straight into the pole. so paiseh! my head was real pain can. lol but i managed to climbed over and slide down anyway:D then we started cam-ing. lol spastic can! after that we took mrt to woodlands and throughout we had stupid conversations like xiong da qu nao. lol. at least this time we didnt say stuffs like putting gel on your arm or leg hair. hahaha oh man. anyway we went to causeway to buy chenyi's present and jenzi wanted to buy eunice's and i wanted to buy notebook for math. guess what? we saw greg goh and his wife and child. when we saw him, gi and i were like nudging jenzi. then jenzi blur blur "whaaat?" hahaha she's damn slow can! i only saw gg shooting a glance at us but jenzi and gi said he did smile to us. oh well. ooh his child was suuuuper cute! :DD and his wife is my sis' form teacher. qiao right(:
oops i think im not supposed to blog bout chenyi's present. so i shant say what. then we bought my notebook at pop. after that went to precious tots to look for jenzi. and chenyi joined us. then we walked walked and i went home. my left shoulder was aching like i dont know how to explain. then after bathing, dinner, is started on my hw(((:
i just had a random thought about teachers today. i was thinking which kind of teacher has a way with students like us. is it the caring in a harsh way kind, or the soft-hearted kind, or the concerned and know-his-students kind, or the funny but cant-rmb-students-names kind, or the funny but strict kind. lol i just listed out what i thought of some of our subject teachers, if you know who im talking bout. which ever it is, i think all above will be able to connect with the students. be it the harsh or soft way. however, there's a kind of teacher who will never get into the students' likings, or maybe just mine, is the kind who's like bo chup bout the class, like i teach you just cos the school wants me to. sometimes it really gets on my nerves, if i dont like the teacher i cant seem to do well in that subject. and i seem to have a softness for caring teachers, seriously. oh well, that was just a random thought.
i shall go back to my math ws now. byebye! :D

2008-01-30T06:29:00.000+08:00

blehhhh mr sore throat came to visit me ytd:((( and he aint leaving until he tortured the life out of me. D: i think drinking three cups of ice ytd really got him chasing after me. hello mr sore throat, i have been looking for ways to chase you out. and look what i've found(:

How to Get Rid of a Sore Throat

Is your sore throat getting you down? Here are some suggestions to help alleviate your pain while your body heals.

1.Drink warm drinks and soup. This will ease the pain, and give you fluids and some nourishment.
2.Drink a glass of mint tea with honey. This works great.
3.Eat cold foods, but avoid anything too sweet. Excess sugar will irritate the throat.
4.Take a hot shower. The steam vapors help clear your sinuses, which usually is a cause of a sore throat.
5.Get a bottle of throat spray, such as Chloraseptic, and spray liberally in the back of your throat. It will numb your throat and kill any bacteria.
6.Gargle with lukewarm salty water at least 3 to 4 times a day. The salt should be dissolved in the water. Don't go overboard on the salt so as to cause more irritation—there should just be enough to help clear any excess mucus in the back of your throat.
7.Cut a lemon in half, skewer it, and roast over a stove fire until the skin is golden-brown. Squeeze out the juice and mix in 1 tablespoon of honey. Stir and drink.
8.Mix ginger and lemon juice. Run down the throat without swallowing. The ginger will cling to the sides of the throat to provide temporary relief and a barrier to prevent damage from coughing. The acidic lemon juice will help with removal of mucus.
9.Swallow a spoonful of honey.
10.Mix a tablespoon of salt in a cup of warm water and gargle.

okaay, i shall try this after i get home from school. did i say i dont feel like going for third lang today, i think i just did. viwawa is love. byebye!

2008-01-26T15:42:00.000+08:00

hellohello(: i feel tired, woke up to do my hw, then went out for the whole morning. i need sleep:/ oh well, im kinda doing my math portfolio foreword now. and i simply have no idea what to write. please la, greg goh expects a good foreword to be one of 2 hours, do you think im doing it:( well fyi, yes. hahaha i think im self-entertaining. oh well, i forgot to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAEJOONG! hahaha. i was playing viwawa just now and this guy said its his birthday today. do you think there might be a slightest teeniest weeniest chance that i just played daidee with jaejoong? hahaha okay i feel dumb.
anyway, i just realised the math rev ex has sec four work too. haha i hope its not too late to realise that! :D anyway i shall be guai and study for bio and math quiz. i cant wait for cny(((((:
oh ytd. i reached school quite early but i suddenly felt like being a loner so i went to do my srq at the other court. haha. ooh huiming saw me and gave me my present- a string of m&ms! hahaha. anyway gi said eighters were waiting for me in the morning. hahaha. after flag raising they sang me a birthdaysong together with foursix. yay haha. then we had chem.
i feel so touched cos gi bought me the 9-in-one hair thing, together with bel, chenyi, caroline, alina, nicole, gwen andddd... oh man, who's the last one i cant remember. oh yes, is it rachel! :DD yayyy thank you all! hahaha i was doing an experiment with my hair last night. i hope they stay intact(: ooh and chengxin gave me this strawberry which she said can put on my hoodie. hahaha and its super meaningful cos she put the picture we took together. heehee(: sms-wise, not alot, plus today's equals twenty. lol thanks(:
after school i had tuition. DDDD: then cos my sis had exams until 8pm so we didnt celebrate until around 10 plus. was so tired fo who knows what reason i was sleeping before that. then we have pizza and cake for dinner. this is the second time in my whole sixteen (:D) years i received an angpao for my birthday. and i dont like it:( oky whatever. my mom bought me clothes, yay:D hahaha i think the blouse she bought was suuuper cute. purple with grey, lalala. cos my sis is in the midst of her exams sh promised to treat me when we go out this week. yay:D
honestly i had not been looking forward to a good 2oo8 and not expecting much means no disappointment. so hooray, my birthday passed happily. hahaha. i just realised buying presents for pple cannot be suibian. cos i know it sucks having to receive a photoframe as a present. i shall put in more effort to buy a meaningful present for peeeeeople(: hahaha im looking forward to jenzi's present! :DDD
okaay, i shall go back tomy foreword. arghhhh. oh did i mention secret recipe was opened by my dad's church friend? :DD

2008-01-23T20:57:00.000+08:00

hello(:
happy birthday to zongbin and belated to mel:D happy birthday in advance to meiling(: well, honestly im not looking forward to it:( oh well friday, normal school day, tuition. what can be worse? so im not hoping much! oh well if you are kind enough, make my day(:
anyway today alot pple made my day. cos i was quite upset today. maybe cos im too sensitive , stubborn or what, i dont know, but i just felt hurt. uh kinda dumb. i dont know know. honestly i was quite taken back at first. but then, when have i learnt better than to trust pple? hai, humans are far more dangerous than you think. and i had to learn the harsh way. i was all wrong about you ))):
but then, it was quite worth it to see your true colours cos i realised i have many caring friends too(: i told jenzi, chenyi, gi, piala. jenzi was like a mom when she consoled me:D then gi gave me lots of advice(: during math i was like grumbling and ignoring chenyi but she didnt kick my ass(: during lunch it was good cos gi, jenzi, chenyi and i were crapping then my pain faded away slightly(((: and piala, wah lao she was like chiding me when i told her. but just now she was suuper sweet online((:

the name is piala pngggggg says:
你好
the name is piala pngggggg says:
不要太过难过好吗
the name is piala pngggggg says:
太过难过对身体不益的
the name is piala pngggggg says:
所以开心一点儿
the name is piala pngggggg says:
笑一笑
the name is piala pngggggg says:
生活会更好
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
hahaha why you suddenly type chinese?
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
lol im fine, im fine.
the name is piala pngggggg says:
没什么特殊原因
the name is piala pngggggg says:
心血来潮而已
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
hahaha are you sure you are piala?
the name is piala pngggggg says:
是的，千真万确
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
lol i cant imagine you speaking chinese.
the name is piala pngggggg says:
为何如此？
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-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
ohman piala pnggggg you damn funnycan!
the name is piala pngggggg says:
好啦，随你喜欢
the name is piala pngggggg says:
只要你开心，就足够了
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
hahaha thanks
-meiling yunhoLOVE; says:
efforts appreciated!
the name is piala pngggggg says:
那我就非常满足了
the name is piala pngggggg says:
下次若有什么事，随时可以找我。

lol, thanks to all those who listened to my whining. hahaha i admit im quite annoying at some times. but “friendship isn't finding a perfect person, it's seeing an imperfect person perfectly.” so generally, im happy today. cos all the lovely pple made up for the heartache(: gi said, some hypocrites are like "friends", but some friends are really honest with you and you can tell them anything. lol i think gi and jenzi are under this category. cos when i talk to them i rarely use my brains. cos there's no need(:

2008-01-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

hohoho:DD
viwawa is my lover:DDDD hahaha i dont know why so heng kept winning today(: but im still at lvl 5:( lol, but i shall gradually increase, heehee(:
anyway today gi, jenzi and bel came to my house for ih and la. well, supposedly. hahaha i wonder how we spent the few hours here. but we did a bit la okay(: hahaha they are pigs can, kept laughing at my picture. tsktsktsk. i think alot of hilarious things happened but i cant seem to remember what. lol, so all in all we had a fun meeting, not very productive but that's not the point(:
this week hasnt been a very memorable week cos i dont really remember what happened:/ i think my memory is getting from bad to worst. oh man. but i feel quite accomplished, cos i finished all y hw, including theory hw:DD i shall start revising math tmr. oh bw, i had my first tuition ytd. actually its my first tuition since primary school, lol.
ooh i bought cny shoes just now. hahaha i hope i dont look stoopid in it:P i reeeeally cant wait for cny. angpaos angpaos:DD
oh did i mention kuo took mc ytd? i bet i didnt! well he did, quite surprising huh! hahaha but get well soon kuo:D lol. i think jeffrey low is nice. i dont think gregory goh is nice. i think wu lao shi is nice. but cme teacher i cant remember her name. well actually i dont think i know her name, heh. i shall go find out next week.
okaaay, that's all for today. byebye! (:

2008-01-16T14:05:00.000+08:00

hello hello. while waiting for viwawa to load i shall blog. hahaha cant remember when was the last time i blogged. oh man i really feel like dabian-ing now. hahaha this is due to the influence of jenzi can. but then later got third lang have to wait for another 4 more hours. aiks. anyway back to viwawa, my sis showed me this game and it was gooooood. cos this is the first online daidee i've seen. yay. but im still doing my work okaaay. well actually viwawa does help to relieve stress. STREESSSS. i think im going to die by the end of this year, sigh.
oh anyway, i think i havent blogged bout school. generally, the teachers remain the same. form teacher kuo, chinese wu lao shi. we got banded for math, bio and phy. phy mr tan, not bad la he's quite nice. bio still lss. hahaha and huishan is in my class! hahaha, with ning too! oh ning and tweema are in my math class. well i shant say much bout gg but i dont find him THAT shuai to make students go gaga over him. anyway honestly i dont really like him. well okay, except for his smile. hahaha. but he can teach la, so im fine with him for now. ytd shiTIEH caught me for earhole. "what's your name?" "who's your form teacher?" "i am going to tell mr kuo and mr jeffrey low." oh well, i shant comment.
what else has been happening lately. third lang as usual. i should start revising all my work cos third lang still have to take o lvl. sigh. oh ya, my mom got me a tuition teacher from hc and nus. tmr will be my first lesson with him, oh well. and will be doing nyaa service with gi for beyond. i like the person who spoke to us, she is so much nicer than the one from i cant remember what. anyway we will be working with kids. yay, kids are looove:D
heeheehee ten more days:DD georgina ng i want the thing in watson, REMEMBER?? xD
oh well viwawa cannot load. i shall go to other classes to try. BYE(:

2007-12-31T11:42:00.000+08:00

goodness knows why i have been so moody lately. oh well, new year's eve is suppose to be a joyous occasion aint it(: school's starting in two days, argh. i was looking through my photos some times ago, i realised... :DDD hahaha okay, new year's resolutions! one, i hope for everyone i love to be happy and healthy. second, i hope to survive my last year in nanyang and make it to hc. third, secret(: hahaha have you made your new year's resolutions!
i think i hadnt been treating pple nicely for this year. oh well, time to change! i shall be nicer and more forgiving, and change for a better person:DD but if you think i have been nice, you can continue to think so:DDD oh well, happy new year everyone!

不想懂得
当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什麼
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾裡成熟
心开始曲折
我不想捨得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我不想捨得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
互相照顾就是幸福的
当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什麼
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾裡成熟
心开始曲折
我不想捨得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我不想捨得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的
我愿意一秒鐘放弃全宇宙
挤在只有我们紧靠的小星球
我不想捨得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我多不捨得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什麼
我多不捨得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖　是爱不是负荷

2007-12-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

hello:D
went to watch alvin and the chipmunks on christmas with xingxuan, huishan, erwina and eugene. joel didnt watch with us cos he went to watch legend with his friend. but we met anyway. i think the movie was suuuper cute(:

Christmas, Christmas time is near,
Time for toys and time for cheer.
We've been good, but we can't last,
Hurry Christmas, Hurry fast.
Want a plane that loops the loop,
Me, I want a Hula-Hoop.
We can hardly stand the wait,
Please Christmas don't be late.

haha that's all.

2007-12-22T22:34:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey:D
went out for the whole day im finally home. haha this morning i woke up to continue with my homework. hahaha i didnt say start on my homework okay, i said continue(: well, did math for ten minutes then got ready to go to church. its their 50th anniversary so we had full day programme. i think the afternoon session is more entertaining. lunch was better than usual, haha. then daddy saw his church friend from sydney. it happened that daddy's pastor's son turned out to be his sydney friend. then they talk talk talk. yeah.
anyway we didnt stay for the whole afternoon session. went home to bathe then wen out for dinner at tanglin mall. after that walked around, take pictures. cos christmas is coming:DD monday will be going out with bdiv to sentosa. not sure if its confirmed. then at night gotta go for church dinner. and tuesday supposed to have outing with kinabalu and anything hangtuah. but christmas i think surely alot of pple cannot make it:( oh well.
anyway, im happy today. 今天是幸福的:DD

2007-12-20T20:04:00.000+08:00

hellohello im back from msia:D
took the train back with my sis last week. it was pretty cool, since the last time i took a train in msia was like centuries ago. but we didnt manage to get the beds since all was sold out, so had to settle with the seats. horrible i tell you. twelve hours on seats is not comfortable at all. but oh well, we manage to reach in one piece thank goodness. and the train wasnt late, nor did it meet with landslide or bump into buffalos, like what happened to the trains before ours.
im too lazy to describe in details what we did in msia. but anyway, my grandpa got out of hospital already, thnak goodness. i didnt dare to ask moo what the doctor said, but yeah, we took care of grandpa. he was alot weaker than what he used to be. it was quite a heartache actually, and at the beginning i felt really awkward when i was with him. the previous time i saw him he was still able to ride around in a motorbike and going to the plantations to work everyday, and this time round he even had to hold on to walls and tables to walk around. it was totally heartwrenching. but after a few days my mood lightened, cos grandpa was still able to joke around. no other jokes was as happy as this(: and my younger sis' crappiness really made grandpa happier, it was a joy to hear his laughter. yupp, i look forward to seeing him again during cny:D
well, besides that, i think my seven days there were super unhealthy. hahaha cos we just ate, play, watched tv, go out in car, sleep. yeah, i think the xin ku twelve days in sabah had gone to waste. oh anyway, we cancelled our trip to kl and malacca. will be going there next year's march instead(: anyway in kelantan our first few days i dont have much to talk bout. well except for the floods la, took some pictures of it. i dont feel that shocked to see those floods, cos it was quite common in kelantan. it appeared on the news for like nearly everyday. in case you are suaku and never seen floods before, i shall post the pics later. haha.
around monday i think, my cousin came back from kl. but one more in japan for three weeks, so yeah, the other two cam to play with us. haha we played daidee for like almost everyday. ooh, i left my cards in kelantan:(( on tuesday we went over to aunt's house for lunch. and watched horror. like, totally horrifying. i dont wanna watch horror anymore:/ ahhhhhh, some scenes are totally AHH can:(( i dont like watching horror. hahaha fine i admit im too chicken but i dont see the point in watching movies to scare yourself ma. anyway my cousins hve loooaaaads of dvds. so i borrowed 12 dvds to watch. no horror, mostly comedies:DD hahaha i think my cousin damn cute can. he kept saying hidup macam sakai. it doesnt mean anything good so dont bother to find out the meaning. took train back here last night. the train stopped very long halfway so our ride was like 18 hours. wasnt that horrible la, since they provide movies like harry potter and the prisoners of azkaban and rumour has it. and i slept through most of the time cos i was super tired. there was this super cute little girl. i like her:DDD upon reaching kempas daddy fetched us and brought us for dinner, then we drove back home(: i think i bought alot of things. hohoho:D
there's self trng at hci tmr. how how how im super nervous cos i missed nine trngs in total. im gonna be suuuuper lag. anyway was on the phone with xingxuan just now. we are gonna have outing for group 3 and 4 soon. hooray! :D

it is the fear of not being to see that person again that makes goodbyes sad.

2007-12-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

how come my house feels so empty:((
oh well, anyway... went for piano lesson as usual today. the bought train tickets at msia. mom they all reached ahma's house at around 3 plus. some fish train overturned and they were stuck at gua musang for two hours. then mom's relative went to fetch them. yeah. asked mom how ah gong was. she said the doctor said its very likely lung cancer. she promised to interview the doctor later. probably cos i asked too much. sigh, i dont know. since young my mom told me to tell my ah gong to quit smoking. i dont know. it is still possible to live for another ten years even if you have lung cancer right? i really dont mind giving up ten years of mine. i cant wait to go back to msia.
oh well, good guys should live longer, shouldnt they?

2007-12-08T23:03:00.000+08:00

hello hello, im back from ob sabah like finally huh! its only twelve days but i feel like i missed out alot of stuffs! i feel kinda empty now but nvm, shall blog bout ob sabah first(:
heh cant really remember much. thirteen days ago feels like thirteen years ago. i guess too much happened. oh well. and we travel back to... kallang. supposed to meet at people's association. then the normal stuffs, cant remember. but main groups- nanyang, mgs, ncc, acs. yeah, then left for senai airport. fast forward forward forward...
OB SABAH! :D
reached at about ten plus i think cant remember uh. had late dinner, then they introduced the instructors. first impression wasnt like wow, but first impression doesnt last huh? (: bunk really wasnt what i expected. fortunately, better than what i expected. haha please la, ob singapore was like all five days in tents i was preparing to tent for the whole of twelve days can. oh well(:
tuesday, 27th nov.
had pt at 6. sunrise at sabah was about an hour earlier. i suppose sunset too. so it doesnt feel that early, which was good i guess(; first day pt was kinda sian, warm up, run, games. yeah. then breakfast. we had cleanliness check, which wasnt really a bother la. then flag raising. yeah. after that got to know our groups. at first, honestly i wasnt really excited bout my group. cos four other teammates in other groups. but yeah, group four is love can.
huishan
laiweng
zhiying
erwina
lingxue
sam
nisa
junhong
joel
eugene
yeah, although until like day ten i still thought i was in group three, but that's not the main point and anything hang tuah is lovelovelove:D i admit im not good with my words, and i dont look like im super obsessed with my group, but honestly i like group four, be it individually or as a whole, yupp(: and my instructors are super lovely yeah, helse and izree. they arent like those young young cool cool shuai shuai instructors, but definitely lovely:DD
hahaha huishan suay la, first day kena bird shit. xD icebreaker games, well abit sian la. every camp also same games, but yeah, i think we are such headaches can. i cant remember what happened for the rest of the day(:
wednesday, 28th nov.
jungle expedition. haha we suay, cos it started raining when we were about to leave. and the rain really made the trekking worse. muddy, slippery and stuffs. yeah, kena alot of cuts, and the rope burn on the back of my hand is really unsightly can. but bo bian, hope it heals sooner or later(: we stayed overnight at the jungle. ooh, our jungle expedition was together with group three, xingxuan's group. yeah. credits to the ncc girls for most of the cooking. it started pouring after dinner, well done. at first a snake was discovered at the guys tent, but not much reaction, i think they evacuated calmly. a spider was discovered in our tent, some screamed their throats off. damn hilarious. rain rain rain, we dug dug dug. cheering, singing, jokes. yeah. oh well, it was quite hard to get through the night. cold, sleepy, and not enough tents for all. yeah, sat through the night.
thursday, 29th nov.
trekked down and out of the jungle. at the beginning we practically slided down the slopes. soohan's track pants kena one hole in the middle. but wasnt that obvious. for the last prt of the trekking to homestay, after jomain and huishan, laiweng and i helped carried sok's backpack since she wasnt feeling well. and good job, five dogs welcomed us at the homestay house. then we parted with group 3. our house wasnt that bad. except for the three or four dogs, everything was okay. lunch was prepared mostly by, izree, helse and us. washed our ground sheets, tent sheets, shoes and stuffs at the stream. super cool(: shower time, credits to huishan for toiletries. prepared dinner. didnt do much, sorry. at night we walked over to group three's homestay house for performance. we performed some national day songs. group 3's was good. then slacked around and walked back to our house. had supper, shared a cup of milo with huishan. and we slept in the living room.
friday, 30th nov. woke up early for breakfast. didnt have to trek back cos the ob van came to chauffer us. i guess it was good. i love bumpy bus rides(: back at base camp, packed our stuffs and prepared for sailing expedition. yeah, i forgot what happened after that. sailing was okay. i dont think i was much of help. but almost everyone was seasick. so we sang songs to cheer them on. well yeah, although we were slack i kinda like out sea ride(: and we camped at this pretty beach. except for the tents, food and entertainment, it was almost like a resort. the night started off good. didnt have dinner, was playing cards with jomain, huishan, zhiying and dorothy. then we had campfire, well i suppose it wast meant for us, but i forgot what we did after that. anyway, supposed to have sanctuary duty, so played cards again. i forgot with who huh. after that we did our sanctuary duty. yeah somehow our sanctuary duty only left a few awake, cos xingxuan and huishan were sleeping comfortable on my legs, one left one right. at first i was super awake. as it dragged longer my eyelids started to shut. i saw one shooting star. haha kinda childish but i did make a wish! (: then somehow we started playing cards again. and while shining the torch for jomain i managed to doze off, yeah guess i was pretty sleepy huh. and i watched then play cards while dozing off repeatedly. heh(:
saturday, 1st dec.
sunrise sunrise, i forgot if we saw the sunrise. but the previous night we saw a whole sky filled with stars, definitely satisfying. anyway the morning wasnt really good. am i dumb or dumb i didnt realise bout the conflict at all, until one of them said uh. huishan said im too simple, well anyway nothing much to talk bout. i guess its more bout communication. anyway, i think its just because we are nanyang. sorry but i dont think we have much reputation to speak of. anyway, im used to how pple look at us. well, i still dont know a single thing bout the conflict, but i think individually they are nice, so no need for redundant stuffs. we pedalled back. yeah, i preferred being towed, but the satisfaction when you reach shore was uncomparable yeah(: i cant remember what we did after that. so skip skip skip...
high elements. well yeah, one of the things i dread. started off with rockwall. yeah well done i dont think you wanna know what happened. super paiseh, but thanks to huishan and zhiying for practically pushing me up and the rest for encouragement. wah lao, huishan was super sick can. i forgot what happened after that but she said something like "ni na li wo mei you dong guo *winkwink*" hahaha super bian tai can! but damn hilarious la. i think huishan is such a pig! i cant remember what happened after that, good job my memory is like totally failing me. but i think we got to bathe. one word, heavenly.
oh, debrief. i guess the instructors attempted to solve the conflict. sorry for the ground sheets matter, i really didnt intend to blame anyone, i guess the way i said, i was at fault. apologies. anyway, what junhong and nisa said bout ncc really made us think bout it. well, somehow i cant remember a thing we said during debrief. but whatever conflict shit isnt necessary, and i still dont know what is it about. anyway, what should be left unsaid shall be left unsaid.
sunday, 2nd dec.
morning, normal stuffs. pt, breakfast, cleanliness check, flagraising. continued with high elements. wah lao, giant ladder is like one of the last things i will do again. i guess its hard to tell but i felt super thankful yet sorry towards junhong and eugene. i think they practically dragged and pushed me all the way up la. it was like, stepping on eugene's knee and pulled up by junhong then repeatedly until reaching the top. well yeah, i was really sorry. thanks again, cos they to do the same thing twice. oh well, deeply appreciated.
huishan didnt get to do cos she hurt her shoulder. the way xingxuan described was super hilarious. but huishan huishan, remember to see a doctor! i think huishan was quite kelian la. she hurt her knees after climbing mt k. i cant remember what we did after this but i think we got to bathe. ooh, gwen and jenzi had fever so they didnt get to go for sailing expedition. at least they get to climb mt k yupp(:
ooh, i think we did solo reflections after this! i think solo reflection was super fun. helse gave us some questions and our group did this on the beach. we were supposed to sit on the ground sheet alone at a designated spot and reflect and answer the questions then they will send it back to you in 6 months. cool yeah? :DD i cant wait. but i bet i will be damn surprised when i receive it next year! anyway, solo reflection was good. i spent quite long thinking and writing. then i slept. before that the tide was like ten metres away from me. when i woke up i totally shock tio can, thetide was just 2 metres away from me la. hahaha, so i shifted all the way in and started singing to myself. hahaha stupid huishan's pen ran out of ink la, they she had to take from iscanda. this woman damn sotong can. i think this night we got to bathe too. heh heh(:
monday, 3rd dec.
we did cip. picking rubbish, building bridge. in the morning i was quite upset, be it certain matters or certain person. but after that i decided to stop acting like some grumpy ah pek cos last few days should be made memorable. yeah(: moved wood, soil, grass with gwen. got my class tee muddy:/ oh well i sent everything for cleaning today, yay:DD ridge run again. haha. and bathing time was super memorable. at first claudia was like saying "i wanna bathe with jenzi." then i was like kidding, "i wanna bathe with gwen." then suay suay no water i really had to bathe with gwen la. of cso not facing each other in case you are thinking of that, sicko:P haha i think we were super creative la, you can ask gwen how we did it(:
tuesday, 4th dec.
took bus to i forgot what's the name of the place. anyway we stopped by souvenir shops. jenzi and i spent alot can. i bought lots of stuffs for family, friends, piano teacher. heh heh. i felt like ah soh la please. haha. then we reached this place which was damn cool. well both literally and not. i love the temperature can, just nice! free aircon la, hahaha. we took pics, then chatted with gwen and caroline. well, its good to see things from different points of view, and i understood how gwen felt uh. oh well, bu kai xin de shi bu yao ti le! anyway, what you do to others, others will do the same. i admit i talk bout pple behind their backs too, so yeah. and i guess what caroline said make sense too, no point in minding so much bout what others think bout you. i think this is my greatest weakness yea. anyway jomain joined us after that. the qi fen was so much better. damn hilarious la. anyway all three of us were scared of dogs cept for caroline. hahaha wont i get envious of pple not afraid of dogs! (:
credits to ncc for dinner. credits to jomain and huishan and erwina and gwen and me and the rest for washing up. water was freezing cold, but not as bad as the one on 11000 feet. after that had briefing for climbing mt k. ps, the dogs bit soohan's beanie and zhiying's plastic bag.
wednesday, 5th dec.
credits to mgs for breakfast. credits to us for washing up. same pple la, jomain, huishan, gwen, me. hahaha gwen is like my best washing up mate can. hahaha. then we rushed rushed cos had to meet straight after that. group four was the last to leave. we took a van there. and yeah, climbed mt k. it was harder than i thought. breathing got difficult, i got super giddy. well yeah i planned to stop at the third hut and turned back, cos i think i really slowed down the team alot. but joel passed me his walking stick, and huishan passed me a cloud nine, i wondered what changed my mind. i geng all the way till we reached our rest point, where we stayed overnight. credits to those who prepared dinner. credits to meiling for being the waitress. oh yeah, how can anyone forget to mention that it was freezing there. yeah, even i felt cold can. we didnt wash up much, just the last few. then huishan was having fun suanning me just because i poured the leftover spaghetti intothe sink. haiyo.
and last brieking before climbing to the peak. we slept at 7 plus and woke up at 1am i think.
thursday, 6th dec.
it was supposed to be cold, but my face felt hot. slight fever, nothing much. nisa didnt clmb with us, quite a pity, cos we didnt get to take a grp photo at the peak. we took without nisa, zhiying, helse and izree. :/ pretty much credits to huishan for dragging me up to the peak, not literally la. she was nagging and nagging until i was willing to reach the peak. she was supposed to be encouraging, like how. haha she will wait in front for me, then continue climbing once i reach her, hahaha encouraging right. and credits to the guide for holding my hand for quite a distance. it really helps la, so much better than the qhite rope. i didnt get to thank him face to face, but i hpe he felt my gratitude(: the guides are all nice la, one even piggyback soohan down the peak cos soohan wasnt feeling well i think. anyway, huishan and i crapped our way down from the peak. then upon reaching the rest house i had no apetite and slept like a pig until we were supposed to leave. it was freezing please, and me legs were like shiver shiver. on the way down, five ankle sprain attempts, uncontrollable vibrating of legs, sore feet, blisters, soft legs. yeah, but we made it down still. on the way down it was pretty entertaining i guess most credits to huishan. haha she was super hilarious can. ooh, i forgot to return zhiying the money for hundred plus. after reaching the bottom it wasnt really enjoyable, since we had to wait for three hours for groups 2 and 3, and the bus broke down. yeah, bus trip back was horrible. damn cold please, and i was biting my teeth with all my strength until dinner was hard to chew la. yeah. i think we bathed, did we? and hello bunk, i missed my bed alot(: although the bed up the mountain is more shu fu la. oh well(:
friday, 7th dec.
no pt, yay. we woke up alot later. at first gwen and i wanted to go to the beach to watch sunrise, but we lai chuang until 6.50, and we had to meet for breakfast at 7. hahaha. after breakfast was rafting i think. i didnt wanna get wet cos ahem. yeah, you can guess. i was wearing my last la. but it was quite tempting when everyone jumped into the water but you have to stay dry. oh well, there's always a next time:/ we got second. haha grp 1 was first. yeah(: and debrief. gwen's group cried like shit, i heard. but our group, hahaha nothing much la. honestly i dont think i was able to contribute much to my group, but really liked everyone of them yeah. i hoep we can have a watch outing soon(:
followed by getting back valuables, getting our ob shirt, photographs. then we passed around for autographs, performance by instructors, we sang songs. yeah. took pictures. then, we had our last dinner at the dining hall. after than at first huishan and i wanted to have a lang man stroll to the beach, then joel and eugene appeared, so it was like double gay date. hahaha then gwen and caroline appeared. so we had triple date. hahaha enough of rubbish, sunset was beautiful. please, beautiful is and understatement. how bout stunningly beautiful? yeah, absolutely. we were crapping on the beach can. haha, but yeah, although we didnt take a picture of the sunset, this sounds cliche but i scanned the scene into my brain and save it under memories:DD i will never forget the last sunset at outward bound sabah yeah(:
and goodbyes were upsetting. to our dorm, to our pt, to our dining halls where slippers and caps werent allowed, to pakcik, to the small showering cubicles, to the assembly hall where huishan kena bird shit on the first day, to our cage where we lost one steel mug and i think we forgot to pay, and to everyone of the instructors especially helse and izree. i can still remember how helse call us, "come, my children" hahaha, ob sabah is definitely memorable, twelve days is enough to make an impact aint it.
at the airport, well as if upsetting stuffs isnt enough, mom told me that my grandpa got into hospital. i thought she was kidding me, at least at that time i hoped she was. well, called my aunt to confirm. she wasnt. she asked me if i wanted to go back to msia with her on saturday, which is today. i guess i will be leaving with my sis after her exams, probably monday or tuesday. kinda nervous cos we will be taking the train alone. yeah, i will be missing netball chalet agin this year. sorry jenzi, i promised her i will go. wah lao, damn crap can, i started crying like shit on the plane. i hope my grandpa will be alright la, i dont mind exchanging ten years of mine for his. i've never been to hospitals for at least ten years. good guys should live longer shouldnt they. if making wishes to shooting stars really comes true, its up to whether my grandpa will be fine to decide. i dont know what im saying la. just came back from sending my mom and my sisters on train. i know he will be fine. so not to worry yeah(:
that's all. 1.30, shall go to bed. night(:

2007-11-26T09:17:00.000+08:00

off to sabah in 3 hours and 39 minutes! byebye singapore i will miss you! :D

2007-11-18T11:29:00.000+08:00

hohoho im back:DDD
sigh. we all wanted to stay for another night, but da jie has exam this week. oh well! anyway, i would say although this trip is short, it was good! xD
friday, still went for trng. wanted to go for lunch with xingxuan but moo suddenly called to say we are leaving soon cos da jie doesnt have lessons in the afternoon. turned out that she ponned. haha oh well. so pangseh xingxuan. sorry! then chiong home, bathed, last minute packing, then left for malacca. had lunch in msia. such a pig can, slept all the way there. hohoho my sis and i die die kope the deluxe room. so poor moo and daddy had to take the smaller room. hehehe the deluxe room has a seaview. and it was like sixteenth storey so we could see nearly the whole of malacca. oh man, wang ji pai zhao! but anyway five of us slept in the delxe room, us and cousin. then the other two cousins slept in another room. they all came from kelantan so it took quite long, and they reached suuuper late.
anyway, we had dinner before they came. we went for a walk around the streets and shops, then went to buy supper so we pigged and played dai dee for the whole night while the adults went for massage. after that we watched tv. my cousins' car broke down so daddy and moo went to fetch them. ergh, my pig sisters fell asleep before i realise im the only one awake can. was damn sleepy but i have to stay up to wait for my cousins and the adults to come back. if not how my cousin enter the room. she come le then bathed, while i tried hard to go back to sleep, being super awake. oh well, finally got to sleep.
in the morning woke up to the alarm. we just woke up then my parents already came back from their swim and were comfaortably having breakfast in their room le luh. haiyo. we didnt have breakfast but hurry dress up and rush rush rush. went to another hotel nearby for the wedding. eleven of us squeezed into daddy's seven seater, so it was quite squeezy. cousins' car broke down ma. the hotel damn class la. at first we went to daddy's aunt room, they were having breakfast ba. then we cammed around. and went for the marriage service first. the bride was pretty uh. the groom is daddy's cousin. but the main fun is the little kid sitting in front of us. hahaha he is damn cute la! he looks like little JR, the k-one person. whenever we smiled at him he will smile back, damn cute uh! he kept turning back to look at us, ke ai ke ai! there was once he kept trying to squeeze through the chair to come towards us. hahaha:D
then we had praises and the bride and bridegroom exchanged vows and put on rings. then the service ended and we had to take like relatives picture. upload the pics later ba, wo hen lan duo. like celebrities uh, so many cameras down there while we smile and pose on the stage, hohoho. then we went around taking pictures before the lunch started. my dad and uncle disappeared cos they went to check on the broken down car. after that was lunch. quite sian la. the dishes came up real slow, then the waitress serving us wasnt very polite. but at least she managed to fill up our glasses like ten twenty times. heh. there were three singers on stage. their singing is bagus one huh. they sang love songs, jing dian songs, chi songs, and songs like umbrella, which i think was very entertaining(:
then we camwhored, chatted, walked around, yam seng. yeah. ooh, they gave out bears for kids below twelve and candles for the rest. i got two bears! heehee:D the bears are super cute, but i think i left the bears in car. ooh, i took their pics(: but i got the candle from my dad too. hee. the lunch lasted for three hours plus plus ba. then the adults chatted and chatted like they wont be seeing each other again. sigh, adults. then eric kept throwing the bear onto the wall which landed on me and he jumped and jumped to get it down cos he wasnt tall enough. haha come to think of it, i think we looked quite stupid then. haha but eric is super sweet la, during lunch whenever the dishes were served, he will get a portion for my young sis and ignored all of us. haha. they are like xiao fu qi huh:D
after more camming with the xmas tree and arm wrestling, one of daddy's cousin brought us for dessert. but the shop was closed. then we decided to go back to the hotel to change then to jonker street. cos it will be quite dumb wearing dresses and suits to jonker street. then daddy's cousin left, haha i think he waved damn style can. anyway, jonker street is love times ten thousand. if we had the time i think i will stay there for another four hours uh. we went for dinner first, then cousins and us went to shop while the adults continue chatting and drinking their chendol. we bought like thirty rm of earrings. cos three for ten ma, so we spent like hours choosing. then my aunt suddenly came and said the shop in front is selling five for ten. wah lao, we were super remorseful can. the shop had like thousand times more variety. and five for ten bucks means sing dollars less than one buck. hou hui, hou hui. anyway we bu fang guo the shop also luh, we bought bracelets and neck stuffs. hahaha. so ytd i bought two pairs of earrings, one pair of earstuds, one bracelet and one handphone chain. oh man, i regret not buying the necklace! all also very hao kan, there's treble clefs, hearts, crowns etc etc. waaaah! we also bought bing tang hu lu. then my cousin bought this popping thing and started popping at our feet. oh well, next time i go there i wanna buy the necklace, handphone pouch, bags and those things which i didnt by. heh. and we said our goodbyes and parted there! slept all the way back to singapore. reached home like 11pm. and i slept like a pig till this morning.
yeah, the trip was good. my grandma passed five hundred bucks to my aunt to pass to me for sabah trip. and my aunt also gave me some money herself. i think they are so nice la. then my parents were like saying since my grandma and aunt gave me money then they dont have to give me money anymore. rubbbbbish. i wont find money to much to spend. i look forward to KL trip this dec! ytd suddenly realised that the trip may clash with netball chalet. checked today, good thing the trip is straight after netball chalet, if not i will have to waste thirty five bucks. heh. there's friendly with chij stc tmr. ehhhh very sudden leh! ver informed us on friday night i think. and trng camp on tues to thurs. i dont think im prepared for trng camp. xingxuan said that trng camp is like, trng, meals, nap, sleep. yeah. then fly said last year they had to run 3km every morning. this hol is quite busy uh. friendly, trng camp, ob sabah, netball chalet, kl trip. and i have less than two weeks to finish my hw. urgh i dont want hw. shoo shoo shoo.
i shall upload pics later(:

2007-11-15T19:56:00.000+08:00

hellohello.
i dont know if i should go for trng tmr. i dont wanna miss, but my ahemhem cannot be washed in time. howhowhow. and the childcare person hasnt replied me yet. georgina ng howhowhow. hahaha just now chatted on msn with rachel kohkohkoh. lucky luh, can earn money, hor hor hor? haha but then she said she will treat me coffee like those tai tai. hahaha im waiting for my cup of coffee! oh, correction: CUPS! :DD
last night i was damn pissed off can. cos of this problem with my (can you believe it) sister. please la, i dont know what the heck is her freaking problem la. is it cos you are too fortunate? wah lao, her attitude sucks to the core please. if she wanna rebel, then leave the house la! at least, bother to wash her own clothes an undergarment luh. and i think she's wearing my fbt now can. cos she refused to wash hers. wanna quarrel with me then dont fricking wear my fbt la. hai hao yi si. wah lao, her skin thicker than cushion is it. whole day she hangs out with her bu san bu si friend. then talk bout what committing suicide. wah lao, singapore's sucide rate not high enough ah?! if unsuccessful we still have to pay fines man. urgh. why cant she fricking use her brains to think? if her results' good then bo bian, nothing to say luh. but whole level ranked last twenty still stay out late and give some stupid excuse like, trng very tiring so i need to sleep. wth please. no wonder my parents so anti-netball now la. if she thinks doing this is so shuang dont make it seems like netball is forcing her to do so luh. like that lian lei me. and i fricking spent one whole hour knocking sense into her empty head. and guess what, still pretend to sleep, i just "OI!" my head off. idiot can. even if your studies cannot make it, the simplest basic manners is to listen when someone is speaking to you luh. and im like fricking 2 years older than you. really cant stand it when i saw the sms she sent to her friend can. what, "my parents dont understand. my sisters are even more scarier. i kept thinking of them as bootlickers. i cant stand this house. i want to get out of here." and some stupid things like i wanna jump off the building. WAH LAO. i got damn pissed can. so what if im bootlicker. im not like you to piss everyone off. im not like you to be so thick-skinned to quarrel with my mom but still eating her meals and not washing my own undergarments or clothes. and most important thing is, im not as rude as you or as ill-mannered as you or as barbaric you. wtf la. whatever luh. i dont really care bout that idiot. you can continue hanging out with your asshole friends and coming home late. whatever, its none of my business. if you grow up to be a gangster or a toilet cleaner, please, none of my business. such a disgrace can. but i have nothing to lose. i cant live a a couple of decades without having anything to do with you. good job, just get out of my sight.

2007-11-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

heyhey:D
weekend was okay. i dont know. haha. anyway, im looking forward to this friday cos we are going to malacca for wedding. heehee. my cousin just reminded me to bring mahjong. we can play all night. wheehee. sad thing is, cos my sis will be having her poly exams, then we cant stay longer. oh well. i dont know if i will be going for friday. dont think we will be setting off in the morn, but wonder if my mom will allow me to go.
my keyboard is super irritating. when i type somehow it always makes my alphabets missing. so i have to press superly duperly hard. ergh. its time to get a new keyboard man. oh well, one more year to getting laptop for me. daddy wanted to get one for me this year. hard to resist, but i turned him down cos i dont wanna use old laptop during jc. haha i shall wait.
i give up trying to get a job. its not enjoyable and i have two atms at home, why bother. is it wrong to love money. i still have the blue colour husband and i refuse to use it. hahaha. i shall find other ways to get money. and its really time to start on my nyaa cip! oh man, georgina ng, where are you! actually i wanna go to kinderland a civic centre. cos my mom's student is going there soon. she's super cute please. i think all my mom's students are cute. i shall go visit them again tmr. oh man, i love julius. julius is love:DD
had piano today. m sis kept complaining that she doesnt want her current student anymore, just because he doesnt want sweets and he has short attention span and his dad look ferocious. she wanted to give him to me but hahaha. although i think the student is super cute huh, its wrong to snatch my sis' fan wan so lalala(: as soon as i get my grade 8 cert i wanna teach! money money, i need an extra income. i really dont mind working as a cleaner either. anyone? (: speaking of cleaning, my room is finally cleaned. and i shifted my bed again. cos my dad kept grumbling bout my bed being next to the window. hahaha, oh well. i like my room cos is superly clean. and i finally put up tvxq on the wall. lalala:DD
the dye on my finger is getting off. good. heehee. ytd helped my mom to dye her hair. but it turned out black instead, i wonder why. and the brown dye on my finger couldnt get off. ergh. so i went for piano lesson with brown fingers. maybe that was what gave me bad luck. cos my teacher was super upset with my practical. sigh, i thought i heard her say last week that we will be doing theory these few weeks, so i kinda neglected my scales and pieces. hey today is the first time i finished my theory before lesson okay. but oh well.
hohoho good news. i found my mp3 player. dont know why it was hidden in my piles of cds. but anyway, good good good. i put all the new songs in it. yay, most are nice. lalala. yeah, shall go watch bbt and print hw now. goodbye:DD
insecurity is when you know pple are waiting to see you fall.

2007-11-08T14:57:00.000+08:00

hohoho. happy deepavali:DD
yayyy we are going out later(: not to celebrate deepavali la, duh. hahaha. anywayyy, ytd had trng. its quite irritating that whenever we have trng, it rains. and the carpark is super stuffy uh. haha ytd claire was totally drenched la. hehe. in the afternoon, we went to shop for clothes until night. for daddy's cousin's wedding next week. super kua zhang la, we stayed there for like four hours straight. haha, then at night my sis wanted to play cards. so three of us played cards till four am. then we were chatting online with my sis' poly friend. haha super funny. after that we watched tv and sleeeep(: so this morning i was like a dead pig. anyway, i put alot of new songs into my phone and mp3. im so xing fen, hahaha. i think jay's new album is pretty good uh, despite my first shock when i heard his niu zai hen mang. lalala.
oh well, i shall start on my homework soon. heehee(:
some pictures up! went to my mom's childcare again on tues. i was early and the teacher was teaching uh. then mingjie got so excited when he saw me and started blabbering bout his papa something something. haha his shoes were worn on the wrong side. damn cute la, ahha. then while the teacher was teaching, julius kepy tou kan-ing and smiling at me. suuuuper ke ai! :DDD yupp, so a couple of pictures! xD

haha this is what julius did when my mom told him to smile!

and this is on last saturday when my aunt's friends came. hohohoho.

that's all! heehee. oh well, i think my blog is getting boring.

2007-11-05T20:29:00.000+08:00

hellohello(: ehh, i think i shouldnt have trained today. just now on the bus, my right shin was hurting like oh man i dont know how to describe. waaaah, i dont want. okay i admit, i horrified of pain. please la, cannot tahan one can! D: oh well, today's trng we played against hc. hehehe i think the gs is suuuuuper zai:DDD well done meiling, two air balls. i should start practising my shots more often. gaaah:(
anywayyyy, most parts of my room is clean, just the walls left. oh well, i shall hurry hurry finish it up and start studyig. sighhhhh:((( went to msia ytd. oh, we went to look at houses. we may be moving over there. i dont know. and i dont mind huh. the houses there are like so much bigger. well, not that this house isnt good. its okaaay, except for the dinosaurs above and having to pay 32 thousand dollars for lift upgrading, which i think is super dumb. ha, its cos of the dinosaurs above that im turning raaacist. honestly, they should just eat themselves. hmph.
hohoho, jay's new album is preeeetty good! i fell straight in love with this song on the first note played. wonderful:D i promised myself not to listen to all the songs at once. but enjoy one by one! please this song is goood. i love it i love it i love it(: its my bg song if you can hear it(: aww sweet sweet. here i go again.

我不配
这街上太拥挤太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

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这感觉已经不对我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

2007-11-02T21:58:00.000+08:00

current mood: foul, very. hate to admit it but yeah, my shins hurt like goodness knows what man. well, that's not the most uncomfortable part cos my throat feels like its going to slash itself anytime. urgh, i dont want sore throat. i wanna be healthy and well:( anyway, i have this urge to pour out everything but i dont want pple to know. haha, sorry. anywaaaaaay, today may not be a bad day after all. blessing in dicguise, who knows. but definitely not something to be enjoyed. so yeah, if you get it you get it. if not(: hmm, wasnt really enjoying it in causeway. why cant they just sui bian. not being unreasonable but firing those bad-tempered aunties may make your business better. who knows. i shall just briefly talk bout today, trng, chua's house, lot1, causeway. seriously, i think jenzi has been very encouraging. this sounds very on the surface but but but, APPRECIATED(: and xingxuan wanted to charge five bucks for the counselling she gave. hahaha. well, i think bel is such an apple la. talking to her will just make you wanna laugh. oh well, sometimes you cant just rely on yourself. mr goh said something to me after trng, "your teammtes believe in you, that's what's most important." oh meiling. sigh. anyway, sorry.
haha, finally changed my blogskin huh(:

2007-10-30T22:11:00.000+08:00

waaaah, i realise i have so many things to do by today. well not all by today, but i planned to do all by today. and my room is in a mess, how am i supposed to sleep in my room! sheeeesh. anyway, im looking for a childcare to do cip with geeeeeorginaNG. i shall check the yishun one. if there's anyone who wishes to join us, TELL ME(: kids are so adorable please! hoho just now my sis had her first student. then they had piano lesson in our house. hahaha the student is damn cute la! shy shy de:DD
then today i went to my mom's childcare after she ended work. then this little guy julius was waiting for his ah gong. so i talk to him uh, then my mom told me to hold his hand to pass him to his ah gong. then he was so shy, he kept looking up at me! then at the door, the teacher was like "come julius, give teacher a hug!" so he did, then he turned back and stretched his hands out to me! hahaha i was suuuuper happy haha he's so cute can! xD
normally he wasnt like that one uh. in class he is suuuper active. he is the youngest in class, then sitting on the chair means you are being punished. but julius will happily say "YAO!" if my mom threatened to make him sit on the chair. hahaha then if she asks him to sit on the floor, he will say "MAI!" aaaahhhhh, damn cute please! :DDDDD that time went for one of their lessons, he was jumping around, suuuuuper ke ai laaaaa! AHHH(:
anyway, i shall go back to do my stuffs. byebye! ooh, i need to get money. trng tmr! :D

2007-10-29T21:09:00.000+08:00

i shall go and watch the nine pm show after blogging. gave up on youtube after spending thousands of years searching for the videos i want. HOW COME MEI YOUUUU!! D: anyway, yeah tv is more reliable huh. they wont like skip episodes. and i hate skipping episodes in case i miss out on anything interesting like shuaaai ge:DDD hahaha kidding!
and and and! my fever totally subsided ytd! hahaha im verrrrrry happy cos being sick really sucks! haha last night played daidee with my sisses! hahaha funny luh. and i realise i need to get a new set of cards. i prefer the tvxq one. ANYONEEEEE? hahaha. i should give up on finding a temporary income. money money money, i need money! DDD: do you think i should go fastfood to work! but fastfood pays so little ehhhhh! tao yan. ergh i wonder if the three still want!
and its time to start on cip for nyaa! hahaha. what should i do man. i wanna go those young young childcare. heeheehee(:
had trng today! i woke up at like 5 plus pls. but still was late for trng. haha then on the bus i was like rushing rushing the last few pages of the xiao shuo. wah lao, how come some pple insist that what xiao shuo is for old ah pek or bian tai de ren. EHHHH DO I LOOK LIKE I FALL IN ANY OF THOSE CATEGORIES? yao si ah, zhe yang jiang wo. tsktsktsk, young pple nowadays!
and yeah, i made a mess out of my room today! hahaha. i didnt throw my books inside my wardrobe and stuff my hongzi under my bed la. hahaha i put on a new look for my bedroom! well, not really too. i just shifted my stuffs everywhere. so the ending positions, my bed and desk and drawers were shifted! hahaha i like my new makeover. but its still pretty messy cos my whole desk is like piled with books, worksheets, posters, everything huh. hahaha oooohhh i can finallly put up the tvxq pics on the wall! HEEHEE. last year bought this whole thick thick stack of tvxq pics from junying of someone like that la. through ning! and i kept it on my desk for a looooong time. now time to see sunlight and dusk! haha, and who was the one who gave me this funny tvxq poster. hahaha super funny can. anyway, tmr shall be a busy day for me. i give up on getting my own money! shall rely on my parents! hehe:DD
anyway, i promised myself to write bout the three acts of kindness i witnessed today. although it wasnt by me, but i was suuuper glad. cos KIND PPLE EXIST(:
first. on the way to sch for trng, this blind guy was about to get on the bus and a young woman went to help him get up the bus onto a seat. THUMBS UP!
second. i didnt have enough money to take a cab and i was in a rush to meet someone. then this nice nice nice friend of mine, RACHEL KOH! saved my life and lent me her ten dollar note. and mr tan thought we were doing illegal jiao yi! hahaha but THUMBS UPPP!
three. this taxi driver gave up his 97.2 and tuned to 93.3 probably cos i looked quite sian. and he suuuper sped up cos i was in rush. THUMBS UPUPUP!
heehee yupp. might not be much to you. but thank goodness kindness still around ussss! so meiling, aspire to be a kind person! hohoho, yayyy. thinking bout it makes me happy. holidays are so much better than school please. at least i dont see you, you, and you. and it definitely makes my life better and my mood brighter. SHOO YOU SHOO! disgust, disgust!
i hadnt really been planning my hols. cos i was hoping to get a temp job to occupy my boooring life. fine, my boooring life does include studying for re-exam next year. and doing all my homework. ahhhhh sian! anyway, back to other more interesting events, i have wedding on 16th and 17th nov, but not mine la. duh you dumbo(: then 20th to22nd i think, trng camp. then 25th piano composing concert in msia. and 26th nov to 7th dec ob sabah. and 14th and 15th going to msia again i think. i was quite touched just now! cos my mom told my when she told my grandparents, aunt, uncle and my xiao gu about me going to live in the wild for 12 days, they all wanted to give me money. heehee good to be loved huh! :DDD
im in a happy mood today! hehehe. oh, i tried looking for hanakimi jap just now. i wonder which pighead told me to type hana kimi japan and there will be it. but how come i see hot asian girls coming out instead?! mei you mei you! i wanna watch mfbbt! but the episodes are missing! zen me ban! i still have a long list of shows i wanna watch, but i refused to move on. haaaai, stubborn like emule. haa. bu shuo le, i think im quite annoying today! zai jian!
thank goodness jenzi will still be with MEMEME next year! HOOORAY(:

2007-10-27T21:24:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhh, retribution:( ytd flared up my parents for not fetching me cos they were sick. then todayyyyyyy i woke up like a sick pig maaaaamD: i hate being sick:((((((((((((
and, corwin came today. heh so happy! i think corwin is damn cute! :DD
hao le, bu shuo le!

2007-10-25T20:46:00.000+08:00

its still quite early hurrrrrr. i thought its nine plus. sighhhhh. i like the nine pm show. although its not like very exciting or what la, but still. goodness knows why im watching mfbbt now. but i really think xiao yu is cuuuuute! hahahaha. ehhhh, i have been blushing since half an hour ago. how how how! hahaha!
i should be looking forward to holidays! just one day away huh. but how come i feeeeeeeel... hahahahahaha. im blushing again. is there like any disease which has symptoms like blushing. i reeeeeally dont wanna go to school tmr. honestly, i never ponned school for the sake of ponning lessons. fine, maybe it did contribute to the reasons a little, but ponning lessons was never my main intention of ponning! but someotherreaaaasons. but i shouldnt pon school tmr. since there's some dumbdumb level closure thing. and report book. and trng! so i shouldnt. and speaking of this, i wonder how jenzi is now!
i dont feel like blogging bout today. yeah east coast park. you can go figure out yourself. you you you, i wonder if there's anyone who bothers to read my blog. i feel like shutting it down again. hahaha my third blog can. feel very dui bu qi to my blog, cos i only blog when i feel like it. somewhat like a rubbish bin. haaaa. eh, my blushing hasnt stopped yet. hahaha.
you hen duo hua xiang shuo you shuo bu chu, zhe zhong feeling ni ming bai maaaaaaa! i just feel like blogging a long post today. i think i mentioned something bout man inflicting pain on their common mankind in the previous post. goodness knows why i keep thinking bout this these few days. someone told me something but i forgot what. my memory is getting worse. how come i cant remember anything further than ytd. or rather wei shen me zhi ji de bu kai xin de shi! anyway, ytd went for a second test, and guess what the doctor said. hahahahahahaha. oh well, some things cant be changed. tai chi le! rather than regrettinggggg why not zhen xi mei yi ge xian zai, chuang zao geng mei hao de wei lai! if it exists, that is. hahahahahahaha. laughter is the best medicine. hate to disagree. sui bian la. nowadays dont feel like wanting anything. sui bian jiu hao. yao kan de kai, dui bu dui?
my blushing cant stop. zen me ban! i think it is very irritating to read han yu pin yin like that. hao ba, jiu read dao zhe li ba! ke yi zou le! hahaha, wo lai shuo yi ge gu shi i recently heard. you yi tian, lao shi jiao zhe ge tong xue dao sen lin li cai hua, cai yi duo you da you mei li de hua. tong xue dao yi zheng tian zai sen lin li xun zhao, que liang shou kong kong de hui lai. lao shi wen, "wei shen me ni qu le lao ban tian, que shen me hua ye mei dai hui lai?" tong xue shuo, "qi shi, zai lu shang, wo kan dao le yi duo you da you mei li de hua, ke shi wo jue de hui you geng da geng mei li de hua, suo yi wo mei ba hua cai xia." gu shi de moral shi shuo, yao wo men zhen xi mei yi ge hui yi. haha mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de! wo men yao zuo wei da de ren! na de qi, fang de xia, zhi dao ma? hahaha yi dui luan bai de dao li luh. wo ye bu zhi dao. zui jin tai lei le, bu xiang qiang qiu shen me ba. deng dao wo huo li chong pei shi, zai zheng qu wo yao de lo! ke neng na shi hou yi jing tai chi le, but too bad huh. hahaha. lao shi jiang, i was very very scared during the second test. ke neng kao shi dou mei you zhe me ke pa ba. sui ran ping shi xiang, ru guo you shen me san chang liang duan, ye wei bi shi ge huai shi. zhi shao bu yong zai guo zhe zhe zhong sheng huo, ke neng yin wei mei you an quan gan ba, gua diao geng hao. ke shi zai xiang xiang, shi bu shi hui you hen duo she bu de. bu zhi dao li kai hou qu na li. sui ran zuo bu shao huai shi, ying gai hai neng shang tian tang ba. bu zhi dao hai neng bu neng kan dao xi huan de jia ren, peng you. bu zhi dao hai neng bu neng kan dao mei li de feng jing! ni zhi bu zhi dao, mei dang wo kan dao mei li de feng jing, wo hui very very very happy! hahaha sounds stupid, but wo hui de! at first, the yi sheng said bu ke neng, ni hai zhe me nian qing. then i still need to go for third test. sighhh, xin ku ah. wei shen me zuo ren ye na me lei. you shi hou xiang ge zou diu de xiao gou. you shi hou xiang mi lu de xiao hai. you shi hou xiang da hai zhong de xiao chuan, zhao bu dao an. you shi hou zhi neng ok de, ok de. you shi hou you yao yi ge qing ting de er duo. you shi hou you bu yao ren jia zhi dao. you shi hou zhi neng xiang ge bai chi de kan ni. ke shi ye bu neng zuo shen me. you shi hou xiang, ben lai wo men ye ye mei you zen yang. zhe yang hai bi jiao an wei. hahaha. sui bian la. zhi shao xian zai kai xin de ren bi nan guo de ren duo, rang wo zuo ge wei da de ren ba! i dont know why the song "zui shu xi de mo sheng ren" keep rao-ing around my brain. bu kui shi jin qu o! ren sheng duan duan ji shi nian, peng you men, yao zhen xi mei yi fen mei yi miao! hao le, zhong yu got it off my chest, wo kai xin le(:

2007-10-25T19:13:00.000+08:00

hohoho PICTURE TIMEEE!

me, chengxinnnn!

me, gwen, bel, gi at clarke quay!

spastic la, tourists!

me, gwen!

guess guess guess what bel is doing:

a)flagging for a cab

b)pointing to the building

c)ran out of pose

claaaarke quay!

curry puffs gang!

vs milk tea gang:DD

hahaha bel cute luhhhhhh!

on the mrt!

distooooorted! xD

good colour combi:DDD

look front,

look back!

hahaha that's all for pics ytd! oneeee last one! sweet(:

2007-10-24T22:44:00.000+08:00

heh heh im suuuuuper lazy to blog cos i wanna watch youtube:D but haaaa i finished my sbq! hahaha damn kai xin la! spent like hour plus. ergh. i promised bel to upload the pics tonight, so tada while waiting for my videos to load!
today we went to singapore discovery centre. hahaha super sian la. nothing much, but the documentary is goood:DDD wo bu ming bai why man wanna inflict pain on their common mankind. wei shen me yao hu xiang chan sha? harm each other, sighhhh. eveeeerywhere. then after school have to wait for the three da mei nv to man man get ready to leave.
hahaha we went for job interviews but apparently all failed. wah lao, its quite pissifying when you asked them on the phone, fifteen can anot harrrr? then they ya, its okay. OKAY MY FOOT. when we ~~spent~~ wasted so much money on cab fare then you "sorry, cannot". SORRY NO CURE. urgh. dont want jiu dont want ma. hai wo men bai bai pao yi tang. sheeesh. but still, we felt that the trip was quite fun. hahaha.
first we went to clarke quay. took loaaads of pics. haha yeah clarke quay is a niceee place. hahaha oh maan i dont wanna talk bout our first interview place. come to think bout it now, its damn funny! hahaha! i shall upload the pics later! hahaha then we went to get something to eat then sit there. took more pics. hahaha. then we went to munchy hq in tanjong katong and yeah you guess. but we bought doughnuts. oh well, at least there's shou huo. hahaha. wo men bu hui fang qi de! hahaha we shall go look for jobs at fastfood restaurants. although the pay is like sighhhh. hao ba!
heh ming tian zai upload ba! today my com tired already:/